yay, placed my sn order (again)

[ever so lonely]

here is my order of sn guys and gals, i have lost a couple of 50 gram bags by now, stupid i know and careless just miss placed them completely, and so had to request some more sn, and as it was payday i figured lets get this shite over with, shipping wont be too long, the source was very easy to deal with too, and very friendly, just made payment by way of paypal, and then bought it again, i am ready to check out peoples, for reals this time, it is coming to the uk under international post, it was £121 or so there or thereabouts in us dollars, but in our british pounds it worked out at just shy of around £104 quid, so no bad, better than a poke in the eye with a sharp stick, my question is tho will a couple of 50 gram bags do it and be sufficient to turn out my lights ?, and do i need anything else, or will sn alone suffice, i do have propranolol just in case too, for my anxiety and panic disorder so may take them with it to slow myself down, thanks for having me peeps appreciate it, if this is my final time of posting them thanks for having me, i appreciate it, honestly, i felt accepted here, i dont anywhere else, which brought me to this point i guess among other things, i just got tired of talking about it but never getting round to doing it, and am tired of existence just so tired of even talking about it aswell and moaning of the suffering we endure, daily, the daily torment, at this point i just want to go, nothing else will do, hope it makes sense, many of us are checking out it seems i just noticed official uk ons figures for england and wales, that state suicide is on the rise again, after a reduction pre pandemic, cant imagine why, thanks peoples again, you have been great and informative, but i knew my situation would never change, mainly due to bereavement of relatives, aint a whole lot you can do about that i guess, so in closing will two bags of 50 gram sn do the job ?, take care man, peace out, hopefully for
my final time, pics are attached of the order too.

 

[almostoutofhere]

Might want to hide the source, but yeah that will be more than enough. You only need 50g, to make 2 cups (1 extra)

 

[Lost in a Dream]

A couple of 50 gram bags would probably be enough for you to do it 4 times in a row. Depending on how much you weigh, half of one of those bags could do the trick, but I'm not an expert on it either. Just going by what I remember from other SN related threads.

I'd be freaking out if I lost my SN and I'd be too afraid of trying to order it again, just in case it got confiscated the second time around.

 

[Ireallysuck999]

There are articles of people dying from less ammount this is really a deadly poison.

 

[ever so lonely]

thanks brother for that at least i know, thank you they only sold it me as i told them it wasn't for self harm purposes, i assured them it wasnt, how do i hide the info do you know buds ?, thanks again man i feel better knowing at least it will do the job, hope you find peace somehow friend aswell, this existence is hellish man peace and blessings to you, to everybody here
i am around 10 and a half stones i think ? so that should defos do it ? phew i worried about it because i was just going to get a single bag but thought maybe it wouldn't be enough, i hate that when i was searching there was the crisis lines being advertised on google too, those same crisis lines that fail us daily, it a joke man, thanks for the heads up peoples i appreciate it loves and hugs to everybody

 

[almostoutofhere]

Just edit out the name or delete the second pic

thanks brother for that at least i know, thank you they only sold it me as i told them it wasn't for self harm purposes, i assured them it wasnt, how do i hide the info do you know buds ?, thanks again man i feel better knowing at least it will do the job, hope you find peace somehow friend aswell, this existence is hellish man peace and blessings to you, to everybody here
i am around 10 and a half stones i think ? so that should defos do it ? phew i worried about it because i was just going to get a single bag but thought maybe it wouldn't be enough, i hate that when i was searching there was the crisis lines being advertised on google too, those same crisis lines that fail us daily, it a joke man, thanks for the heads up peoples i appreciate it loves and hugs to everybody

 

[ever so lonely]

just edited it mate at least so as they don't get into trouble, i doubt they will as many of us are ordering via them, but still i don't want to bring heat on anybody, do you know when you just feel ready tho ?, i got those feels, shame it isn't here now tho

 

[almostoutofhere]

just edited it mate at least so as they don't get into trouble, i doubt they will as many of us are ordering via them, but still i don't want to bring heat on anybody, do you know when you just feel ready tho ?, i got those feels, shame it isn't here now tho

I know what you mean, a couple days ago I just had that feeling like, if I had sn already I would take it right then & there

 

[Ireallysuck999]

Same I would take SN right away I feel so bad rn.

 

[peacetime]

My SN from IC has arrived to my country, Finland, and I just paid the customs fee. Should be coming to me today.
While waiting for it, I've wanted to kill myself so many times. Tried partial hanging two times.

But now I feel like I can give life a final chance. I'm basically just listening to "relaxing music 3 hours" type videos on YouTube, and preparing to enter university next week again. I'll take it easy, live a private and simple life. Maybe life can be okay. I feel like shit, but maybe that will pass at some point. Actually for me, I know it does. Comes and goes.

Don't feel the need to use the SN. I'm personally going to keep it in a cupboard, if things really go to absolute shit, then I have an exit. But until then, every day is easier since I know if things get bad, I can just say good bye.