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timetodie24
Paragon
- Apr 14, 2023
- 922
I'm supposed to ctb within the next 4 days.
Yet I don't feel ready but I don't understand why. I get nothing except pain out of life. I only ever regret failing previous attempts. I am certain I want ctb and I am ready to leave so why am I holding back from ctb. I don't have a choice I need to meet deadline for many peoples' sakes. I need to stop being a coward. It is just SI, I can overcome it, I can do this.
Yet I don't feel ready but I don't understand why. I get nothing except pain out of life. I only ever regret failing previous attempts. I am certain I want ctb and I am ready to leave so why am I holding back from ctb. I don't have a choice I need to meet deadline for many peoples' sakes. I need to stop being a coward. It is just SI, I can overcome it, I can do this.