Discussion anyone came to terms with the fact that they won't cbt even if they are extremely suicidal?

[TastySorrow]

There's a couple things I've been trying to succeed at and pushing through despite the inconveniences lately. I often feel like I want to live my life as if I was definitely CTB, i.e. not taking care of them anymore, but in practice I'm almost unconsciously keeping at them, as if something inside me was afraid I'm never gonna be able to voluntarily leave this world.

 

[Lordsudbury]

I've got the noose and all set up upstairs I just need to pull the trigger and accept my final decision

 

[opiatedreamz]

i've been pushing through as much as i can. i don't think i'd be ready to ctb for a long time. there's many reasons for that, really. i want to live and see what happens in this world at least a little bit. some days suck more than others, and i feel ready... but i just couldn't do it.

 

[Amumu]

Yes exactly
I'm extremely suicidal but I won't ctb because I developed a form of masochism with regard to life.

 

[NA90]

I'm planning to go with sn in two months. But after reading the most recent stories I'm so scared.