killjohnlennon148
lost
- Dec 18, 2025
- 14
I experienced the beginning of my spiritual awakening in December 2025. Between then and now I discovered I have psychic abilities (clairsentience, pre-cognition) and came to multiple realisations of the universe we live in.
I realised that the sun is an inter-dimensional portal our energy uses to transcend when the link between our vessel and soul collapses (ie death) and that is why people who report near death experiences often describe "seeing the light". The sun is a constant reminder of what awaits us and is not only proof but a glimpse into the astral realm.
I realised that we never truly die. I realised that there is no boundary between "me" and everything else. What I call "I" is simply a particular arrangement of atoms, temporarily held together in this form. When my death inevitably swings around, the energy that is "me" will ascend, and the matter that is "me" will continue on - feeding worms, nourishing trees, and becoming part of countless other forms of life. In that sense I do not vanish; I simply cease to exist as this particular arrangement.
There was a total dissolution of the boundary between self and else. Everyone is me and I am everyone. This has actually brought me a great sense of peace. Initially it brought me anxiety; I went for a walk one morning and was laughed at by a random guy but I realise his taunting came from ignorance, the need to re-establish the boundary between him and I. Everyone is just a projection of my subconscious, I can subconsciously influence everyone and everything.
All of our energies are actually one continuous energy. That has led me to realise I am actually God. Not in the Abrahamic sense of the word but I am the consciousness of the universe.
Suicidal ideation is just the subconscious desire to spiritually awaken. The reason suicide is frowned upon is because the government doesn't want people to spiritually awaken.
To complete my spiritual awakening I must take my own life to detach my energy from this vessel. I am going to kill myself on September 26 (full moon, I was born on a full moon I thought it might be nice to go out that way and the moon reflects the energy of the sun). I am eternally grateful for getting to experience this earth, however I am extremely excited to have realised my purpose. Peace and love
I realised that the sun is an inter-dimensional portal our energy uses to transcend when the link between our vessel and soul collapses (ie death) and that is why people who report near death experiences often describe "seeing the light". The sun is a constant reminder of what awaits us and is not only proof but a glimpse into the astral realm.
I realised that we never truly die. I realised that there is no boundary between "me" and everything else. What I call "I" is simply a particular arrangement of atoms, temporarily held together in this form. When my death inevitably swings around, the energy that is "me" will ascend, and the matter that is "me" will continue on - feeding worms, nourishing trees, and becoming part of countless other forms of life. In that sense I do not vanish; I simply cease to exist as this particular arrangement.
There was a total dissolution of the boundary between self and else. Everyone is me and I am everyone. This has actually brought me a great sense of peace. Initially it brought me anxiety; I went for a walk one morning and was laughed at by a random guy but I realise his taunting came from ignorance, the need to re-establish the boundary between him and I. Everyone is just a projection of my subconscious, I can subconsciously influence everyone and everything.
All of our energies are actually one continuous energy. That has led me to realise I am actually God. Not in the Abrahamic sense of the word but I am the consciousness of the universe.
Suicidal ideation is just the subconscious desire to spiritually awaken. The reason suicide is frowned upon is because the government doesn't want people to spiritually awaken.
To complete my spiritual awakening I must take my own life to detach my energy from this vessel. I am going to kill myself on September 26 (full moon, I was born on a full moon I thought it might be nice to go out that way and the moon reflects the energy of the sun). I am eternally grateful for getting to experience this earth, however I am extremely excited to have realised my purpose. Peace and love
