Anyone 35 and over?

[LittleJem]

45. Hopefully it will be the last age I have

 

[ForeverLonely82]

I am 40...and it hate it.

 

[Grav]

Just turned 55. Desire to go accelerating daily now.

 

[TimetoGo!]

42 and I don't want to reach my 43rd birthday on June 1st......

its simply as soon as I am confident enough in a method I am gone.

Drowning is my main option and very nearly went ahead last weekend. Can't mess it up

 

[Borgrot]

41, never thought I'd hit 30, always thought this would be the way I'd go. Can't see me lasting much longer, there's just no hope in this world anymore. Options are closing down. Life is slowly coming to an end.

 

[SorrowMind]

I'm in my mid 30s and I feel too old

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Still 47

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I'm 35, wasted the last 10 years of my life grieving over my dad's death. Should've just gone at 25. I've never enjoyed life, I think I was born with depression.

 

[orca87]

I'm 35, wasted the last 10 years of my life grieving over my dad's death. Should've just gone at 25. I've never enjoyed life, I think I was born with depression.

I can relate to that so much!

 

[whywere]

I'm a weary 60. Got a disabling illness at 35. Have unrelenting, untreatable childhood trauma which repeats itself, almost daily... so, triggered and getting worse day after day. Last two years I've been aging in dog years - don't recognize myself.
I tried so hard for so many decades, sought understanding and healing, learned how to have boundaries and communicate pretty well. I had hope longer than a person has a right to, given the repeat trauma and the illness. I'm a spinster with no friends and a family who pretends to care, but don't. Now I'm just struggling with taking the final step. Looking back 40 would have been an excellent time to ctb, my life has only gotten worse since - But I'd had hope back then. God I wish someone else could do it for me! I'm so scared but also my rent is going way up and I won't be able to afford living for much longer... as if surviving has been living!

You are a good friend to/for me. I am the same as you as far as I have no family nor friends, EXCEPT everyone here on SS. That aspect alone makes me smile each and every day and I want the same for you, my good friend!

It is all over SS, and I had a very crappy childhood filled with trauma and drama, it seems like each and every day, and with that said I wrap my arms around you to let you know that you are a very loving, caring and thoughtful person.

I care about you a lot. I wear my heart on my sleeve, after 67 years on this planet, I am more emotional every day and I really walk with you and we are all in this together, hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder.

Sending you lots of huge hugs, love, and brilliant blue sunny skies to enjoy. YOU are a very important person to/for me.

Walter

 

[koko]

47

 

[RichardFirst]

36.

 

[Foxes]

41 here. Depressed for over 20 years now and have been trying to build the courage to finally exit this life cause I feel like I'm too far gone now. Lost most of my friends due to my depression, lost my mother at age 34 (she was my rock, my cheerleader, and my best friend), lost the love of my life 3 years ago cause he could no longer handle my symptoms, my relationship with remaining family members is non-existent and tumultuous at best.

Trying to deal with depression alone is extremely hard and this has been a painful journey. I'm glad that this forum exists.

Sending everyone here so much love.

 

[AnonymousS]

Yes i'm 49.

 

[janejackson]

42

 

[WearyHSP]

You are a good friend to/for me. I am the same as you as far as I have no family nor friends, EXCEPT everyone here on SS. That aspect alone makes me smile each and every day and I want the same for you, my good friend!

It is all over SS, and I had a very crappy childhood filled with trauma and drama, it seems like each and every day, and with that said I wrap my arms around you to let you know that you are a very loving, caring and thoughtful person.

I care about you a lot. I wear my heart on my sleeve, after 67 years on this planet, I am more emotional every day and I really walk with you and we are all in this together, hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder.

Sending you lots of huge hugs, love, and brilliant blue sunny skies to enjoy. YOU are a very important person to/for me.

Walter

Walter whywere,
What a generous response and thanks for the virtual hugs.
As an HSP who can't lie or fake things, I wear my heart on my sleeve like you. Though these days I'm filled with sadness, and people don't much like to be around those types.
Glad you're here on SS to say kind things to people here who are hurting. Thanks.

 

[Deleted User#81194]

20 but honestly feel 60+, my parents say I behave like an old person anyways. Though I've always felt old since the time I was in middle school. All those years of introspection and solitude to myself made me realize just how cruel/indifferent reality can really be. I haven't changed one bit mentally since the time I was 13.

 

[jolongone]

As someone who literally just turned 40... I just want to know if there are other 35+ people on here.... so many of you guys seem to be 20s, even teens... and I hope not younger.
I'm sure some of my posts here would make my age/world-experience pretty obvious.
May be that's why I'm on here just to discuss means/sources - that too because I'm stuck on foreign terrain now.... not really seeking camaraderie... kind of just set in in CTB and all other notions and stuff?
Btw, may be my perspective is informative to someone: I do see one difference in me from most people here... to the extent I've seen posts... I must say that at least until a few years ago, my life has been attended by every kind of success you can think of... excepting may be starting a family - fell too ill before that one. No life-experience really has been frustrating... went to the best schools in the US and elsewhere... high-flying career, an amount of acclaim... quite some $ before even turning 30. Must've crammed 60 years worth by 35. Illness and other circumstances have now caught up with me. But, even these I just think it's what it is.... genius runs on both sides of the family. So too does illness. A lot of very smart, very distinguished, very fragile people all round. Win some, lose some I guess, like in the Joe Pesci movie. So, even this CTB turn, I'm the least bit upset or pensive. I just care that I don't botch it, and don't end up in jail, because, this is India....

I'm 66 soon, never thought l would make it this far

 

[expiredfckmeat]

Yep, 40 (don't ask me how). For a little while longer anyways...

 

[Zegers]

Early-30 disabled. No hope left here.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I'm 34 ( I wish everyone on here who wants to complete ctb a success to eternal peace)

 

[Joarga]

54

 

[Anonymus]

45 years since March
//
45 anys desde el Març

 

[Kerrtu]

40 years, 3 days

 

[ToTheTwillight]

36 yo, going to be 37 at the end of the month

 

[moontime62]

As someone who literally just turned 40... I just want to know if there are other 35+ people on here.... so many of you guys seem to be 20s, even teens... and I hope not younger.
I'm sure some of my posts here would make my age/world-experience pretty obvious.
May be that's why I'm on here just to discuss means/sources - that too because I'm stuck on foreign terrain now.... not really seeking camaraderie... kind of just set in in CTB and all other notions and stuff?
Btw, may be my perspective is informative to someone: I do see one difference in me from most people here... to the extent I've seen posts... I must say that at least until a few years ago, my life has been attended by every kind of success you can think of... excepting may be starting a family - fell too ill before that one. No life-experience really has been frustrating... went to the best schools in the US and elsewhere... high-flying career, an amount of acclaim... quite some $ before even turning 30. Must've crammed 60 years worth by 35. Illness and other circumstances have now caught up with me. But, even these I just think it's what it is.... genius runs on both sides of the family. So too does illness. A lot of very smart, very distinguished, very fragile people all round. Win some, lose some I guess, like in the Joe Pesci movie. So, even this CTB turn, I'm the least bit upset or pensive. I just care that I don't botch it, and don't end up in jail, because, this is India....

61

 

[ongoingo]

52 terrible years...

 

[thrutrekfinaly]

35 here

 

[Jezzibell]

52 here

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Can i ask people here a short question?

I'm 25 and i just wanna know how turning 30 for a lot of people went in their "mind"