Any plans for your last day?

[notori]

Just curious of anyone's thoughts on this. Maybe eating a favorite food for the last time, messaging an old friend, and tying up loose ends. I'm trying to decide how i would plan mine, or at least how I could tie up all the loose ends of my life before I free myself if I don't end up doing it out of impulse.

 

[iloverachel]

If it was my last day, I would definitely spend time with loved ones and friends. Probably make a good bye thread on here and interact with this beautiful community. Eat my favorite food. Listen to my favorite music. Visit my favorite places

 

[lnlybnny]

i feel like that would be so draining... i wish i could just vanish. i think doing favorite things would trigger SI a lot. but some days before would be nice to have my fav meals. and lately i've been feeling the need to listen to songs i love all the time. seeing my fav artists (even through screen) makes my heart want to stay though, it's so confusing. maybe stretching these activities through a few weeks as to not have to do it all at once on the last week/day. also i don't want to justify anything to anyone, i don't think whatever i say would be enough.

 

[Forveleth]

Not sure what I'll do. I have attempted a few times and have found that planning to make the day different or special ends up making me more nervous and existential. Also, I don't live alone so I can't act too weird about it. Might have a nice breakfast but that's about it.

 

[ClaudeCTTE]

I don't like the idea of planning my last day.

Enjoying things for the last time would make me doubt if I really want to CTB because I would be aware that I can still enjoy things and therefore I will feel unsure. Although, ignoring that, it's most likely that on my last day, I'll listen to all my favorite songs for the last time.

 

[Dark Moon]

I don't know yet maybe a steak dinner or pizza, maybe spend time with the family, play one of my favourite games.

 

[rozeske]

All the 'doing stuff for the last time' has proved to induce anxiety and way to back out last minute, am thinking if it would be better to just let go of all that and treat it like an ordinary day. Just go through the motions like am going for a trip or something.....

 

[rottenflesh]

i can't really do anything i like on my last day because i'll be fasting for SN and traveling to the hotel i'm gonna ctb. I wish i could eat my favorite food or drink before doing it but thats life i guess.

 

[bookgirl]

On my last day I would buy a book and read it

 

[casandranova29]

Won't do anything special or different. I will follow my usual routine. I don't believe in dying fancy.

 

[Ash]

If I CTB it's because I'm unable to get any enjoyment from anything. I become suicidal when the things I love or take comfort from stop bringing me peace.

 

[Chronosphere]

Will be fasting for the regimen. Other than that nothing unusual. Don't see a point in making this day "special". It works if you plan to live, otherwise it doesn't matter.

 

[Ksmиda]

I don't know. Probably nothing - I don't find anything interesting these days. I also don't really want to do anything I like because it might make me cancel my ctb

 

[sserafim]

I want to go to London and have afternoon tea at the Savoy. I was supposed back in 2014 but didn't because my mom and I skipped it to go to the British library

 

[AnyWonderBR]

Listening to My favorite musical piece, in the night outside, snow and snowing, cold crisp Air, finally away and free from it all.

 

[TiredTurtle2]

I dont think it really matters because ill be dead soon, i cant imagine trying to enjoy myself while working up the courage to finally ctb

 

[LunarGirl]

I never really came up with a plan for my last day, more just how I would actually CTB. I feel like making the day special/doing things you don't normally do is going to just make you feel like you aren't finished yet.

 

[sadman710]

Be completely relaxed and uninhibited. Ignore every unwanted message and phone call. Eat whatever food and drink and drug available that sounded good. Then when SI is low make the move.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

none whatsoever. it'll just be another day, but this time it happened to be the last. that's all.

 

[casandranova29]

Won't do anything special or different. I will follow my usual routine. I don't believe in dying fancy.

But I do wish I had the option to CTB in a forest near a lake at night when the whole sky is full of stars.

 

[Ww42]

Im gonna eat my favorite meal the night before, then just enjoy some music and maybe drive around and lay in the sun. Then enjoy the suns warmth as i drift off to eternal rest