Venting A hot cigarettes feels so good on a cold winter day specially to take the pain away

[lunar02102009]

Yes , i know they arent supposed to be good for you , i know but every time the pain is so much and im tired of crying i cant cry anymore i really cant i can only smoke away the pain as i become calmer and calmer. But i mean what i said i have a beautiful view at night from my house when its cold and night , i stand there listening to my favourite depression songs enjoying the beautiful view i light my cigarette slowly filling my chest with the warm hot and cozy air to replace the cold air and the lit cigarette...it looks so beautiful in the dark the whole vibe of this, its so dreamy even though i still wanna die and am doing this only so i dont have to cry the pain away its what i have left because everyone else has left me too. The pain goes away for some time and i dont cry because that really fucks me up.

 

[MissAbyss]

Well, cbt shouldn't supposed to be good either. Don't give a f*ck what others think about it!
Just light up that cigarette and enjoy.

 

[Rockman]

Maybe you should try smoking blunts?

 

[58Alice85]

spent a lot of time worrying about COPD and lung cancer in my life
it does not make any sense now (will kill myself before i get severe lung problems)

 

[lunar02102009]

Maybe you should try smoking blunts?

I switch between blunts

Well, cbt shouldn't supposed to be good either. Don't give a f*ck what others think about it!
Just light up that cigarette and enjoy.

I dont smoke because of the nic it may sound weird but it just feels really damn cozy when I smoke a cigarette

 

[scordatura]

Having a smoke while listening to the music that gets me, might be the only thing I live for, that keeps me going, especially at night, when you can go a walk and no ones about.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Having a smoke while listening to the music that gets me, might be the only thing I live for, that keeps me going, especially at night, when you can go a walk and no ones about.

Best time.

Yes , i know they arent supposed to be good for you , i know but every time the pain is so much and im tired of crying i cant cry anymore i really cant i can only smoke away the pain as i become calmer and calmer. But i mean what i said i have a beautiful view at night from my house when its cold and night , i stand there listening to my favourite depression songs enjoying the beautiful view i light my cigarette slowly filling my chest with the warm hot and cozy air to replace the cold air and the lit cigarette...it looks so beautiful in the dark the whole vibe of this, its so dreamy even though i still wanna die and am doing this only so i dont have to cry the pain away its what i have left because everyone else has left me too. The pain goes away for some time and i dont cry because that really fucks me up.

Bitterly relatable,,, the way your post is typed out made me think of this song

 

[ginko0]

A Lucky Strike goes well with night

 

[sanrioslayer]

lifes too short not to smoke cigarettes

 

[SunnySideSummer]

Yes , i know they arent supposed to be good for you , i know but every time the pain is so much and im tired of crying i cant cry anymore i really cant i can only smoke away the pain as i become calmer and calmer. But i mean what i said i have a beautiful view at night from my house when its cold and night , i stand there listening to my favourite depression songs enjoying the beautiful view i light my cigarette slowly filling my chest with the warm hot and cozy air to replace the cold air and the lit cigarette...it looks so beautiful in the dark the whole vibe of this, its so dreamy even though i still wanna die and am doing this only so i dont have to cry the pain away its what i have left because everyone else has left me too. The pain goes away for some time and i dont cry because that really fucks me up.

I love smoking cigarette, more with time

Actually cigarettes are the only thing that take me out my ruminations

I am thinking and thinking with my bad ideas the sames everydays for hours, every hours, and the oh i want to smoke a cigarette, i could smoke a good cigarette

Where are they ? Gotta buy some , gotta go outside in a good spot to smoke

I have the anticipation too , its the only stuff that make me focus on something else then my own thoughs

Also peoples dont want to admit smoking is a social stuff because they dont want peoples specially young to romantize smoking but in real life peoples get to meet, become friends or a couple because of cigarette

Yeah ok its not good for your health but its still a social thing

I did not had the chance to create relation with smoking but i know peoples do

Anyway yeah i cant stop thinking about shits and the will to smoke is the only think that cut me out my ruminations so i dont know if i can stop smoking for now