I've tried a few times. A poorly done attempt at hanging was my first I think. The best attempt I made was using a handgun, but it jammed. It felt like a big joke. I haven't tried since then but I've made plans to kill myself multiple times since my last attempt. I still don't keep a gun in my house because I know I'll use it if I have it. I want to be absolutely ready when I go.
I'm in the UK, so we don't have access to guns like other countries (I'm guessing you're in the USA?)
However, if I were to put my feelers out I know I could acquire a gun. Actually was really considering it at one point, but then I saw a YouTube video about a gun survivor. This woman used to be BEAUTIFUL but after she survived the shooting, all that was left of her face was a hole (to eat and drink through.)
That instantly put my plans on ice, let me tell you.
Tried to hang twice - not for me.
Bag over head and cable around neck whilst on my second trip to psych ward.
Woods + BBQ
Cable around neck - unconscious and needed oxygen while in psych ward again. Same stay on ward - no food and drink for 8 days and continued with no food for over 40 days.
Olazapine overdose in order to take SN.
I'm getting closer but I fucking suck at killing myself. I plan and plan but there's always something that catches me out. I'll get it right next time.
I've stockpiled loads of Olanzapine.
Never ODd on them.
Please tell me, what's the OD like? Do you lose consciousness?
Please let me know what happens, thanks ...
PS, how many did you take, and with what? Other drugs? Alcohol?
That's exactly why I can't leave in a flat higher than the 2nd floor... I am sorry to hear that you have to deal with it..
I was recently going to move (decided to stay where I am, now) and the housing officer was given strict instructions to only look for lower ground flats (apartments.)
They kept bloody offering me bungalows!