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notevenhere

notevenhere

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Apr 27, 2023
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hey, sasu. so, i won't disclose who they are, but someone messaged me here and we're meeting up on my birthday, we'll do it in the hotel room via SN poisoning.

i was wondering, if you were in my position: would you prefer to be good friends with them first? or just be besties online? i guess not because of legal repercussions but in my home country nothing matters, rapists can get away with anything, murderers, even so like, even a digital footprint of me asking for a suicide pact on discord doesn't really scare me...

anyways, this person is a stranger to me, my birthday is two weeks from now, i just text this person when i check the site which isnt always, like once every breakdown - which is actually happening more often now, glad i will ctb soon. <3

have you had your own suicide pact before? even just online, webcam on, and one succeeds, you don't? or you chicken out the last minute and don't show up at meeting up. any advice and what i should look out for? thanks in advance.

update: nevermind. they decided not to. came up with a reason and idc if its real or not, just sucks. oh, well. got my hopes up i would be able to NOT be alone in my last moments.
 
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Yes, I would. That's been one of the big turn-offs regarding the partners thread for me, I don't just wanna meet up with anyone. I'd rather actually make friends with someone, preferably meeting offline during this friendship, and then do it one day. Read a fanfic where that happened, actually, and felt like shit for the next day cuz I knew I'd never have that.
 
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I wouldn't do it because I struggle to commit to anything and I can't in good conscious promise someone that I will die with them, and then have them do it without me.
 
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Nadienobody

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Jan 2, 2025
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Of course I would. I'd never do it with someone I don't trust or I don't care about. My dream would be becoming very close to my partner, not necessarily in a romantic way, but I want to feel a conection and make sure we both want the same thing. Also trying to have the best time possible in our final moments. But that's just a fantasy, in reality I'll probably do it alone.
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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The trick in all things is... how to find someone you can trust to be who they appear to be. I mean, if you're trying to die, I guess you're less scared of being killed maybe... but you could be killed in a painful terrible way and not at a time of your choosing... and that wouldn't be good or peaceful.

Being alone sucks... the possibility of not being alone in death is attractive... but then, I feel like if I was going to be able to connect with someone for that, why can't I connect with someone to live? I've never been able to do that, so it seems highly unlikely to be able to do it in death either. But I try anyway, in futility so far... but I try.
 
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DeeDog

DeeDog

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Oct 13, 2024
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Tricky question. I don't know. The problem is that if I didn't care about them, if they were a stranger, I think I'd rather be alone. But if I did know them, and I watched them die, I would feel probably really really bad in my last moments if we did it together.

But best case scenario, it would be with a romantic partner. Someone I'd loved for a while and known for longer. Falling asleep on his chest as he guides me into an endless sleep. I don't expect that to happen, but it would be nice.
 
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InTheAbyss

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Jul 30, 2024
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At the very least I'd want to get to know the person and be sure I was comfortable with them first.
 
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TBONTB

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May 31, 2025
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hey, sasu. so, i won't disclose who they are, but someone messaged me here and we're meeting up on my birthday, we'll do it in the hotel room via SN poisoning.

i was wondering, if you were in my position: would you prefer to be good friends with them first? or just be besties online? i guess not because of legal repercussions but in my home country nothing matters, rapists can get away with anything, murderers, even so like, even a digital footprint of me asking for a suicide pact on discord doesn't really scare me...

anyways, this person is a stranger to me, my birthday is two weeks from now, i just text this person when i check the site which isnt always, like once every breakdown - which is actually happening more often now, glad i will ctb soon. <3

have you had your own suicide pact before? even just online, webcam on, and one succeeds, you don't? or you chicken out the last minute and don't show up at meeting up. any advice and what i should look out for? thanks in advance.

update: nevermind. they decided not to. came up with a reason and idc if its real or not, just sucks. oh, well. got my hopes up i would be able to NOT be alone in my last moments.
Yeah, maybe it's bad, maybe it's good. That a lot of trust to place in a stranger.

Sorry it didn't work out though
 
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hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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hey, sasu. so, i won't disclose who they are, but someone messaged me here and we're meeting up on my birthday, we'll do it in the hotel room via SN poisoning.

i was wondering, if you were in my position: would you prefer to be good friends with them first? or just be besties online? i guess not because of legal repercussions but in my home country nothing matters, rapists can get away with anything, murderers, even so like, even a digital footprint of me asking for a suicide pact on discord doesn't really scare me...

anyways, this person is a stranger to me, my birthday is two weeks from now, i just text this person when i check the site which isnt always, like once every breakdown - which is actually happening more often now, glad i will ctb soon. <3

have you had your own suicide pact before? even just online, webcam on, and one succeeds, you don't? or you chicken out the last minute and don't show up at meeting up. any advice and what i should look out for? thanks in advance.

update: nevermind. they decided not to. came up with a reason and idc if its real or not, just sucks. oh, well. got my hopes up i would be able to NOT be alone in my last moments.
I think the feeling of trust would be more important that a friendship. This is where two of your are ending your life. Trust to me seems more important
 
bankai

bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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The only person I would want to die with is a good friend. Someone i have known online for a long time.

You can always talk to them on apps like Discord or Signal as well. And if you're actually going to meet up, then you might as well have video calls as well.Get a good sense of each other.

Just doing a random meet up seems like not a good idea at all. You can get to know someone really well in a few days or even a few weeks depending on how you vibe with each other.

I don't want to die with a complete stranger though.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
652
My friend wants to go together when her kids are grown and independent. Idk if I'm gonna last that long.

Sorry they flaked out on you.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I had a half joking but underlyingly serious pact with someone at primary school (of all places.) We started young. They've gone on to get themselves together.

But yes, I would want to know the person very well. Personally, I don't find the thought of dying with a relative stranger comforting. In a way, I admire people who have that much trust in others though. I have a very cynical, suspicious and worried mind I suppose.
 
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