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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
Personally I'd like to visit Colorado. My family lived there before I was born, so I've grown up looking at beautiful pictures in photo albums, but never got to see it myself. My mom would tell me about our house and the view and the walk to the supermarket. Now she's gone and I feel like I need to go before I go. But I'm broke, unfortunately.

What about you though?
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
579
All the drugs I need to CTB. Maybe some food too. Thats all.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
Put it in the bank so my wife can use it after I'm gone.
 
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maplefig

Member
Jun 6, 2025
35
I would also go on a trip. Maybe to the Faroe Islands. Or Washington. I've always thought the nature and atmosphere were beautiful in both of these places.
 
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Carrot

Carrot

C:
Feb 25, 2025
515
That Pegasos thing might be worth a try... (not really)

Put it in the bank so my wife can use it after I'm gone.
Pretty much this or donate it to meaningful causes. My last suicide note already mentioned I leave the money I have to a few people or donate it to somewhere a specifif cause.
 
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Nobodi

Nobodi

Student
Sep 24, 2024
127
Pay that 10k plus in that Switzerland assist pod thing that helps you die peacefully. Will have to wait till they approve you though. Or just donate the whole thing after I buy necessary equipment and end it there.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,923
Cocaine and trip to some fancy island
 
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UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
375
Leave it to charity and my family
 
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black money boys

black money boys

80% BAN CREDITS
Apr 18, 2025
518
a trip to switzerland for pegasos
 
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hereornot

hereornot

Freedom
May 16, 2024
274
Some days out in the middle of Nature, Aline. Some hotel like this.
 
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idk3

idk3

Student
Sep 10, 2023
173
Donate it all to animal charities, which is what I'm going to do
 
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semio

semio

Im in a good mood, so good, I'ma kill that spider
Jun 3, 2025
18
I would just add it to the money I am leaving to my nephew, I tried to be there for him so that he wouldn't be as messed up as I am and I hope that he can at least use money to have a better life.
 
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tiredash

Banned
Dec 5, 2024
148
i suppose that the question meant that what i would do if i could do anything before dying... i would do nothing, or just make it faster. if i did anything that i liked then id probably want to keep living. although maybe i think like this because i still havent decided to die...
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
235
Probably a bunch of cocaine
 
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ashendreams

ashendreams

rotting angel
May 31, 2025
70
i would of course leave it for my family so i can at least slightly make up for how much of a burden i am. but if i had to spend it on myself then i dunno. i dont really care to go anywhere so i guess id just spend it all on every drug i can get my hands on and then get a top-floor hotel suite to jump from
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,278
Personally I'd like to visit Colorado. My family lived there before I was born, so I've grown up looking at beautiful pictures in photo albums, but never got to see it myself. My mom would tell me about our house and the view and the walk to the supermarket. Now she's gone and I feel like I need to go before I go. But I'm broke, unfortunately.

What about you though?
Big vacation
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,416
Food and cigarettes!
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
Air tickets to see my person a last time and a holiday that goes with it, staying in some secluded spot with not many people around.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,897
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
333
With Some good booze and dope. Give the rest to family/ friends.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,705
I'm giving it to my kid so he and his girlfriend can go on a trip to where ever they want, or add to their investments so they can have a little more to work with when it comes time to retire, or help them buy a property they want to build their dream house on, or just go to the casino and blow. All I want is for them to be happy.
 
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eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
130
Can't see myself buying anything considering you cant take it to the grave, I'd leave 10 each in savings for my kids to collect when they reach adulthood
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
The only thing that brings me happuness anymore is the idea of death, my first instinct was to say death
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
222
That should cover the swiss option, I'm going with that.
 
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Disabled75039

thank you for everything.
Aug 25, 2023
35
Gum ball machine
Tooth picks
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,648
buy 1kg of cocaine that should last a couple of months
 
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turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

🎣
Nov 13, 2023
212
I'd probably impulse-buy some food and stuff online,, then i'd try to pay the commission fee for the custom mask my friend's trying to save up for before sending the rest of the money to her
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,420
The irony is - if I have enough money I'm not suicidal!

I'm suicidal bc of a lack of money.
 
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