Would you still ctb if you won the lottery?

[Worthless_nobody]

I would ctb in the end because I refuse to live into old age but it would make life tolerable enough to keep me around for some years and I would try really hard to hang on until my mom passed.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Even if you win, you still lose at the end of the day. Cause none of that matters when you die.

 

[BabyYoda]

I'd do it after I travel to places and buy merch lol

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Some of the happiest people I've known are broke, while some of the most miserable and stressed are well off.

I've lived my life from both sides. I have been broke, then wealthy, then broke again.

I can tell you for a fact, money can buy you moments of happiness. It can give you material things that make you happy but the happiness from those things doesn't last long. Money can't buy you Health either...David Bowie died of Cancer... money can't give you a life of happiness just moments that don't last.

In my 44 years on this planet I have learned that being true to yourself, finding loving friends and family (even if your real family sucks, you can go make a new one) , living life on your terms and not at the expectations of others and society, when you can do that you can start to find the road to happiness.

Sometimes to do that, it means walking away from people, ending relationships, being selfish and being okay with being alone for a while. The world is an amazing place once you start to live it on your own terms. I also think, sometimes we have to be sad , so we can truly feel the good times.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. Money won't solve my problems.

 

[voyager]

Definitely. My life turned for me when I was sixteen. I didn't have a penny to my name but up to that point I was happy and wholesome. That's something money can't buy. But I do agree that it would improve one's quality of life and provide enough security to see one's parents out.

 

[porfin1234]

Definitely would still stick around.
pay off debt and hospital bills
Not have to work at job I suck at
And just be productive in other ways with hobbies and helping people and traveling.
and maybe just maybe be motivatedand disciplined enough to be back to where I was last year
Save and donate a lot too.

 

[terry_a_davis]

In years gone by I had a well paid job but i couldn't handle the money, i spent it all on drugs and women. I had a great hedonistic time but it sent me crazy in the end, I regret it now. I wish someone could have got me under control, given me some stern advice etc.

If i had a lottery win i wouldn't know what to spend it on as i can't risk my mental health going on drug benders and i don't crave for materialistic things nowadays.

It might delay me ctb as i would consider seeing the world a bit, travelling. I'd donate to an animal charity too. But i'd still ctb eventually i think, me ctb is not related to money.

 

[LivingToLong]

Money may not buy happiness but it sure helps in diverting the sadness! So, yes, I suspect winning a sizeable sum would encourage me to stick around, if only to spend the money I'd won.

When I was working, I earned more than enough to live on and a deal more than many people, perhaps even most people, but I was never 100% happy otherwise I wouldn't have stopped doing it. But what the money did do was enable me to divert myself from the feelings of unfulfillment I had, for at least some of the time anyway. I'm not talking world cruises or the like either, just simply being able to afford to go out to restaurants, theatre, cinema etc without having to worry about the cost. In fact, I found that eating well at a decent restaurant brought a smile to my face and a genuine feeling of contentment. Something quite basic and human there I think.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Yes i would im deformed it cant be fixed if money can fix your problems ctb is not the right choice

 

[Rena rossy]

If I won the lottery I would get N as soon as a could so I could ctb, but since I don't have that much money, I will have to do it with SN

 

[BPD Barbie]

I'd be happy for a while. The manic BPD side would be in its element, unlimited money to spend on whatever it wanted. But ultimately I'd still have BPD and other medical problems so the while it would alleviate some issues, it wouldnt solve them all.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

No, wealth can improve my situation, provide safety baseline and give me access to best therapy.
How someone have said here it provides tolerable level of misery.

 

[Nnana]

I play the lottery a lot, it's like that's my only hope these days... If I win I probably could stay around a lot more depending on how well I feel physically. I'd rather die after my mother's gone.

 

[Farmmaa]

I would definitely stay for a while, at least until my physical pain became unbearable and my nerve damage meant not being able to enjoy life any more. I suspect that not having to work every day doing rather physical labor would be the break my neck needs to slow the degeneration a bit.
My health would improve a lot without the constant stress and anxiety over trying to scrape by financially day to day.

I would buy a nice place in the country with room for gorgeous gardens, lots of bedrooms for my kids to come visit and land for tons of critters again. I would travel to all of the places I've always longed to see and would use the rest to ensure that my kids and grandkids were always set for the future.

I never want to be old, crippled up and dependant on anyone.... so living life out until old age tajes me has never much appealed to me... but at least I could enjoy s many years as i could before I go.

 

[hershberger]

Well, my problems are all emotional (not physical), so I'd probably try to make things work out. Depending on the amount of money, I'd make sure everyone in my family was taken care of; after that, I would try every treatment there was. Maybe something would help. Since I'm an accountant - and boy, are we a bunch of nerds - I would at least stick around long enough to handle all the tax implications. I could leave behind ctb grief, but not IRS grief.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Probably not. I mean don't get me wrong, I'd still be a depressed mess..but at least I'd have money. Most of my current struggles have to do with finances or could be fixed with money.

 

[xBrialesana]

I might fuck around and see some shit, leave the country, do a few things I never got to do, and use the rest to be sure I successfully ctb.. (also half would be donated to charity for animals!)
It would make the time pass easier I'll say

 

[UnlimitedPain]

I probably still would but I would do few things by and plan it out better before leaving it all too someone. I might also be able to bribe a vet into injection or giving me the means of for my self.
Sometimes I think if I did get that money I would try making assisted suicide legal globally for terminally Ill and mental health.
Something like a non for profit charity or company and also making it affordable to all

 

[outrider567]

Of course I'd still CTB, winning the lottery would mean nothing to me--at my age and with my loss

 

[niiina]

I'd never ctb in those circumstances, I'd buy a house, a vehicle, pay for studies and travel a lot, this would be game changing

 

[FuneralCry]

I would still want to ctb no matter what happens in this life. There is nothing desirable or appealing about enduring existence, life is a terrible concept filled with endless unnecessary suffering. Non existence, the absence of everything is preferable to any kind of life as it removes the cause of all problems in the first place which is life itself. The dead don't want, need or have any desire for anything.

Also money doesn't guarantee that the person will suffer less. I believe that suffering is simply inevitable in life and of course money cannot buy health. All that humans are destined for is to suffer in reaching a very old age then just deteriorate. So many rich people have ctb as well, so money doesn't solve everything in life. Only death does.

 

[trayansh]

I would give them to the person I love and still CTB because I will still feel empty inside

 

[makethepainstop]

Depends on the $ amount. With a couple of hundred million, I might delay it for a time.

 

[LifeIsAChore11]

For me no, I wouldn't.
It will solve all of my oroblems.
Because my problems are financial in nature.
Or more specifically that I have no financial future at 26.
I hate s
plus all jobs are nightmarish.
I don't see myself working in anything.
I would juest sleep all day, listen to music and go to the beach and movies and not study or work a second of my life.

I'm sure I'd find a way to be miserable with myself. But, I'd have a panel of the best doctors convened to identify precisely all the issues that are wrong with me, physically and mentally, and treat it. If that didn't work, I'd CTB as there's nothing else for me to live for. I used to be the most materialistic person out there, but now it's all empty to me.

 

[painofzed]

It would solve a lot of my immediate problems but I'd still just hate existing. I suppose I could take time to really focus on my mental health at that point and see if there is something that might actually fix it. To date I've tried about every antidepressant known to man, shitloads of therapy, ketamine infusions, mushrooms, weed, and drinking it away. None of these have worked. I believe I am destined to want nothing other than to not be.

 

[catdaddy2601]

I don't care enough about money, and movey can't take back time

 

[Exact Change]

It would delay my ctb I think. Id help some people. And it would make it easier to leave knowing I would leave my family the money.

 

[mrelief82]

Maybe 2 years ago this would help . Now it's far to late . But I would die with more peaceful mind .

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

My top goal would still be my suicide asap. here are just some reasons why and are my opinion .

even a lot of money won't prevent horrible things from happening like brain damage from a stroke accident or heart attack, parasites, diseases, old age and others.

think about how bad life is . even $900 million dollars can't convert life into something good because even $900 million dollars can't solve every horrible potential problem or disease.

however nobody is going to give anyone a large sum of money .so people will have to be under even greater and more numerous threats like homelesness , starvation , having to work all the time, cold wind etc.

and you won't remember any "good times" because every human will die and then right after Death cease existing and never exist again. so nothing matters except avoiding extreme pain and extreme suffering.

i remember me reading this thread 5 years ago . there is no constant self. i was different then. i'm still not where i want to be a suicider. but i need to get there fast. i remember all these people were regular and i guess there were less people so you got to see these all the time. they keep mentioning N . and it and SN were readily available online. i was too scared of the police to buy N and i don't know why i didn' PM some of these people to find out how to get it. most of these people proabably ctb. i had just started thinking about suicide 6 years ago. it's a battle in the brain, 1000's of addictions in my brain kept me and keep me distracted from what part of my brain knows i need to do asap kill myself.