I always listen to this song when I feel depressed/suicidal.
*English subtitles*
(1) When I opened my eyes entering this world
(2) Mom gave me life, now I have to live and die alone
(3) It makes me sick, it seems like everyone is wearing a mask
(4) I think in the past, will my life continue like this
(5) I smoked so much that my lungs are black
(6) Black as the fog that suffocating the society
(7) I'm carrying my cross on my shoulders
(8) And I thirst for power, paper and respect
(9) I think this is probably just human nature
(10) Buddhists say that agony is enlightenment, I do not want to talk about it
(11) Honestly, I just want to crawl back into the womb
(12) Mom, sorry for always getting you so angry
(13) You said you should have aborted me when you had the chance
(14) Every time I get home from school, I put down my heave bag pack
(15) No one at home, only your persistent perfume
(16) I know you have to work overtime that night
(17) I opened the refrigerator and took out the microwave food for dinner
(18) Dad came home at two in the morning, he was drunk
(19) I wake up from my dream, you two are quarrelling
(20) How should I focus on exam the next day
(21) The teacher does not like me, and I do not like the teacher also
(22) I hate these uniforms, I hate the school system
(23) I hate the face of the discipline director, I hate to be bound
(24) That's true, a lot of people don't like my attitude
(25) They say I'm too cool, cops hate me so they arrested me before
(26) I don't give a fuck about what other people say
(27) They can say whatever they want, but who are they
(28) No one has the right to judge me based on their standard
(29) What is important is to be myself, don't care what do they think
(30) It's still me, girls who love money only let the rich fuck them
(31) If you do not know how to use condoms, you should not blame for many children
(32) Money is powerful but you cannot take it with you when you die
(33) All these people clenching their fists, when will they let go
(34) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(35) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(36) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(37) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(38) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(39) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(40) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(41) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(42) I almost suffocate in the dead air of the court
(43) Facing a life sentence, I finally began to think
(44) Behind bars, nothing is the same
(45) There is no peace in the eyes of the criminals
(46) Just an inch of pencil, written about the prison
(47) The diary is not about a beautiful outdoor landscape
(48) The only thing they expect is freedom
(49) Putting weapons made by themselves under your pillows, to prevent from attack at any time
(50) Some people think their wives are cheating
(51) Some people collect letters from their family
(52) Some people were in bed twenty-four hours a day
(53) And some get crazy under all the pressure
(54) Three months of waiting have already passed
(55) After I left the prison, I still have to face three years of pardon
(56) Okay, I felt happy in my life for the first time
(57) I do not know how my life's challenge gonna be
(58) And I do not know what will happen in the future
(59) I read the newspaper, it's still fire and murder
(60) I remember the year I accidentally found those photographs
(61) Photos of an ugly scene, my aunt is giving a blowjob to a man
(62) It destroyed her image in my mind
(63) I cannot forget how loose the smile is in the picture
(64) I fight the fear and the restlessness in my stomach
(65) But I constantly hear the suffering roar in my heart
(66) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(67) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(68) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(69) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(70) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(71) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(72) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(73) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(74) It does not matter if I walk from south to north
(75) All I can find is the hypocrisy of mankind
(76) It's kinda funny, people only have money in their eyes
(77) It seems they want to help, but they just want to help themselves
(78) Behind their smiling faces, no one knows how selfish they are
(79) Even friends can betray, when only fame will satisfy their taste
(80) When she says she loves you, she has a clear conscience
(81) But what she really loves is your wealth
(82) You've probably wondered who your real enemies are and who your real friends are
(83) Maybe your friends are the one who throw stones at you
(84) Have you ever experienced, when you need help the most
(85) Those who usually call you as brother will simply disappear
(86) Dear god, great god
(87) You can blame me for my ignorance, but I'm just human
(88) I do not trust people because they do not trust me, don't ask me why
(89) All I can say is that it's me
(90) Life is like the waves, it has high tides and low tides
(91) Have you told yourself that you survived each stage
(92) From the mountain peak of fate, I could not see any stars
(93) Just a silent black sky pressing me to the ground
(94) In my heart, I cannot find a quiet corner
(95) I cannot sleep, my conscience is laughing at me
(96) She says: How many days and nights did your mom cry for you?
(97) Dad only cares for himself, the fire of hope is off
(98) I pick up the phone and hear dad's tired voice
(99) I didn't see him, but it's not hard to imagine his face
(100) When I finish listening to his unemployment story
(101) Grandma's words are in my head, warn me to live up to expectations
(102) I've thrown away every excuse to cry
(103) I am accustomed to living coldly in this relentless reality
(104) How do I start my life? How to start the change?
(105) I'm in the middle of a swamp, how can I get clean?
(106) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(107) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(108) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(109) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(110) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(111) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(112) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(113) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(114) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(115) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(116) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(117) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(118) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(119) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(120) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(121) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain