Anyone else feel like they’ll only be loved if they die

[AgathaChristieLover]

When I was younger, my mom and dad loved me, my teachers loved me, I had loads of friends, etc. Then my brother left for college. I've always been the golden child, and he was the one everyone hated. But when he left, my mom couldn't turn his anger on him anymore, so she turned it on me. I feel like my parents hate me now. They constantly berate me. I've also lost many friends due to reasons I don't know. But if I die, I fell like people will love me. I've went to a funeral before, it's nothing but love for the dead person there. If I die, my mom will love me

 

[3rdworldsadness]

No. People won't love me if I die and that's completely alright. I never truly loved someone and that's completely alright too. People didn't knew me before I came to existence I will leave just like that. And I'm sorry what happened to you. You should move on. I hope freedom and peace for you.

 

[Kokonoe]

yes. although, i think it will be temporary. sometimes i feel there is no one to miss me, and i think that's somewhat true. no one will truly miss me. but i like to imagine that my death would make some people care, even if only for a moment. and i want that. i want someone to love me, even if it's fleeting, even if i have to die for it to happen.