Venting ADHD + depression = no goal/motivation

[aego]

adhd: low motivation to do things, paralysis, and you don't feel "accomplished" after forcing yourself to do something hard/unpleasurable

depression: low motivation to do things, exhaustion, emotional numbness

i have zero motivation to get back into college if i even get approved again, zero feelings against/for ctb— i don't even feel miserable anymore about living (prob on an upswing with my depression). i just watch the days blend together, and suddenly im 19 and another year has passed without me finding a purpose or anything to live for.

atp i want to do something DRASTIC just to change my life and feel SOMETHING other than "fine". wether that means just telling my parents i failed to hang myself or actually pushing through SI and finally leaving.

I want the courage to ruin my life for the better or worse, because i wont be repeating the same day over and over again on loop.

 

[RawRX3]

I feel that so much def

When you just want change because where you're at just isn't it and never has been

I had the same issue living with my mom and stepdad. Life hadn't changed for years and I couldn't deal with it at all. I dropped out of college and ended up moving out to live with random friends for like 2 years. It wasn't great but it changed things for me and it helped then at least

Sorry you're struggling with that too. I have adhd and depression too. It sucks

Support <3

 

[plskilme]

Felt. I have inattentive ADHD, the tism, and anxiety/depression. I want to fucking kill myself (which I can't even do because I always pussy out and look for reasons to put it off) because I can't get anything done due to constantly being burnt out.