disabledandhopeless

disabledandhopeless

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Mar 1, 2020
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I always listen to this song when I feel depressed/suicidal.

*English subtitles*

(1) When I opened my eyes entering this world
(2) Mom gave me life, now I have to live and die alone
(3) It makes me sick, it seems like everyone is wearing a mask
(4) I think in the past, will my life continue like this
(5) I smoked so much that my lungs are black
(6) Black as the fog that suffocating the society
(7) I'm carrying my cross on my shoulders
(8) And I thirst for power, paper and respect
(9) I think this is probably just human nature
(10) Buddhists say that agony is enlightenment, I do not want to talk about it
(11) Honestly, I just want to crawl back into the womb
(12) Mom, sorry for always getting you so angry
(13) You said you should have aborted me when you had the chance
(14) Every time I get home from school, I put down my heave bag pack
(15) No one at home, only your persistent perfume
(16) I know you have to work overtime that night
(17) I opened the refrigerator and took out the microwave food for dinner
(18) Dad came home at two in the morning, he was drunk
(19) I wake up from my dream, you two are quarrelling
(20) How should I focus on exam the next day
(21) The teacher does not like me, and I do not like the teacher also
(22) I hate these uniforms, I hate the school system
(23) I hate the face of the discipline director, I hate to be bound
(24) That's true, a lot of people don't like my attitude
(25) They say I'm too cool, cops hate me so they arrested me before
(26) I don't give a fuck about what other people say
(27) They can say whatever they want, but who are they
(28) No one has the right to judge me based on their standard
(29) What is important is to be myself, don't care what do they think
(30) It's still me, girls who love money only let the rich fuck them
(31) If you do not know how to use condoms, you should not blame for many children
(32) Money is powerful but you cannot take it with you when you die
(33) All these people clenching their fists, when will they let go
(34) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(35) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(36) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(37) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(38) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(39) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(40) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(41) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(42) I almost suffocate in the dead air of the court
(43) Facing a life sentence, I finally began to think
(44) Behind bars, nothing is the same
(45) There is no peace in the eyes of the criminals
(46) Just an inch of pencil, written about the prison
(47) The diary is not about a beautiful outdoor landscape
(48) The only thing they expect is freedom
(49) Putting weapons made by themselves under your pillows, to prevent from attack at any time
(50) Some people think their wives are cheating
(51) Some people collect letters from their family
(52) Some people were in bed twenty-four hours a day
(53) And some get crazy under all the pressure
(54) Three months of waiting have already passed
(55) After I left the prison, I still have to face three years of pardon
(56) Okay, I felt happy in my life for the first time
(57) I do not know how my life's challenge gonna be
(58) And I do not know what will happen in the future
(59) I read the newspaper, it's still fire and murder
(60) I remember the year I accidentally found those photographs
(61) Photos of an ugly scene, my aunt is giving a blowjob to a man
(62) It destroyed her image in my mind
(63) I cannot forget how loose the smile is in the picture
(64) I fight the fear and the restlessness in my stomach
(65) But I constantly hear the suffering roar in my heart
(66) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(67) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(68) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(69) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(70) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(71) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(72) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(73) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(74) It does not matter if I walk from south to north
(75) All I can find is the hypocrisy of mankind
(76) It's kinda funny, people only have money in their eyes
(77) It seems they want to help, but they just want to help themselves
(78) Behind their smiling faces, no one knows how selfish they are
(79) Even friends can betray, when only fame will satisfy their taste
(80) When she says she loves you, she has a clear conscience
(81) But what she really loves is your wealth
(82) You've probably wondered who your real enemies are and who your real friends are
(83) Maybe your friends are the one who throw stones at you
(84) Have you ever experienced, when you need help the most
(85) Those who usually call you as brother will simply disappear
(86) Dear god, great god
(87) You can blame me for my ignorance, but I'm just human
(88) I do not trust people because they do not trust me, don't ask me why
(89) All I can say is that it's me
(90) Life is like the waves, it has high tides and low tides
(91) Have you told yourself that you survived each stage
(92) From the mountain peak of fate, I could not see any stars
(93) Just a silent black sky pressing me to the ground
(94) In my heart, I cannot find a quiet corner
(95) I cannot sleep, my conscience is laughing at me
(96) She says: How many days and nights did your mom cry for you?
(97) Dad only cares for himself, the fire of hope is off
(98) I pick up the phone and hear dad's tired voice
(99) I didn't see him, but it's not hard to imagine his face
(100) When I finish listening to his unemployment story
(101) Grandma's words are in my head, warn me to live up to expectations
(102) I've thrown away every excuse to cry
(103) I am accustomed to living coldly in this relentless reality
(104) How do I start my life? How to start the change?
(105) I'm in the middle of a swamp, how can I get clean?
(106) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(107) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(108) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(109) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(110) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(111) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(112) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(113) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(114) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(115) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(116) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(117) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
(118) Life's a struggle, but you still have to face the days
(119) You've tried everything but still have countless troubles
(120) Everyday, how many problems should you face
(121) How many nights will you be awake with fear and pain
 
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Recently these ones I hear them over and over I can´t stop


 
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desperateCosine20

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Shine A Light by Banners. I listen to it when I feel depressed, the lyrics are great.

"Light will lead the way to set you free
I'm only looking for a little peace
And when the night falls
Oh call on me
Just don't forget to show me some mercy
Ooh, say you're mine
Ooh, take me higher
Shine a light on
Shine a light on me
Shine a light on
Shine a light on me
Cause I was lost at sea
While the waves were dragging me underneath
Shine a light on
Shine a light on me"
 
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RayoSinSol

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I can’t ignore the abyss. It is real.
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enjolras

enjolras

Dead are useless if not to love the living more
Feb 13, 2020
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We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like: car-parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around

It's become a habit
A way
To start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
I imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming up herest those rocks

And when it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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I found another good one.

 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
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Haven't seen one of these in a while. Post your favorite songs pertaining to death/suicide/depression. Here are mine,

MGMT - When You Die (love the song, has a super trippy awesome video too)


Olivia 'O Brien - Empty (this song speaks to my soul)


Oh Wonder - White Blood (reminds me of the love of my life I lost forever)


Black Label Society - In This River (i want this song played at my funeral)



Your turn!

"You Don't Know" by Katelyn Tarver
 
kukookat90

kukookat90

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May 8, 2020
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Dark Paradise by Lana Del Rey. Or One by Metallica. Totally different, equally effective
 
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Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
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"But I've kissed enough bathroom sinks to make up for the lovers that never loved me. And I know my body is just dirty clothes. I'm tired of washing my hands. God, I wanna go home ."
 
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enjolras

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Dead are useless if not to love the living more
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"But I've kissed enough bathroom sinks to make up for the lovers that never loved me. And I know my body is just dirty clothes. I'm tired of washing my hands. God, I wanna go home ."

Love her music + personality
 
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Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
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Love her + personality

Me too! I love her lyrics to all of her songs. They are so full of depth and they really hit home with me. Her voice is incredible as well. This song is what I'll be listening to when I drink the SN.
 
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Deleted member 17331

Deleted member 17331

The swan sang with a broken neck
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pete_x

Good god, let's eat !
May 9, 2020
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Carnivore
Angry Neurotic Catholics



I'm suffering from depression The anger turned within What do I gain for all my pain Perhaps a seat in heaven? Check it out. Don't do what you want Do what you're taught is right Your life is built on paranoia and guilt Don't forget your Valium tonight The agony I must endure My mind is painful and swells The punishment for what I've done Is forever the pains of Hell How come what is natural Has to be a sin? Why would God give me this urge If I cannot give in? They say don't give up That Jesus loves me But there's something he doesn't forgive I know I have sinned And am therefore worthless And I don't deserve to live I went down to my basement Confused and depressed Put Black Sabbath on Razor blade in hand A Wilkinson I think Ten slashes on each arm My only wrong doing Was being born human And following my instincts I never was happy I never was sane So I shall be extinct The growing pool of crimson at last I am pure witness my sanguines penance I don't need anyone My soul's been set free Death is total independence Stand up straight Stomach in Shoulders back Sound off Angry neurotic catholics Angry neurotic catholics (It's a sin) It's not a sin (It's a sin) It's not a sin, (It's a sin) Shut up, fucker! Angry neurotic catholics Angry neurotic catholics (It's a sin) It's not a sin, (It's a sin) It's not a sin, (It's a sin) Shut up, shut up (It's a sin) Get out of my head! Get out! Get out! Angry neurotic catholics It's a sin

I listened to this one alot while i was locked up in a state psych hospital when i was a kid.

Death
Open Casket



Approach the image filled with fear As the image grows so clear Future now takes full control The one whose past you now behold Touch - the flesh it is so cold Turn away - you now have been told Never to return, memories will last In the future, you'll think about the past Never to forget, what you have seen People come to pay respect Taking pictures of the dead That is what life comes to be Once they lived, now they're deceased Death is oh so strange The past no one can change What you can't predict Is how long you'll exist Open casket - open casket Life will never be the same Death can never be explained It's their time to go beyond Empty feeling when they're gone
 
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BPDbitch

BPDbitch

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I love this song. Forth Road Bridge is one of the jump sites I'm thinking about for ctb. This song was released in 2008, then two years ago today the lead singer died by suicide on the FRB.
 
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BeeLoyal

BeeLoyal

Is Existence Just A Test?
Apr 27, 2020
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Empty - Juice WRLD



(More of a Love-Depression flair...):
Snuff - Slipknot

Robbery - Juice WRLD



Welp and basically a lot of other songs but these are the main ones. Goodbyes by Post Malone is good too.
 
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Adamsnolife

Adamsnolife

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I love this song. Forth Road Bridge is one of the jump sites I'm thinking about for ctb. This song was released in 2008, then two years ago today the lead singer died by suicide on the FRB.


I remember seeing a sad article on him. I suppose it's a good place to jump considering its height in to the cold river
 
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enjolras

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Dead are useless if not to love the living more
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I love this song. Forth Road Bridge is one of the jump sites I'm thinking about for ctb. This song was released in 2008, then two years ago today the lead singer died by suicide on the FRB.

very good song, thx for the discovery
 
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Ryan.s

Ryan.s

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Like a stone - Audioslave

Essentially about an old man dying not knowing what his fate is. Heaven, hell, or nothing.
 
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Zozo

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Not a "juggalo" myself, but "Suicide Hotline" by Insane Clown Posse off the "Hell's Pit" Album.
And of course, "Suicidal Thoughts," by The Notorious B.I.G.
 
crybaby

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Empty - Juice WRLD



(More of a Love-Depression flair...):
Snuff - Slipknot

Robbery - Juice WRLD



Welp and basically a lot of other songs but these are the main ones. Goodbyes by Post Malone is good too.

Juice WRLD♡♡♡
 
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TheGoodGuy

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Pretty much any Linkin Park song e.g. Crawling, In the end, One more light, Leave out all the rest, Numb etc.
 
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disconnection

disconnection

It's the blue hour again
Apr 24, 2020
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Top suicide one has to be Marilyn Mason's Coma Black:


Others I love are VNV Nation's Illusion (urging someone to hang on in, have listened to this so many times through my life!)


Assemblage 23's Disappoint (from the perspective of someone bereaved by suicide)


And my top mental health one of all time, the wonderful North Star by IAMX (dissociation and trauma central). I played this non stop when I was sectioned last year. I felt like the song was 'meant' for me because everything was so relevant. God I miss being manic! The only time I've felt properly alive.
 
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xalltoowell

xalltoowell

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The lyrics make this well worth a listen and are relatable to many people on here.
 
Alec

Alec

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Apr 22, 2019
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"Waltz #2" by Elliott Smith, recently discovered it, I think it's about depression and suicide. He did die from a stab wound to the chest, it was ruled a suicide.

I also really love "Little Girl Blue" by Janis Joplin. Plus, "The Great Escape" by P!nk - but this one is more into recovery side I think.
 
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