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[korobka_s_konfetami]

Hello everyone,

I'm not sure why I'm making this thread but i think tomorrow might be the day for my SN method - my parents are going on a vacation.

I'll post in this thread if something goes wrong and I'm not able to go.

Don't lose hope like I did,
R., 21yo

P.S. Honestly, I'm scared af

 

[FuneralCry]

At least in my case, there's no such thing as hope in the first place, there's nothing to lose. But if this is what you decide, then I hope that you find freedom from this cruel world. But I think that it's understandable having fears, as after all suicide isn't always easy to go through with but at least you have the option of a reliable method.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm sorry you're at this point. Would you like to share what's brought you to it?

 

[korobka_s_konfetami]

I'm sorry you're at this point. Would you like to share what's brought you to it?

I made a thread some time ago:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/hi-everyone-im-new.104020/

It might seem that my dad means to me as much as my tyrant mom does but it's nothing like that. He's a good person, and his, may i say so, "cuckness" is just him being tired of his wife ranting for almost 30 years. I would love to leave but I'm so worried about my dad. I wouldn't want to destroy his life. But at the same time i just can't carry on...

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I made a thread some time ago:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/hi-everyone-im-new.104020/

It might seem that my dad means to me as much as my tyrant mom does but it's nothing like that. He's a good person, and his, may i say so, "cuckness" is just him being tired of his wife ranting for almost 30 years. I would love to leave but I'm so worried about my dad. I wouldn't want to destroy his life. But at the same time i just can't carry on...

Sounds like you have similar parental dynamics to me. I also have a vile mother and a soft father who may have a good heart but enables her abuse (and that others). It doesn't make me inclined to stick around for him. Parents like your mother are not going to change and a requirement for you to have decent mental health is to get the help away. I know that's easier said than done in a position like yours. Sometimes we have to put up with shitty situations until we can effect change in our lives. It's just a matter of incremental progress.

 

[korobka_s_konfetami]

Yet again i get cold feet. Well, maybe this is a sign that i still can do something with my life

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Yet again i get cold feet. Well, maybe this is a sign that i still can do something with my life

What is one positive step you can take towards a better life?