Venting Always jealous seeing other people's relationships

[Mirelight]

I realize that the fault lies mostly within my own, but every single people I see around seem to be in a happy relationship I can't help but feel something stuck in my throat. Why can't it be me? I can't even talk with women looking straight at their face, I'm fat, poor, short with thick glasses and very uninteresting. Being an immigrant to the west, even the color of my skin makes me feel inferior to others... I do try to improve, tried going to the gym, and controlling my food several times but I always fall short, always feel like 'is it worth it' and start spiraling and before I know it, I am back at where I started or worse...

This just feels so fucking pathetic

 

[EternalShore]

I'm very sorry that that happens to you as well~ :( I experience a similar thing as detailed in the vent I just made below~ the world and people are so cruel~ :( I wish things could get better for us~ :(

same~ >_< I get so jealous of seeing happy couples, especially with kids~ >:( I try so hard, and all I receive is misery~ >_< They have no idea how bad things really are because they're all blessed, but I have to be the most unlucky person in the universe to always be suffering like this! >_< I hate people because they ALWAYS abandon me for being boring or whatever (I honestly have no clue) (only in it for your own gain! :/ not that they even do that anymore~)~ and then, add on a nice dose of me lacking common interests with anyone who's ever existed [not that I care [unlike them] at this point; I just want friends~ :(], others being degens, and me getting sewer slidal and jealous every time others get sooo lucky (without even knowing nor appreciating it :/) and you have a lovely cycle of socializing! >_<

 

[darksouls]

I have only received love in my life from my pets, my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash, they only used me as a sex object, I feel exploited, I gave up hope of having a loving partner a long time ago

 

[LighthouseHermit]

Seeing other people happy in a relationship is devastating when you are lonely and want the same. Everyone deserves to be loved and be in a happy relationship, but the world is a harsh place when you are different. It's unfair

Almost everyone I know who is in a relationship is unhappy in that relationship. That taught me that being alone isn't so bad for me.

 

[liquid jen]

I feel this a lot too, and it sucks. It's kinda strange tbh, because I've never really witnessed true happy relationships. The two relationships I was in just didn't feel right and I chose to end them myself. None of my friends have been in healthy relationships either, most close family hasn't either. I feel like it might just be impossible for people to connect with each other in the way so commonly fabled. Especially for people like me. And yet, I still yearn for it. Always.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

I feel this a lot too, and it sucks. It's kinda strange tbh, because I've never really witnessed true happy relationships. The two relationships I was in just didn't feel right and I chose to end them myself. None of my friends have been in healthy relationships either, most close family hasn't either. I feel like it might just be impossible for people to connect with each other in the way so commonly fabled. Especially for people like me. And yet, I still yearn for it. Always.

Yeah, that is the hard part. Most people know it might not be the best choice, but many can't stand to be alone and suffer while being alone. People sense that you suffer and are lonely, which can lead to people who like to prey on those kind of people to latch on. I've met so many people in my life who are in a toxic, abusive relationship because of this. Bad people love to hurt fragile people, and fragile people think they deserve it, which can't be farther from the truth.

We all want to be loved unconditionally, but most relationships have conditions.