Am I the only one who doesn't want to leave suicide notes behind?

[LetMeGoPlease]

I don't feel the need to say goodbye to anyone. I'd rather just leave in silence. Everyone knows very well I am suicidal anyway, I've been suicidal since I was 6 years old. I've shared everything I could at this point. Why would I bother saying one more word to people who couldn't ever understand my words while I was alive?

 

[Darkover]

yeah i don't see the point of leaving behind a note and so won't everyone in my family know iam suicidual

 

[BringMeToLife]

You're not the only one. I wouldn't leave a note if I didn't have to.
I care about my mother, so in the note I want to assure her that it was my well-thought-out decision that I will only benefit from. Maybe it will help her understand why I did it. I also have a pet and in order for the family to take good care of it, I have to describe how to do it.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

It's all down to the relationship you have with those closest to you. It's entirely your choice.

I want to give them closure, so I will leave a lengthy note or something similar behind. People don't understand me either, but I don't won't hold it against them. The inbuilt stoicism of the people around me conditions them to be ignorant of mental illness. They'll understand eventually.

 

[Saudade]

For my attempt I didn't leave any suicide notes. It wasn't planned at all and I was being very impulsive about it… which is probably why it didn't work. I told my friend later on that I had attempted and first thing she said was, well you should've at least left a note. She's a very straightforward person, I love her. Ups and downs, but it's that friend that's been by side longer than most.

So while I didn't leave any suicide note, now I do think it's somewhat important. Maybe to give closure for others? It depends on your situation too I guess.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I once read an article that not leaving a note was one of the most selfish things you can do, like a big "FUCK YOU" to your family, friends and the world. But I can't remember it well and I am too lazy to search for it

Also out of the 8 billion people living in the world, it is very unlikely you are the only one in anything

 

[StolenLife]

I also won't leave a note: I don't want for my abusers to make fun of it or pretend that they cared.

 

[Unknown21]

No, you're not alone, i don't wanna write suicide note as well. I don't have energy to do it tbh, but sometimes thinking that i need to write it. I wish i had enough energy to do it.

 

[kwho]

No note. I've always kind of felt that as long as there is anything i'd write in a "suicide note", i'm still not good to go.

That's one of the main reasons why i have my heart set on yew seeds exit. I've had health issues for a while now, including aenemia and severe arrythmia, everyone close to me knows that. They'd just think i passed away. There would be grief, but grief and death are all part of life, everyone goes through it. Often it even brings about a healthy transformation.
Suicide, on the other hand, as we all know, is traumatising. It leaves a kind of unhealthy pain behind in the hearts of those having to face it. Nagging doubt - could i have done something to help? And, no, no one could have. Ever. So why cause anyone that shitty feeling.? Life is unimaginably hard as it is.

A few people closest to me, would even feel happy for me, despite their pain, those who know me the best.

To me a suicide note is an unneccessary burden on those left behind at best and an accusation at worst.
It comes from a desire to be understood, i suppose. Sometimes even vanity. Both motivations very human and understandable.

But it' just my personal situation and circumstances , i am not in any way judging those who feel they need to leave a note.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

too lazy lmao

 

[axxxu]

If I ever left a note it would be another "no longer human" too long, too much to say, to much to think about, too much to remember, too much to explain. Can't do it.

Just let me die and have my funeral, then forget about me.

 

[Lavander 230]

No, why leave a suicide note in the first place? The moment you die you'll go to oblivion for eternity. It will all be pointless.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

I once read an article that not leaving a note was one of the most selfish things you can do, like a big "FUCK YOU" to your family, friends and the world. But I can't remember it well and I am too lazy to search for it

Also out of the 8 billion people living in the world, it is very unlikely you are the only one in anything

Well that actually suits me

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

When I attempted in my teenage years I did not leave a note. In all my plans since then, there was never going to be a note. I am a bit on the fence now since I don't want to leave my friends and family with unanswered questions. I also want it known that do not want a funeral. But everyone who knows me is well aware of how awful my life is. In fact, no professional, no friend and no family member knows how to help me because my problems are permanent and cannot be resolved, and they all know that- which is validating (but also all the more hopeless).

 

[nightshade00]

It's all down to the relationship you have with those closest to you. It's entirely your choice.

I want to give them closure, so I will leave a lengthy note or something similar behind. People don't understand me either, but I don't won't hold it against them. The inbuilt stoicism of the people around me conditions them to be ignorant of mental illness. They'll understand eventually.

That's why I'm leaving a note. I want to try and provide closure and give them some answers for when they ask "why?".

 

[SilentSadness]

I have no interest in leaving a note. If my attempt failed, the note would be used against me. After I'm dead, how I'm viewed is of no concern to me. Also, nothing I wrote would ever change anything, so there's no point anyway.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

That's why I'm leaving a note. I want to try and provide closure and give them some answers for when they ask "why?".

The majority of people I've known in life, haven't wronged me and they should have that closure, plus I don't want there to be any belief that it could've been an accident on my part, or that I regretted it. I want it made unequivocally clear that I chose to take my life.

 

[outrider567]

I don't feel the need to say goodbye to anyone. I'd rather just leave in silence. Everyone knows very well I am suicidal anyway, I've been suicidal since I was 6 years old. I've shared everything I could at this point. Why would I bother saying one more word to people who couldn't ever understand my words while I was alive?

My suicide notes aren't to anyone, its 'To whom it may concern'

 

[DrinkyCrow]

I wouldn't if i didn't have to. I basically live with strangers and want to make a few things easier for them organization wise, give them permission to keep/sell my stuff, ways to contact my family, etc. And apologize for any inconveniences caused.
Nothing emotional, no reasons tho. Everyone i know can put 2 and 2 together to figure out why i did that, and my family won't care much anyway.

 

[Netvor]

No, i personally will not put effort into
Something like that
I have nothing to say to anyone
Even if i did no one deserves that much effort from me to make them a suicidal note at all
I just want to leave in silence and ideally i want no one to have any memory of me

 

[GoLD_75]

I'm a person who absolutely craves closure, so if someone who I was close with ever decided to CTB out of the blue- I don't know what is do with myself not being able to understand their thought process and-why? But it seems like it's not "out of the blue" for you and at the end of the day, it's your decision about what you do and don't want to share with people after your death. I'm still deciding if I want to leave one or not. The only person worth any explanation would be my brother, and my cat who can't read.

 

[ghost44]

I feel that way too. My cries for help meant nothing to nobody for the longest of time so I rather not. Just want to be gone forever.

 

[xanga]

I don't feel the need to say goodbye to anyone. I'd rather just leave in silence. Everyone knows very well I am suicidal anyway, I've been suicidal since I was 6 years old. I've shared everything I could at this point. Why would I bother saying one more word to people who couldn't ever understand my words while I was alive?

Leaving a letter to people Who dont care about you and probably dont will read It , totally a trash idea , i agree with you

 

[Methuselah Fallen]

Only to make sure people understand that my death was a suicide, and not an overdose. I'm not a drug user and never have been, but considering the cocktail I'm planning, it would certainly make me seem like one. Otherwise I didn't want to.

 

[never mind me]

I don't think that I will leave a suicide note. There's no point in my case. Although I have friends, I don't think they would miss me. They would probably just ask other people to hang out with them or do sports with them. That is, if they even notice my absence. My boy-friend will probably leave me very soon, because I am such a shitty impulsive person and then nobody will be left who would give a fuck about me.

 

[Kyuumin]

I left one when I attempted last time, over 5 years ago. But I promised myself that I wouldn't leave one next time

 

[silent star]

Honestly I don't really want to but at the same time I want to give my mum and dad and siblings some sort of closure especially my dad I was a Daddy's Girl growing up I want him to know how proud I am of him and how much I love him and how amazing of a dad he is.

It's hard I honestly don't know what to do

 

[BGooG]

I've tried writing multiple suicide notes over the years, and always end up disgusted with them. Although I always start by trying to explain myself and provide "closure" to people left behind (really only my wife, daughter, and brother), they all quickly devolve into whiney, puerile bitchy letters whose real purpose seems to be to make these people feel bad for not recognizing how miserable I am/was, and how poorly I've been treated. I don't want to be remembered as someone who just bitched and complained, and felt sorry for themselves at the end. So, unless I can figure out how to be significantly more erudite in this letter, no suicide note for me.

 

[uniqueusername39]

what would i even write? how much i hate my life and the fact i was born and blame everyone including myself for the way i am? the ones who know me know this well already. you're right, if i wasn't understood while alive, what would a note do to make them understand me in death? it comes from a place of resentment, sort of like walking out in the middle of someone's speech and slamming the door. "you didn't take me seriously, you thought exercise could've fucking fixed this, you thought i was joking huh?" it's no one's fault, really. but everything is the cause. i don't know how to reconcile those two facts.

 

[waffels]

I don't feel the need to say goodbye to anyone. I'd rather just leave in silence. Everyone knows very well I am suicidal anyway, I've been suicidal since I was 6 years old. I've shared everything I could at this point. Why would I bother saying one more word to people who couldn't ever understand my words while I was alive?

i don't want to leave one either, mainly because i feel as the people who caused me to feel pain don't get to know the reason i decided to go. the other reason is because i feel it would seem to self centered and commanding, but at the same time i wanna tell the people who find my body that i want to be donated to science and not have a funeral.