Fear of what comes after death

[LetMeGoPlease]

Hello everyone. This is a serious topic for me so I want to discuss it with those who also take it seriously. If you don't believe anything happens after death, good for you, I envy you, but I am not interested in your opinion.

Ever since I've taken an interest in spirituality I have been terrified that if I kill myself I will only have to repeat the same kind of life as I am living right now, or that it will be an even worse one. I believe in karma and reincarnation and that we are all just consciousness exploring who we are. So until we overcome our problems we won't be able to progress. We'll keep being born into the same type of circumstances and take on the same problems until we overcome them.

This terrifies me so much it's causing me severe OCD and it's affecting everything I do on a daily basis. I miss the days I was an atheist and believed that death will erase all of my problems because nothing will happen after. But now I feel like I am completely stuck in suffering. Even if I kill myself I will just respawn and live through that suffering again. Not to mention all the things people like to scare me with about how my soul will be stuck and damaged so I will have to do extra work and suffer even more if I kill myself. I am in a lose lose situation from hell.

I wanted to ask those of you who have similar beliefs how you deal with that. Sometimes I don't know if the biggest issue really are my survival instincts or if it's my spiritual beliefs that are holding me back from killing myself. There are no words that can describe how utterly trapped I feel. It is causing me severe mental breakdowns. Just imagine being literally stuck in suffering from every angle. No way out. This is my life. My existence. No way out of suffering, not even suicide.

I would really appreciate your help.

 

[endlesschatter]

I'm afraid, but you are right if we are to believe the common notion. It's said that our sufferings in this life are based on our past karmas and sanskars. So, even if we break free of this life, we are likely going to suffer the same in the next life. I don't believe in heaven and hell. But there's some sort of home to souls where souls rest for some time before taking birth.. Before their birth, everything is decided.

I don't think about it even when i have studied about past life regression in great detail. I am like i don't care about next life, just that i care about this life for the time being.
We will see next life's situation in next life. Who cares.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

I'm afraid, but you are right if we are to believe the common notion. It's said that our sufferings in this life are based on our past karmas and sanskars. So, even if we break free of this life, we are likely going to suffer the same in the next life. I don't believe in heaven and hell. But there's some sort of home to souls where souls rest for some time before taking birth.. Before their birth, everything is decided.

I don't think about it even when i have studied about past life regression in great detail. I am like i don't care about next life, just that i care about this life for the time being.
We will see next life's situation in next life. Who cares.

I care! I care so much! My mind tortures me every time I am deeply suffering because I know suicide will just take me right back into it. That's when I think about how there is no escape the most. It's such hell!

 

[endlesschatter]

I care! I care so much! My mind tortures me every time I am deeply suffering because I know suicide will just take me right back into it. That's when I think about how there is no escape the most. It's such hell!

Don't worry about it. You'll not have any recollection of what happened in your previous life.. Secondly, who knows this concept is even right or not. There's no way to verify if this concept is real or imaginary

 

[t8129]

It might happen or it might not, if it does you wouldn't remember anyway

theoretically the same thing would just keep happening until you get out of it eventually, if this is true

It doesnt really matter if you don't remember

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

Don't worry about it. You'll not have any recollection of what happened in your previous life.. Secondly, who knows this concept is even right or not. There's no way to verify if this concept is real or imaginary

I hope I won't remember, some children do. It makes me feel better to see comments here say comforting things. Whenever I tell spiritual people I am suicidal they make sure to scare me about karma and how my soul will be stuck on the astral plane all fragmented and how my next life will be extra miserable.

It might happen or it might not, if it does you wouldn't remember anyway

theoretically the same thing would just keep happening until you get out of it eventually, if this is true

It doesnt really matter if you don't remember

Yeah that's how it is supposed to work so I guess there is an inevitable end to the loop. Thanks for reminding me of that. I just hope I get enough rest in between lifetimes and won't be burdened by all the suffering from this life. I should make more posts like this on this page because it is the only place I can safely discuss this. Every spiritual person always fearmongers about suicide.

 

[endlesschatter]

I hope I won't remember, some children do. It makes me feel better to see comments here say comforting things. Whenever I tell spiritual people I am suicidal they make sure to scare me about karma and how my soul will be stuck on the astral plane all fragmented and how my next life will be extra miserable.

Yeah that's how it is supposed to work so I guess there is an inevitable end to the loop. Thanks for reminding me of that. I just hope I get enough rest in between lifetimes and won't be burdened by all the suffering from this life. I should make more posts like this on this page because it is the only place I can safely discuss this. Every spiritual person always fearmongers about suicide.

I'm spiritual too and i have connected to the highest realm in meditation. So, don't worry about the psuedo spiritual people uttering nonsense. I have studied past life regression. I have studied it very closely. I cannot say for sure if the memory that comes up, is it a real memory or an imaginary creation of mind or may be the mind tuned to some other source and gathered the data and told so it looks accurate.
No one really knows what happens.

 

[FoolClimax]

Take some benzos if you can. It will alleviate you problems.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

I'm spiritual too and i have connected to the highest realm in meditation. So, don't worry about the psuedo spiritual people uttering nonsense. I have studied past life regression. I have studied it very closely. I cannot say for sure if the memory that comes up, is it a real memory or an imaginary creation of mind or may be the mind tuned to some other source and gathered the data and told so it looks accurate.
No one really knows what happens.

Thank you for sharing this, I really appreciate it. It's actually very similar to what the spiritual teacher I follow says about past life regression. God knows what you're actually tuning into. I still believe that one soul chooses similar lives because of karma (which I see as a cause-and-effect system and not a punishment system, which actually feels worse to me). Or that it makes choices based on the previous choices like we all do. So maybe it will decide there is more to gain from the kind of hell I am going through.

Take some benzos if you can. It will alleviate you problems.

I will take benzos when I do it. I have been collecting them for 5 years. My psychiatrist keeps prescribing them to me and she doesn't know I haven't taken a single one all this time.

Take some benzos if you can. It will alleviate you problems.

I will take benzos when I do it. I have been collecting them for 5 years. My psychiatrist keeps prescribing them to me and she doesn't know I haven't taken a single one all this time.

 

[RazzleDazzle]

It might happen or it might not, if it does you wouldn't remember anyway

theoretically the same thing would just keep happening until you get out of it eventually, if this is true

It doesnt really matter if you don't remember

There's some stuff I feel like I have made progress in figuring out in this life. I would like to not have to go through any of this again, but there are some things I did figure out, and it's unbearable to go on.

 

[jayjay95]

I care! I care so much! My mind tortures me every time I am deeply suffering because I know suicide will just take me right back into it. That's when I think about how there is no escape the most. It's such hell!

Also, as someone whose teenage years felt EXCRUCIATING, I don't want to have to go through that again... and not only that but if I'm reborn into the future world, I will then have to relearn all the lies, horrors and desensitizing myself. I'd probably be even more addicted to my phone and internet than I am now, and would most likely not be accepted into the workplace. The way the younger generation has it now is an extreme nightmare for me. I'm not even gonna start on the extreme climate and the weather changes that are a result of it. I just want to be a nice ladies house cat if i am reincarnated.