A daydream is making life seem unliveable and meaningless.

[Parnate]

So more than a year and half ago , since the end of 2023 I have this character fixated in my mind. I daydream about being this person. This person is rich, straight, good looking , strong, not so sensitive , not a people pleaser etc. I daydream of the various scenarios and how I would behave as this person. I have had many daydreams but none this satisfying. Also I have never felt this obsessed with a daydream. Since more than a year I daydream many times everyday of being this person.
Life feels meaningless if I am not this person. My family, friends, achievements everything seems just so boring. This daydream is etched on my mind forever . The frustration and despair I feel for not being this person is immense. It seems only death will end this pain.

 

[Renato]

I can relate so much! Daydreaming is something I have been doing basically for my entire life but since a couple of years it has dramatically increased. This is because I met a girl and I was not even remotely successful enough to attract her so I started imagining another version of myself: not as a completely different person, just me but if I had done way better choices to become rich and physically fit.
Now for the very weird part: sometimes I daydream about directly being that very girl! I think this is because I feel like we have so many character traits in common so I perceive her as a better and gender swapped version of myself... I know it's weird but at least I feel some comfort contemplating the thought that we are somehow bound. As if we are basically physical manifestations of the same spirit...