Aging and suicide?

[thetruetato]

(I'm 28m for reference). I was just wondering. Would you consider to not ctb if you didn't age? (staying young forever/for as long as you want).


For me. Aging is by far the biggest reason why I want to ctb. The idea that everything is just going to get worse and worse from year to year and you being absolutely powerless to stop it, is making it all seem so god damn hopeless...

I understand, that if you were dealt a very bad hand - fx being born disabled or maybe being born very ugly or very short (as a man) or having been born into a shit family and experienced abuse or something like that, that you may see life as being worthless regardless, but if you are a normie (like me), would you consider staying alive if you could stay young? Because I would.

Aging is something I am afraid of happening to me, but staying young won't stop the future from coming, so I would probably still be suicidal like I am now.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

The idea that everything is just going to get worse and worse

At the age of 44, I can confirm that is does get worse. Exponentially worse. Every passing year becomes less and less of a fraction of your life, so time flies at warp speed. Seems like yesterday I was trying to use a fake ID to get into the clubs. Now I find myself flabberghasted that the kid from Home Alone, who is only a year younger than me, is almost old enough to be a grandpa.

Your energy falls off a cliff. Your youthful physical attractiveness is gone. Every thought illicits PTSD paralysis because you have a huge data bank of past experiences to base your current decisions on.

I pray that a large boulder falls off a mountain onto my car one day soon and crushes me a like pea. Oh wait...I live in Florida, so that will never happen. FML.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Can't imagine being 5'2. I'm 5'10 and that's short in my country. The average here is 6 foot but I've heard that immigration is dragging down the average so therefore the real average for the natives here is 6'1 - crazy numbers.

How to have a good life?

1. Be born very good-looking and tall (if you're a man).

2. Be born wealthy, so you don't have to slave away the rest of your life.

3. Stop aging at 25.


So yeah, pretty much fucking impossible...

totally agree!
im not the shortest in my country by any means, but its still a pain in the ass.
and yeah, 1-3 covers the good life thing.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

At the age of 44, I can confirm that is does get worse.

Yes, this is becoming unbearable. Especially with PTSD.

 

[divinemistress87]

At the age of 44, I can confirm that is does get worse. Exponentially worse. Every passing year becomes less and less of a fraction of your life, so time flies at warp speed. Seems like yesterday I was trying to use a fake ID to get into the clubs. Now I find myself flabberghasted that the kid from Home Alone, who is only a year younger than me, is almost old enough to be a grandpa.

Your energy falls off a cliff. Your youthful physical attractiveness is gone. Every thought illicits PTSD paralysis because you have a huge data bank of past experiences to base your current decisions on.

I pray that a large boulder falls off a mountain onto my car one day soon and crushes me a like pea. Oh wait...I live in Florida, so that will never happen. FML.

"My thoughts and prayers are with you "

 

[Naked Weapon]

If I could stay 12-14 forever, then I would be happy living forever. I often feel like that was the age I was "meant" to be. Even during prepubescence I was telling myself that I had to CTB before I was 30. Even now I feel like a child trapped in the body of adult. There's something so horrific about this flesh and shape.

 

[UglyInk]

(I'm 28m for reference). I was just wondering. Would you consider to not ctb if you didn't age? (staying young forever/for as long as you want).


For me. Aging is by far the biggest reason why I want to ctb. The idea that everything is just going to get worse and worse from year to year and you being absolutely powerless to stop it, is making it all seem so god damn hopeless...

I understand, that if you were dealt a very bad hand - fx being born disabled or maybe being born very ugly or very short (as a man) or having been born into a shit family and experienced abuse or something like that, that you may see life as being worthless regardless, but if you are a normie (like me), would you consider staying alive if you could stay young? Because I would.

Yes, I'm less llikely to suicide with no aging. With every day that passes, another day is wasted all because of my mental diseases. *No age = infinite days for me. Plus, I get uglier and my body breaks down with age. My "young" body is the only thing good in my life.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

"My thoughts and prayers are with you "

 

[Oliver]

"My thoughts and prayers are with you "

Thx haha - but yeah, I totally agree. You just die a little more inside from every year passing. I wasn't born depressed. From I was 3 to 9 years old (since it's impossible to remember anything before you were 3) everything was good in my life. Just a happy kid. The child-like wonder was great - and I guess many of you people can relate to that. The sky was more blue and the grass was definitely greener. Even though I started getting depressed in my teens and early twenties, there were still hope. Like, springtime felt good - if you can relate? Like, you were still exited about stuff. For me, It did get better in my twenties but unfortunately, I also fucked up a lot and now I'm here in my late twenties and I will begin to age soon. The excitement you had when you were younger is gone (most likely forever) and you know, that it's only going to get worse from now on...

 

[Linda]

(I'm 28m for reference). I was just wondering. Would you consider to not ctb if you didn't age? (staying young forever/for as long as you want).


For me. Aging is by far the biggest reason why I want to ctb. The idea that everything is just going to get worse and worse from year to year and you being absolutely powerless to stop it, is making it all seem so god damn hopeless...

I understand, that if you were dealt a very bad hand - fx being born disabled or maybe being born very ugly or very short (as a man) or having been born into a shit family and experienced abuse or something like that, that you may see life as being worthless regardless, but if you are a normie (like me), would you consider staying alive if you could stay young? Because I would.

I'm 70. My best decades were my 20s and my 50s. I don't think that age and suicide have much to do with each other. Life is not guaranteed to go downhill as you age., at least not until you get to a very advanced age.

 

[divinemistress87]

I'm 70. My best decades were my 20s and my 50s. I don't think that age and suicide have much to do with each other. Life is not guaranteed to go downhill as you age., at least not until you get to a very advanced age.

What did you like about your 50s?

 

[Linda]

What did you like about your 50s?

Everything seemed to go well. The problem with my 30 and 40s was that my job required me to keep changing location, often internationally, and that eventually became a lot of hassle, especially as my husband could not always come with me. It's one of the reasons I eventually decided to get out of the rat race. By my 48th birthday I had had 16 different addresses, and I was sick of always moving. Shortly after my 48th birthday I bought the house I now live in, and have been here ever since. In my 50s I had stability, a nice house in a nice region, enough money not to have any money worries (which is emphatically not the same as being rich!), the freedom to conduct my research in whatever way I wanted (since I had no boss and no constraints), and my health was still good. (I could, and did, still climb mountains.) I got my first book published, and was recognised globally in the field of research that I had chosen to make my own. Everything just fell into place. My 60s, unfortunately, were marred by poor health.

 

[strangelife]

If it were possible to return half a year earlier and in this state I would be happy to live forever.
Now I am 41