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[lemonhoney]

How are your letters ? I feel like I'm writing a book for my family but it's all I can do to pass the time until I decide how to go.

If you were receiving a goodbye letter, what would you like to read ? So far it's incredibly depressing and apologetic and now I'm kinda going through my reasons, hoping to leave behind at least an explanation so my family doesn't feel so empty.

 

[Hollowillow]

To my mom: you wanted abortion. Me wasn't mistake. You were. Me corrected your mistake. Hope to never meet you in hell, demon woman.

To me from my friend: thanks for making lufe almost bearable while we were friends

Ha! As if... No friends... Unbearable. Me Demon spawn.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, the purpose of a suicide note would be to act as a form of closure for those left behind and will give them some form of explanation and understanding as to why I did this, even know I doubt that others ever could fully understand but it's better than leaving nothing in my opinion. That is what I would want to read if for some reason I received one (not that I know any suicidal people anyway though).

 

[lemonhoney]

To me, the purpose of a suicide note would be to act as a form of closure for those left behind and will give them some form of explanation and understanding as to why I did this, even know I doubt that others ever could fully understand but it's better than leaving nothing in my opinion. That is what I would want to read if for some reason I received one (not that I know any suicidal people anyway though).

Thanks for this. It definitely feels like closure, I have a lot to explain since I never expressed depression in any serious ways until now. I'm writing what led me to this state of mind, and then things I'll miss. I think the latter is mostly for me but I hope it also gives my family strength to keep going.

 

[SamTam33]

"...What would you like to read?" That's a really good question.

Analogies. Analogies to help describe the pain. Especially if suicide isn't something I/they couldn't personally relate to. Vivid analogies.

I have a friend who essentially had a nervous breakdown because she had an acne breakout. Very pretty and couldn't get past the fact that her face was marred.

She had to see a psychiatrist and get a prescription for anti-depressants just to maintain her sanity. She was flipping all the way out. Couldn't speak without crying. For months.

I plan on asking her to imagine living like that every day of her life. Imagine if the pimples didn't clear up. Now multiply that times 10.

That's the kinds of things I'd like those around me to understand about my decision.

 

[Forever Sleep]

To me from my friend: thanks for making lufe almost bearable while we were friends

I'd definitely want to say this sort of thing- that I did deeply care about the people around me. (Not that they are 'around me' anymore!) I'd also want to say that I didn't let them know just how bad things were because I was resolute on doing this (most of my life). I didn't want them to try and stop me and there's nothing they could have done to stop it- so I hoped to spare them any guilt. That I don't want them to feel guilty- if they do. And if they are angry at me- I hope they will forgive me in time. It wasn't my intention to hurt them. I just couldn't cope anymore.

 

[Maudlin]

How are your letters ? I feel like I'm writing a book for my family but it's all I can do to pass the time until I decide how to go.

If you were receiving a goodbye letter, what would you like to read ? So far it's incredibly depressing and apologetic and now I'm kinda going through my reasons, hoping to leave behind at least an explanation so my family doesn't feel so empty.

To whom it may concern:

It was real, it was fun-
but it wasn't real fun.

Love, love

-me