the only available options are meds, small talk shit (therapy), meds, small talk shit, meds, or just boring fucking board games. doctors say they cant help me, as do every other professional. the "support groups" near me are for fucking morons. like i said, boring board games, boring small talk shit. they're ALL the same. ive tried it all for over a decade.
the system has completely failed me, im in a constant state of mental suffering, yet they wont let me die either. if i talk about wanting to die, theyll lock me up into a hospital where i will not be HELPED, but just KEPT ALIVE. like what can they do other than the usual shit? stronger meds? yeah, so you could "live" like a vegetable without any thoughts at all. i would MUCH rather die. theres so much i want to do in this life, but im just too fucking depressed for anything anymore.
Just tried vortioxetine with two dosage increases for 2 months, ZERO effect. its being now changed to bupropion..
im still here only because ive been too afraid to kill myself. the system keeps you too "comfortable" to even be able to plan anything, without actually helping you. just logging in here and writing this message was difficult enough. im just numb.
the system has completely failed me, im in a constant state of mental suffering, yet they wont let me die either. if i talk about wanting to die, theyll lock me up into a hospital where i will not be HELPED, but just KEPT ALIVE. like what can they do other than the usual shit? stronger meds? yeah, so you could "live" like a vegetable without any thoughts at all. i would MUCH rather die. theres so much i want to do in this life, but im just too fucking depressed for anything anymore.
Just tried vortioxetine with two dosage increases for 2 months, ZERO effect. its being now changed to bupropion..
im still here only because ive been too afraid to kill myself. the system keeps you too "comfortable" to even be able to plan anything, without actually helping you. just logging in here and writing this message was difficult enough. im just numb.
