Venting 988 betrayed my trust

[Ilostmytoast]

So for context yesterday I planned on taking my own life however due to somebody being awake I decided to delay it and to help me in the moment I went to chat with 988 well it's the basic crap just ask me a ton of questions many of which were the same basically useless but it helped in the moment and then accidentally everything froze so I reset and I couldn't get back to the chat so I said oh well at least they tried

I'm woken up by my family at 5:40 A.M. with police at the door regarding somebody that was suicidal I was scared shitless since my family had no idea what I was dealing with and I want to keep it that way at least as much as I can but it all was forced upon me on that moment now I'm unsure if they know but I'm assuming they do since they know I have no friends etc the entire day I kept suffering from several panic attacks due to me worrying about people's acknowledgment all because of one chat

You know what though they made me change my plans as I no longer can kill myself instead I'll live through this hell so I suppose they achieved that but at what cost to make me feel so much worse? I can't trust anybody if something like this can happen I just can't live peacefully for once

 

[ssUser34]

Hope you're okay soon, take care.

 

[Aflame5926]

So for context yesterday I planned on taking my own life however due to somebody being awake I decided to delay it and to help me in the moment I went to chat with 988 well it's the basic crap just ask me a ton of questions many of which were the same basically useless but it helped in the moment and then accidentally everything froze so I reset and I couldn't get back to the chat so I said oh well at least they tried

I'm woken up by my family at 5:40 A.M. with police at the door regarding somebody that was suicidal I was scared shitless since my family had no idea what I was dealing with and I want to keep it that way at least as much as I can but it all was forced upon me on that moment now I'm unsure if they know but I'm assuming they do since they know I have no friends etc the entire day I kept suffering from several panic attacks due to me worrying about people's acknowledgment all because of one chat

You know what though they made me change my plans as I no longer can kill myself instead I'll live through this hell so I suppose they achieved that but at what cost to make me feel so much worse? I can't trust anybody if something like this can happen I just can't live peacefully for once

can you expend a little bit more?

you chatted with 988 and suddenly next day the police was in front of your door?

 

[Ilostmytoast]

can you expend a little bit more?

you chatted with 988 and suddenly next day the police was in front of your door?

Yes though I did say I planned on still doing it of course my mind could very well have changed like it has now
More than likely it was because I didn't respond due to the glitch and the chat going away

But I still didn't consent I didn't say anything
I feel as if it's common knowledge that if randomly somebody comes to your door especially a police officer without your knowledge
You're going to get scared and with family nearby it's so much worse

It may have been my fault for saying I might still do it but they didn't even try to think for a moment

 

[Forveleth]

And this is why I will never use those hotlines. Call to get comfort at your liqesr, get treated like a criminal instead. I am sorry they did that to you.

 

[KristineMC]

Very sorry to hear that, I've had police at my door twice and it's definitely very traumatizing. Unfortunately most crisis lines have a similar policy. If you a) state that you have a plan and refuse to change your mind, or b) disappear mid-call/chat, they often give your details to the police who can then find you with said information. I've heard stories of people who call and get put on hold (quite common during busy hours since they're understaffed), then falling asleep, only to end up with police at their door. It sucks but there are a select few services (like Samaritans in the UK, Trans Lifeline in US and Canada, if I'm not wrong) that don't do involuntary interventions under any conditions, and will literally stay on the phone with you as you CTB if that is what you wish.

I've used a VoIP and a VPN to call them once. Not sure if that's slightly safer. Probably still traceable with enough effort from the police, but it's an additional layer of protection.

 

[Aflame5926]

Yes though I did say I planned on still doing it of course my mind could very well have changed like it has now
More than likely it was because I didn't respond due to the glitch and the chat going away

But I still didn't consent I didn't say anything
I feel as if it's common knowledge that if randomly somebody comes to your door especially a police officer without your knowledge
You're going to get scared and with family nearby it's so much worse

It may have been my fault for saying I might still do it but they didn't even try to think for a moment

christ 988 was the hotline.

i thought a user called 988 ratted you out. i was getting scared for a bit here
dyslexia taking over

And this is why I will never use those hotlines. Call to get comfort at your liqesr, get treated like a criminal instead. I am sorry they did that to you.

that a brutal lesson to learn. so far i would say this is the only place where you would be able to tell it. the rest would intervene unfortunally
there are some more post about the hotline being trash tho.

 

[Ilostmytoast]

christ 988 was the hotline.

i thought a user called 988 ratted you out. i was getting scared for a bit here
dyslexia taking over


that a brutal lesson to learn. so far i would say this is the only place where you would be able to tell it. the rest would intervene unfortunally
there are some more post about the hotline being trash tho.

Made me laugh a bit lol
That'd definitely be scary if it was a user

Unfortunately most crisis lines have a similar policy. If you a) state that you have a plan and refuse to change your mind, or b) disappear mid-call/chat, they often give your details to the police who can then find you with said information. I've heard stories of people who call and get put on hold (quite common during busy hours since they're understaffed), then falling asleep, only to end up with police at their door. It sucks but there are a select few services (like Samaritans in the UK, Trans Lifeline in US and Canada, if I'm not wrong) that don't do involuntary interventions under any conditions, and will literally stay on the phone with you as you CTB if that is what you wish.

I've used a VoIP and a VPN to call them once. Not sure if that's slightly safer. Probably still traceable with enough effort from the police, but it's an additional layer of protection.

I have slept accidentally during one of those chats though I never received any thing I love that man now that I know they could do this

Unfortunately yes that is true I was really scared when I first used it due to this reason but then I thought that they never did unless you ask after two times of talking with them

But after this I think I might as well just be with myself alone if something like this can happen with anybody that I open up with especially new friends I don't think it's worth my time they wouldn't understand the anxiety of it I know it helps but doing it out of the blue is so shocking I can't blame them they were doing their job I'm just very scared

Thank you for the other services btw I will definitely use it when I can they seem a lot nicer

 

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