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maryn

maryn

the world sucks!!!
Jul 27, 2026
7
I kinda like cutting myself, and am morbidly curious about it all, but I also recognize that I'm basically just starting out, with cat scratches. I don't know if I want my cuts to be deeper and deeper in the future. Anyone in my life who gives advice on self harm either says to stop it, or do something else that's.. irritating, I guess. It's annoying, I dislike using a rubber band or holding an ice cube, it's stupid. The reason I like cutting is because it leaves scars on my arm, I like seeing them after I've done it, and I get a strange sadness when they start to fade.
I have another method to vent out my stresses, writing suicide notes, which I guess is just journaling, but the emotions I feel during it are much more extreme. Reading my past suicide notes makes me cry, and that also helps if I just want to release my pent up feelings.

Does anyone else have a coping method that they are fine with?
 
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seagullsonapiano

seagullsonapiano

but does it even matter?...
Dec 10, 2025
26
Im literally searching every single day for an alternative to heavy cutting... i wish i could help.
 
Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,842

Thre = sectn clse 2 bottm of thred fr dealng wth urgs tht mght hlp
 
balladeer

balladeer

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Sep 28, 2025
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Not sure if it helps but when I can't slit my wrists I just hit myself until I get bruises instead it does help me calm down a bit
 
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maryn

maryn

the world sucks!!!
Jul 27, 2026
7
Im literally searching every single day for an alternative to heavy cutting... i wish i could help.
i see :( thank you for responding

Thre = sectn clse 2 bottm of thred fr dealng wth urgs tht mght hlp
thank you!!
 
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valar_morghulis21

All men must die.
Jul 17, 2026
130
Back then I used a needle to pick on my arms, or try to mimic heroin intravenous injection. It was strangely satisfying for me, esp when I saw a lil blood drawn from the needle.

Edit: Sorry not needle, I mean a syringe you can find in a naloxone kit
 
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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
189
Back then I used a needle to pick on my arms, or try to mimic heroin intravenous injection. It was strangely satisfying for me, esp when I saw a lil blood drawn from the needle.
What kind of needle? Because wouldn't all needles even sowing needle draw blood when it punctures the skin ?
 
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valar_morghulis21

All men must die.
Jul 17, 2026
130
What kind of needle? Because wouldn't all needles even sowing needle draw blood when it punctures the skin ?
The standard needle can be found in naloxone kit. And no, you will need to hit the vein to draw blood, that's how intravenous works
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
189
The standard needle can be found in naloxone kit. And no, you will need to hit the vein to draw blood, that's how intravenous works
Are you sure? Because when I prick my finger with a needle it bleeds
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hĂĽperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
649
I still cut myself, forcing away an urge to do it can make it worse, best advice I can give is to not cut into the fat layer (that's where nerve damage occurs), if you cut and you see white that's okay, someday you might cut and see a beany yellowy layer and that's fat, you don't want to cut into it at all, cutting to it is risky but not that horrible, and to obviously tend to your wounds well and clean them and not irritate them.. Always Pat dry, don't drag or swipe
 
maryn

maryn

the world sucks!!!
Jul 27, 2026
7
I still cut myself, forcing away an urge to do it can make it worse, best advice I can give is to not cut into the fat layer (that's where nerve damage occurs), if you cut and you see white that's okay, someday you might cut and see a beany yellowy layer and that's fat, you don't want to cut into it at all, cutting to it is risky but not that horrible, and to obviously tend to your wounds well and clean them and not irritate them.. Always Pat dry, don't drag or swipe
i've been on r/madeofstyrofoam before this place, so i kinda know all about that đź’” thank you for responding though, i've been clean for about half a year, and the urges get worse and worse each day

by the way, i see you around here a lot of the time, and i like your username, may i asknif it holds any value to you? or is it just an auto generated name...
 

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