Method Wrist slitting - beating the odds?

[toomanyminds]

Hey everyone!

I am new here, so I hope I am doing this right…
I know that slitting your wrists is a notoriously unreliable method, I think a Havard study lists the success rate at 1.6%. I have two other, more solid plans, but they'll both take a few more months to prepare so I need a backup plan in case things get unbearable before then. From experience I am pretty confident I could make slitting my wrists work and I wanted to share my plan in case anyone is interested in some ideas on how to pull this off and also to get some feedback and some questions answered. [I do not want to encourage anyone to use this method. I am only sharing this for informational purposes and to possibly get some feedback.]

Some background info in case anyone cares: I attempted a few months ago by cutting my wrists. I was inpatient back then so I did not have a lot of options, and a friend managed to sneak in some razor blades. I waited until the nurse had been by for the first nightly check-in, then I locked myself in the bathroom (yes, where I live psych wards have bathroom doors that can be locked) and started cutting. I caught the blood in a 0.4l cup to estimate how much I had lost and how long it would take to bleed out. It took me around two hours to lose a bit more than 2l, then my blood started clotting like crazy. I kept trying to reopen the wounds but the bleeding kept slowing down. Unfortunately I did not manage to really lose any more blood before the nurse came to my room and unlocked the bathroom door after I refused to come out. So yeah, that was that, I got some stitches and infusions, got yelled at a lot and kept passing out for the next few days. Now here I am a few months later, still alive. However, I find comfort in knowing that it would have worked if I had been able to keep my blood from clotting and had had a bit more time. So here's my plan on how to actually make it work next time, just in case I have to ctb earlier than planned:

• I don't live alone, I don't want to traumatize anyone or be disturbed again, so I'll get a motel room for two nights (to make sure I have plenty of time before being found), hang the "do not disturb"-sign on the door and another sign on the bathroom door, saying it should only be opened by medical or psych professionals due to a potentially traumatizing scene
• I will use a medical scalpel instead of razor blades - razor blades are kind of hard to use with precision because they are sharp on both sides and hard to hold. With a scalpel it should be easier to cut a straight line and to push it down hard enough to get down to the arteries
• I will take blood thinners before I start to keep my blood from clotting. Here I would like some advice: Does anyone know how much to take? Usually the package lists a suggested daily dose, should I just take that or more? How much more?
• I know I can bear the pain of cutting deep into my wrist, but why not make it a bit easier? I will get lidocaine (where I live it's sold without prescription) both as a solution that can be injected and as a spray. I will use the injection 10-30 min before I start and use the spray as needed
• I'll also take some lorazepam and drink a bit of alcohol (did that last time as well) to keep myself from freaking out and to navigate some of the "side effects" of bleeding out like a rapid heartbeat etc.
• I'll use a cup to measure blood loss again just to estimate how things are going
• I'll put on some comfy clothes and take my iPad with me to watch something or listen to music - tbh, last time my problem wasn't that I was getting panicky or had a hard time fighting my SI, not at all actually, but I was sooooo bored. Like I was literally bleeding to death and all I could think about was how annoyed I was that it took so long and I could not even "take a break" to have a smoke. So yeah, I'll make sure to have some entertainment next time.
• I don't plan on using them, but just as a precaution, I will take steri strips with me. If anything should go wrong, if somehow my blood still clots after taking blood thinners or I should somehow change my mind, I need to be able to take care of the wounds myself. I don't want to go to the ER and be admitted.

So yeah, that's it. I will get the blood thinners, lidocaine (injection and spray) and a medical scalpel online tomorrow. I already have lorazepam, alcohol and steri strips. Everything I need is pretty easily accessible and not that expensive. I'll put everything in a backpack together with my outfit of choice, my farewell note, my will and funeral instructions. I'll have everything prepared, and if I can't take it anymore, all I have to do is get a room in a motel. I guess this part is kind of expensive, but I can afford it and it's not like it matters if I am broke afterwards.

I hope this might be interesting or useful for someone and maybe someone can help me answer my question on how much blood thinner to take. Thank you!

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

If you really planned this out well and you want to die this way - you have the will power to do so - then go ahead with your plan. I have thought of cutting as well because I have little other means to cbt - that and hanging.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

 

[haibane]

good luck, hope u will find peace easily