bubblingwaterz
Someone looking for something
- Sep 12, 2023
- 9
I feel so many things at the moment. I feel like everything is so loud… I am currently in the dark sitting in the bathroom floor from where I work 8am - 6pm. I don't even know what I am supposed to talk about here I just know one thing for sure… and that is that I am simply not made for this world… I am supposed to be enjoying myself, I hear people all around me saying this bs about letting yourself feel the "human experience" but I don't wanna feel it anymore.. why is it so hard to just end it all?
I thought of jumping off the building but the complex where I live has too many children and animals and I don't wanna give kids trauma.
I also thought of full hanging but I don't have a spot for it and I am being constantly watched like a hawk by my parents, I can barely go to the bathroom without them asking me where I am going.
I thought SN or N but I don't have any way or form to get my hands on these stuff or any materials…
The country where I live is terrible to find this type of stuff so I am not sure what is the best method for me to go with
I am thinking of just drinking cleaning products, like… really strong ones, the ones where people use to unclog toilets. I heard they poison and you can CTB from them, but I am not so sure…
I am a rookie at this… do you all think it might work?
Please… I feel so helpless..
I thought of jumping off the building but the complex where I live has too many children and animals and I don't wanna give kids trauma.
I also thought of full hanging but I don't have a spot for it and I am being constantly watched like a hawk by my parents, I can barely go to the bathroom without them asking me where I am going.
I thought SN or N but I don't have any way or form to get my hands on these stuff or any materials…
The country where I live is terrible to find this type of stuff so I am not sure what is the best method for me to go with
I am thinking of just drinking cleaning products, like… really strong ones, the ones where people use to unclog toilets. I heard they poison and you can CTB from them, but I am not so sure…
I am a rookie at this… do you all think it might work?
Please… I feel so helpless..