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Jessica5

Specialist
May 22, 2019
347
Would you prefer that people thought your death wasn't a suicide?
 
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MovingOn

Member
Nov 29, 2022
94
For me, it doesn't matter because I have no social connections. If I did, yes I would prefer it.
 
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theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,188
yes
a car accident sounds good
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
707
no i want my death to be a suicide so the Narcissts responsible become shamed, i will mention them and what abuse they put me through in my suicide note and video.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
Yes, I think it would be less painful for my family.
 
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MovingOn

Member
Nov 29, 2022
94
no i want my death to be a suicide so the Narcissts responsible become shamed, i will mention them and what abuse they put me through in my suicide note and video.
Remember that they won't really care. It won't go like in that one TV show.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,290
I don't particularly care really, I won't even be alive at that point, how could it matter to me what my death is viewed as. But to me suicide is the best way to die, I guess that I would kinda want my death to be seen as that as I have always liked the idea of leaving at a time of my own choosing and making the choice to free myself from this existence. It just sounds like the right way to go to me. But as I said how could it ever matter, I mean everyone has to die of something and we will all die anyway and inevitably be forgotten about.
 
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Countdown Kirk

Member
Nov 30, 2022
31
Certainly,
Before my current crisis I threw myself into adventure sports, hoping I would succumb to an accident. CTB Check out doing what kept me 'present'. Alas, no joy. Came close on the Matterhorn. I wish now I had.
 
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stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
If I could die literally any other way that would be ideal.
 
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DaatiSimi

DaatiSimi

Member
Nov 24, 2022
65
Oof. My close family and friends are aware of my plans. (I wanted to prepare them so it was as less traumatic and painless as I could make it for them)


But lately I've been thinking about if I want it to let know the rest of the world openly that it's a suicide. Sometimes I think, should I gaslight my family into thinking this was just an accident too?
Also someone who commits suicide cannot be buried in a Jewish cemetery. I've seen how people like me are buried in a little corner outside the cemetery.


I wouldn't know what would be the ups and downs of it.


I am interested in reading your guy's thoughts on it.
 
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stermc

stermc

libertas quae sera tamen
Nov 24, 2022
946
I have never thought about that… it's a good question.
But, thinking about it, I don't really care. My whole family and friends know that I am suicidal. They know it's something I have always considered (some people even know that it's the way I know for sure I will die).
I guess if I die in another way they would probably think it's even worse because it's not me choosing, you know?
They would think I was not ready and that it was fate or something like that lol
So I think it's better to look like a suicide.
 
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makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Oof. My close family and friends are aware of my plans. (I wanted to prepare them so it was as less traumatic and painless as I could make it for them)


But lately I've been thinking about if I want it to let know the rest of the world openly that it's a suicide. Sometimes I think, should I gaslight my family into thinking this was just an accident too?
Also someone who commits suicide cannot be buried in a Jewish cemetery. I've seen how people like me are buried in a little corner outside the cemetery.


I wouldn't know what would be the ups and downs of it.


I am interested in reading your guy's thoughts on it.
If it's easier for you to make it look accidental.....then all I have to say is OOPS!
 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
919
Similar opinion to @FuneralCry, I don't really care how my death is viewed, how could I? I'll be dead.

Death is death but if it brought any solace to my family thinking it was an accident I'd prefer it that way for them, but that's just not going to happen unless I die from a freak accident prior to doing it myself, which I assume would be seen by my family as tragic as well. There is just no way really making it look like an accident for me, considering they know I'm suicidal and have been for over a decade.

I've wanted to die by my own hands for a very long time. Even prior to "traditional" suicidal thoughts, it seemed illogical to want to live until old age suffering from even more health issues and other problems than I do now.

Oof. My close family and friends are aware of my plans. (I wanted to prepare them so it was as less traumatic and painless as I could make it for them)


But lately I've been thinking about if I want it to let know the rest of the world openly that it's a suicide. Sometimes I think, should I gaslight my family into thinking this was just an accident too?
Also someone who commits suicide cannot be buried in a Jewish cemetery. I've seen how people like me are buried in a little corner outside the cemetery.


I wouldn't know what would be the ups and downs of it.


I am interested in reading your guy's thoughts on it.

If how you die and what happens to your body are important to you, as well as your religion, well then you have your answer. For me, it doesn't really matter where I'm buried or if I'm buried at all.
 
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DaatiSimi

DaatiSimi

Member
Nov 24, 2022
65
Similar opinion to @FuneralCry, I don't really care how my death is viewed, how could I? I'll be dead.

Death is death but if it brought any solace to my family thinking it was an accident I'd prefer it that way for them, but that's just not going to happen unless I die from a freak accident prior to doing it myself, which I assume would be seen by my family as tragic as well. There is just no way really making it look like an accident for me, considering they know I'm suicidal and have been for over a decade.

I've wanted to die by my own hands for a very long time. Even prior to "traditional" suicidal thoughts, it seemed illogical to want to live until old age suffering from even more health issues and other problems than I do now.



If how you die and what happens to your body are important to you, as well as your religion, well then you have your answer. For me, it doesn't really matter where I'm buried or if I'm buried at all.
I would rather choose suicide over any other method. When I'm ready, when everything is planned and in order. Going to the mikve just before, enjoying one last shabbat dinner, wear a beautiful white dress, listening to the music I choose. To walk alone, drink what I need and say my final prayers. Eternal peace.


Maybe to die on my sleep at a last shabbat afternoon would be also absolutely ideal but that's just a fantasy, the only real way it's to take destiny in my own hands.
 
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Himalayan

Himalayan

"Wake up to reality, nothing ever goes as planned"
Sep 30, 2022
422
Not really. It is what it is.
 
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sevenkarmas

Student
Oct 10, 2022
170
I still struggle with this. I live by myself now. My wife and kids have cut off all contact. She's been lying to them for the last four years. I still feel bad because I am the primary bread winner. My wife is legally disabled. I know until the divorce is final, she will be living off my son and daughter. Daughter is still in college and works part time. Son works full time, but he would not be able to pay all the bills even if it was only him. I still want them to be ok. Suicide would void my policy. However, an accident would pay out. In addition, it's one less thing they can hate me for. I've actually started researching on how to self-induce heart failure and cardiac arrest.
 
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Wannagonow

Specialist
Nov 16, 2022
376
No. I don't have a preference as to what my family thinks about me ctb. My bipolar and major depression have been present since my teens (now in my 50's). My family was always embarrassed and ashamed of my struggle, never supportive. It was always "don't ask, don't tell", kind of like my sexual orientation (really hate that expression). So, some fake surprise and concern regarding my departure by my family will not matter to me. I'll be gone.
 
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yellowhte

死体
Aug 22, 2022
3
In some sense yes, in some other don't think it matters.
On one hand, if it seems like an accident, people would probably move on quicker (if anyone cares that is)
If it doesn't, people would remember for a while, especially in some certain scenarios.
Well, there is my 2 cents.
 
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AliciaFox32

Master of her fate. Captain of her soul.
Nov 19, 2022
26
Yes. For my family's sake. They're incredible and generous and thoughtful and so kind and understanding. They don't deserve to lose a daughter and sister this way. I am battling to go through with it because of what it might do to them. It's driving me crazy..
 
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ResignationFromLife

Member
Dec 14, 2019
19
I'd prefer it looked like an accident. From what i've seen from people i know passing, friends and famillies tend to cope a lot better when it's not a suicide
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,858
No, I'm good with it. I'd rather die by my own hand. Better than waiting around for a bunch of old-age diseases that cause enormous suffering.
 
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KBye

Member
Sep 19, 2022
9
Ideally yes. When I go I'd like to minimize the amount of pain my friends and family would experience. I've thought a long time about how to achieve this, whether it be making it look like an accident, leaving a note trying to explain myself, or doing it somewhere where I wont be found. I think making my death not look like suicide would be most effective so they wont have to empathize with my struggle or feel bad for not being able to help.
 
Fulminare

Fulminare

Read Thomas Szasz!
Feb 20, 2022
227
I don't have anyone close to me, so it wouldn't matter. I think my younger self would've preferred it to look like an accident though. Now I don't mind it.
 
LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,352
No. People deserve the truth.
 
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Rairii

Rairii

Is it necessary?
Nov 27, 2022
133
I'd like for it to be known that I chose to take my life. Only for the fact that the shit people who have entered my life at one point or another could see that their actions have consequences. However, I know these people would never see it that way and just blame it on me being "crazy and mentally ill," they could never admit to the wrong they've done. They would play my death to suit their own narrative. At least if it's not natural they can't paint it as nicely. Yet maybe someone could see how much pain I was in, finally. Regardless, it wouldn't matter at the end of the day. I'd soon be forgotten about.
 
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jessisme

Specialist
Dec 3, 2022
382
It doesn't matter for me either way.
 
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foreverhopeless87

Member
Oct 13, 2022
14
It woiuld be better because insurance will pay out if it isn't a suicide but no if it is a suicide
 
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Malcolm Yarfa

Member
Dec 8, 2022
26
I wouldn't mind actually for me. This is not one of the criteria I look at, for example in the peaceful book so really wouldn't matter as long as the jobs done
 
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B4mbi

Melly
Nov 11, 2022
77
Yes I wish I could make it look like an accident. I don't want to be blamed after I die as well
 
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