Anyone else feeling like this place isn't very good for them?

[NameOfAction]

I stupidity came here to seek connection with other people, hoping that other suicidals might be more open to it.

I don't know why I thought that. If I can't act sociable or care very much, why would others?

I didn't need more methods, or new motivation, I've had plenty of that before.

Now I'm coming away having read through people's deaths, accounts of endless suffering, good people really, really hurting themselves live.

It's just a new place to doom scroll and debate, like Twitter, but with a flavour of 'killing yourself isn't a bad idea and society lies to you to keep you slaving away'. it's not wrong and doesn't deserve shutdown, but man is it really not a good place to get stuck scrolling

Like, I don't blame this place, it'd be like blaming the razor for cutting myself, but when it was down I was doing better. Kinda like when I'm out of razors, I don't cut.

My bad tho, no hard feelings. Worst thing is now I won't leave. How can I? It's exactly what I want, to suffer and have others agree that there's nothing else

 

[Porgierot]

I think most mental health places online tend to be black holes of negativity. Unless they're strictly moderated and pro-recovery. It just comes with the territory. I often felt the same (for other places). It helps to put some more block between the sites that keep you in those sorts of thoughts. If you were doing better when you didn't have access I think it's kind of a clear message that what you say you want isn't really what you truly want, not exactly anyway.
I try to be less active on sited that I know exaccerbate such feelings from time to time. Just deleting the site from like site suggestions that come up can already mean you got a bit more time to be like "maybe I shouldn't be reading depressing stuff right now", or blocking the site somehow.

But also negativity can almost be some sort of addiction, I feel as human beings we tend to be sorta primed for negative sensationalism and things like that. It's easy to end up in echochambers and whatnot that just become a looping feedback of confirmations of everything that's wrong with us and the world.

 

[SASU-KE]

I understand how you feel. In fact, even during the downtime I was thinking it's a good thing that SASU is down since it gives me some kind of break that I wouldn't take otherwise lol.

But ultimately it's upon each individual to not form unhealthy habits.I used to game too much. At a point I used to workout too much. Every thing is bad for you when done too much.
The Internet is the same.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

yes, though i think having the chance to talk openly about suicide helps a lot. trying to hold it all in has been really rough on me and just being able to say that i want to ctb without judgement or being put in a hospital has been very good for me. trying to hold it in had me visibly stressed constantly. also prevoius attempts used non methods that could have done a lot of damage to me and its really good i know not to try those ways anymore, though i suppose i dont need this stie specifically for that as i could have just googled on my own how well those things work.

but reading about all the people who ctb is devastating and makes me feel very sad. i don't think I can say suicide is wrong because i also want to do it and it seems hypocritical to say it's okay for me and not others. but i do get sad reading about others.

 

[maylurker]

yeah bro exactly thats why i decided to leave as soon as i realised what people are here for. most interaction here are ptsdfuel/get ego'd anyway. its not a good place to use as a social media outlet lol thats for sure. people here for way way different reasons

 

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[Pluto]