Would you prefer that your death not seem like a suicide?

[Papilio_polyxenes]

Yes I wish I could make it look like an accident. I don't want to be blamed after I die as well

Definitely agree. I am hated by most people I know right now, and an accidental death wouldn't give them something else to attack me for.

My suicide will instead be cited as proof that I was a bad person just like everyone said. They'll refer to my passing with words such as "selfish," "spiteful," or "cowardly."

Beyond all the BS, I don't blame anyone for me arriving at this point. This was inevitable, and I was always a highly dysfunctional person. I have lost the ability to cope with my present circumstances, and I would prefer to finally be at rest.

No anger, no fear. Just a desire for the kind of peace I could never have obtained if I kept living.

 

[SpiroSundae]

Nah. I'm a dramatic bitch and want them to know

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

Desperately. I don't want to hurt anyone. There aren't many in my life but I've been wracking my brain forever trying to think of some kind of accident that won't fail and leave me paralyzed or a vegetable, because I don't want to hurt anyone. The few in my life are pro-lifers who will feel burdened with thoughts of 'missing the signs' or 'should haves' or be tormented with 'why did she do it' etc... And I have one friend who tries so, so, SO hard to stop my life from being a living hell on a daily basis and I desperately do not want to hurt him. He does sooo much to make my life easier. I also have a couple of therapists who genuinely care and try their best to help me. If only I could somehow damage my heart with a medication over time and have a heart attack. Or crash my SUV successfully without the air bags saving me and look like I fell asleep at the wheel. If only I had the intelligence to pull it off.

 

[B4mbi]

Definitely agree. I am hated by most people I know right now, and an accidental death wouldn't give them something else to attack me for.

My suicide will instead be cited as proof that I was a bad person just like everyone said. They'll refer to my passing with words such as "selfish," "spiteful," or "cowardly."

Beyond all the BS, I don't blame anyone for me arriving at this point. This was inevitable, and I was always a highly dysfunctional person. I have lost the ability to cope with my present circumstances , and I would prefer to finally be at rest.

No anger, no fear. Just a desire for the kind of peace I could never have obtained if I kept living.

Yes exactly! I can't believe people still pass blame on the dead, there's just no winning in this society

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

I would rather it not look like a suicide, for the sake of my loved ones. There's a lot of mental illness and addiction in my family and I worry about someone following in my footsteps, or it triggering people to relapse.

At least if it's something else, like an accident or illness, they might come to terms with it. But I have no idea how to stage such a thing, so I have to chose between my suffering and causing them to suffer. It's so frustrating.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes and no.

Yes, to make it easy on my loved ones. Also no, because I feel like suicide is symbolic of my hate towards how my life went. I want to be able to emphasize how much I hated living, and committing suicide would do that.

 

[UKscotty]

Need to stop thinking beyond death. Doesn't matter how the death is perceived, we won't be here to experience it. For all intents, our entire reality will be gone.

 

[aSilentVoice]

@sevenkarmas I'm sorry your divorce is going this way. I hope that your kids will soon recognize when their mom is lying about you and see your love for them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have mixed feelings really. I don't want it to hurt the people I care about- so suspecting it to be an accident would be slightly easier on them maybe.

Still, it's also kind of proof of how bad things felt in a way- that I wasn't just pretending. Not that I've been outright accused of that but I think some people simply find it annoying when I'm such a pessimist all the time.

That and I suppose I think this world is shit. The majority of us are born into lives we are really going to struggle with- we're all slaves to money. Suicide is a real act of defiance in a way. It shows that a portion of the population are really struggling and not willing to play the game anymore. I think I'm probably a rebel at heart. I've just spent the majority of my life timidly going along with it all but I've had enough.

 

[Wait-Bus]

Would you prefer that people thought your death wasn't a suicide?

I think I would prefer them to know the truth. I'd be more worried they thought it was an auto-erotic asphyxiation that went bad.

 

[Lawliet]

yes. i have a possible meningitis diagnosis so i'm hoping it covers it for at least awhile.

 

[Mir88]

If it would be possible without lowering my chances of success, I would appreciate it. It would be easy on others and more simple to accept for everyone. I do not need to leave behind a last scream of pain on purpose.
But it is not a deciding factor, only a little "plus".

 

[ConstantPain]

I know that it won't matter to me because I'll be gone. That said, I'm conflicted. I would prefer the very few people I love to think it was due to an illness, sudden health event, or accident. I would want to avoid them feeling like there was possibly any thing they could have done to help prevent it.
Everyone else, including my husband, everyone at work, everyone in this fucking State I live in now, to know it was suicide and see it as a final FU.

 

[Empyress]

i dont really care if anything id prefer it being clear it was suicide cause i dont think its somehow "wrong" or "bad", i dont want to make big deal of it either its just death, various animal species have been being born and dying for millions of years its not that deep atleast for me im not any different

 

[whywhywhy]

If I had to do it now I would make it look like an accident for the people I really love so they never have to blame themselves.

When they are gone Ill probably leave a note because I dont really like the idea that the people who barely cared make it about themselves just to feel better. After all Ive been through I would consider offensive to be labeled as crazy or whatever shitty lie they tell themselves just to feel better. In my note all I would write why things were the way they were even if it means to shatter the good image that they have of themselves.

 

[spixs_macaw]

I feel that my family and friends will be better of not knowing it's been suicide. It leaves this big why question and I know it will hurt them, particularly my friend which I know for over 20 years now. I know she will be heartbroken and I am afraid that she won't be able to deal with it or it will change something inside of her. I also don't want to leave with a feeling of guilt. I have the right to choose and quit.