LifeOfTheCursed
It is what it is
- Jan 3, 2024
- 28
Three in the morning as i am writing this, i tried CTB by drinking bleach but it wouldn't even go past my lips.
The impulse to do it is pretty much gone, today would have been the perfect day but i guess not. I want reliable as in easy to acquire, i can go ahead and setup a whole plan on how to do it but when it comes to the final act i freeze and after 20 minutes of pause the impulse is gone
Guns would be pefect, but i live in Romania so i can't grab one at the corner shop. Common medicine is easily accesible but i can't just overdose on paracetamol and wait god knows how long for the bus
I need something that i can acquire somewhat easily and the final act is quick and snappy. If it kills me instantly it's great, but i wouldn't mind 30 minutes of pain before dark or whatever afterlife has in store for me
The impulse to do it is pretty much gone, today would have been the perfect day but i guess not. I want reliable as in easy to acquire, i can go ahead and setup a whole plan on how to do it but when it comes to the final act i freeze and after 20 minutes of pause the impulse is gone
Guns would be pefect, but i live in Romania so i can't grab one at the corner shop. Common medicine is easily accesible but i can't just overdose on paracetamol and wait god knows how long for the bus
I need something that i can acquire somewhat easily and the final act is quick and snappy. If it kills me instantly it's great, but i wouldn't mind 30 minutes of pain before dark or whatever afterlife has in store for me