Venting Younger siblings

[getfree05]

So I basically attempted before and it deeply traumatized my younger siblings and they cried uncontrollably . I feel bad for wanting to ctb at home and this time I'll do it correctly so hopefully it'll work but I can't help but feel bad for when they see me this time ik they'll move on eventually I'm not that important anyway but they won't have me again in there life I basically choose their outfits fight their bullies and help them with their problems so it feels like am being selfish for taking myself away from them if that make sense yk . I love them so much but I can't do it anymore I just wish I had an older sister/brother to take care of me like I do with them (they won't give me any credit for taking care of them but idc) I just feel bad

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like a difficult situation to be in, I just personally wish that people didn't bring life into this world in the first place so that there would be no death, no loss and no suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.