0-100% How ready are you to go?

[steppingoff]

I'd say I am 95% ready to go and only need a week to get to 100

Then it is waiting for the most opportune moment to stream and who wants to see it.

Or just saying - fuck it - I am gone

 

[AnonymousL]

80%

Everything is ready, I just need to be in the right space

 

[rozeske]

80%

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I don't have the option to peacefully cease existing in a guaranteed way sadly, I despise this hellish anti-suicide society where the focus is on making people suffer for as long as possible rather than allowing people to die peacefully. If there's the option to just peacefully fall into an eternal sleep then of course I'd be very much ready for that, only non-existence is desirable to me personally, I'd always prefer to not exist, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence.

 

[INTJme]

I was born ready

 

[unabletocope]

All of the way

 

[Oliver]

it varies a lot from day to day. Only around 50% atm.

 

[BardBarrie]

Until I have the courage to step off the stool, I'll never be ready.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Ready in what way? Method ready? Mentally ready? Method ready 100% but mentally ready to leave very low - maybe 25% or less? I can't imagine to attempt any time soon although my situation doesn't get better. There's no trigger.

 

[Forveleth]

Was pissed when I woke up from my last attempt and I've been angry that I've had to live all of the days since then. I'm ready!

 

[Little_Suzy]

Anhedonia feels like…

 

[UKscotty]

Varies all the time. I think once we are ready we are ready.

SI is either there or not. We may think we want to CTB but we won't until our SI is gone.

 

[du2497]

Method 20%, mentally 65% but its been slowly creeping up lately after a few years of being "stable"

 

[tronix]

I'm pretty ready. But there's this one thing that bothers me and keeps me alive. I'm waiting for a message I'm supposed to receive next week. However, I'm not sure if I really want to read it because it might hurt me even more... So I'm thinking maybe I should do this like now? To avoid pain and disappointment?

 

[Hunter2005]

95% I hate this shit so bad

 

[Kismet]

Probably 80. Thinking about doing it is the one thing that brings me any peace. I feel like 80% there.

 

[divinemistress87]

90% emotionally but no energy to research or plan

 

[Morte]

90% I just need a decent method

 

[xmissellax]

I was at 90% but loved ones and med increase brought that down to like a 50%, I still think of it every hour of every day but I'm waiting for a holiday to Japan in November which I promised family I'd stay for.

I tentatively chose life 'for now', I'm in this weird place of trying to recover enough to actually make it to Japan and enjoy it, but I'm scared to recover too much as I still want to CTB at some point soon lol. My BPD episodes can cause me to really fall into a big suicidal mess too so that's there. I'm terrified to try a new med which I know will help me, because part of me doesn't want to be helped almost, like stuck in a limbo of well enough to not want to kill myself, but still suffering.

Unless you've already attempted in which case ignore me, I also think people aren't taking into account SI. A lot of people think they are SO ready but SI can be a real pain and we can't know how we'll react in the moment when we eventually are standing there/sitting there about to take our own life, or if we'll panic after we've done the action to end our life.

 

[why am i alive?]

It changes. I range from 50-100 in minutes.
I am never afraid of death, but the thought of suicide is sometimes stronger than in others, but I also rarely think that I can give life another shot.

 

[Mea Culpa]

I cant tell where I am now. I was at 100% but it's been going down slowly. I dont want it to go down but I feel so hopeless that no matter what I do it wont work.

 

[LifelessStranger]

100%, literally at any moment. I have unfinished business, but I really just don't care about anything.

 

[F@#$]

120%

 

[wiinterfrost]

right now i'm about at a 38%. really low but i'm sipping good tea and here on this forum but idk it could change the minute i do something else ^^

 

[Forveleth]

Was pissed when I woke up from my last attempt and I've been angry that I've had to live all of the days since then. I'm ready!

I want to change my answer. The suicide memes thread (just updated) is so great I'm actually finding the will to live!

 

[Dliena]

About 30-40ish% ready right now. I have a lot of time and prep to still do all I need but it won't be like this forever I can assure ya that.

 

[hadenough58]

it varies a lot from day to day. Only around 50% atm.

I can relate to that, It is very much how I feel in the moment

 

[clown_17]

I'd say 80% on average. It varies, some days it's like 50% and other days it's 99%

 

[bunny_brownie9]

80%. I have what I need & written notes, but I'm undecided whether soon or after any upcoming holiday.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

100% ready. I'm at peace with my decision to CTB. Just a few more things to sort out and I'll CTB.