Would you live stream your own ctb attempt?

[Itz_d3p]

I would, I mean I wanted to do it like this (in stream) but it also feels strange haha. I think it would feel kinda good (I don't know how to say it, sorry).

 

[bunn1bel]

Considering I will have a peaceful method in a secure location, I would totally livestream it on a serious delay. I am always so full of anxiety and fear and depression that I think for people to finally see me achieving the peace I've been looking for would be nice. Some people can stomach that stuff, and are desensitized or even feel a strange sense of happiness for someone who's killed themselves because of the ideology we share here. Mine would just be me hanging around, making my drink, having a chat with myself and just airing out all the stuff I'm thinking. Tbh, I can't take shit seriously when it's really time to be serious so I would probably be making a few jokes and showing off a cute outfit (what? I cant die pretty? )

This is all wishful thinking though since I will definitely be stopped if I stream it, even on delay. And I just cannot risk that. So my plan b is to hopefully find someone who will video chat with me while I do it instead.. someone who wouldn't stop me or feel scared, but instead serve as an end of life companion. Just someone to crack those jokes with me or say I look like I'm ready to be happy. Not encouraging necessarily, but just being there and not trying to make me feel like shit lmfao. Again that is wishful thinking as I just don't know anybody who I could form that sort of bond with in time and trust they won't rat me out :p

 

[glitterypearls]

fuck no lol seeing people comments on the livestreams/recording of people CTB.. It's disgusting and horrific especially on the girls one. I would not want someone to say such things about my dead body or call me a "loser"

 

[ekat]

i would enjoy dying a nice peaceful death instead of being pressured by thousands if i ever doubted. only die when you are 100% positive with zero doubts

 

[yusso]

yeah but if i would, i would chose a completely lethal method, i dont know what everyone is on about their plan being fooled

 

[Ambivalent1]

My armchair opinion : Narcissism and masochism

 

[nepeta]

no, it's very public and the countless times people have done it on live stream, people tend to weaponise it and harass anyone said person knows. that being said, genuinely asking, why would you want to live stream it?

 

[unnormal9]

Absolutely not. This is not something to be viewed as, in anyway and especially not for vile entertainment.
This is pain—I only wish to be free from; to have a peaceful departure.

 

[vaguebluur]

What encourage people to live stream their own ctb attempt?

im setting one up please contact me if you want to join i dont want to die alone

 

[CTB Fella]

For my next attempt I intend to jump, from a notorious hotspot.

I'll let the onlookers share it for me.

 

[ctb-soon]

Yes with the encouragement!

And to answer the general question, here are some of the assorted motives I think people have for streaming their suicides, few of which if any are mutually exclusive. Most of them are just the general reasons people want witnesses for anything.

• attention and loneliness - people are lonely at the end of their lives, can't have anyone with them but anonymous strangers or their online friends, maybe never felt like anyone paid attention to them in life, etc.
• wanting someone specific to see their death, whether the footage is sent directly to them or just gains notoriety
• exhibitionism (I separate this from wanting attention because it's distinctly different - the exhibitionist often wishes to demonstrate something as much as gain attention) - could be driven by sheer love of drama or anger or the intent to shock and disturb
• proving a point or drawing attention to one - people will tune in and listen for a bit, understand why that person died, the death will be more real to them, etc.
• cry for help - either want to be rescued or die if nobody will intervene
• curiosity about how people might react, whether they'll watch, do anything, try to talk the person out of it, etc.
• they view it as a momentous occasion in their life or even ceremonial - related, their suicide might be felt to be artistic or self-expression
• instructional, educational, informative etc. - there are suicide documentaries by right to die advocates in particular
• they want a record of their last moments of consciousness, or at least somebody to observe their thoughts, feelings, their last words, wishes, whether they were in pain, what death is like - maybe even want to reassure people it was peaceful and happy
• they believe actions and experiences have more meaning if witnessed and shared
• some personal fixation on streaming or social media or tv that hasn't been accomplished
• enjoy violent content and wish to create some of their own

But is there just a simple desire to be watched?

 

[MourningBird]

To force people to witness your misery.

 

[ctb-soon]

If I could I would, so that people could see how the method works (if I can source the method)...
I've watched the hanging videos and they don't look that bad. I just worry about the person who needs to ID my body. And am still scared of hanging a bit, though I get tempted to do partial

I agree with you. Many hanging videos seem have the person passing out very quickly. The body goes into convulsions and that is unpleasant to watch but I don't think they are conscious

As for livestream or delayed I'd be okay with it with the right encouragement. So DM if you want

 

[Shaylla1998]

I would not livestream it, nor do I have any intention of leaving a note or any sort of explanation when I choose to CTB. I cannot comprehend what motivates certain individuals to livestream their CTB, even if it's driven by a desire for infamy. However, that notoriety would only be fleeting, as the internet's attention shifts quickly from one sensational event to the next.

Even if the impact of such a livestream were to resonate emotionally for weeks or months, it would ultimately have limited effect. Society is entrenched in toxic ideologies regarding assisted suicide, and even if individuals have an underlying sense that it may not be inherently wrong, they lack the intellectual strength to voice their true thoughts. Instead, they conform to societal norms and simply label it as "bad."

Human nature already bears a cruel streak, and society has only amplified humanity's toxicity. Livestreaming such an event would serve no purpose, as it would not address the underlying issues that plague our flawed world.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I'm not going to.

 

[Ms.Starr]

Yes, most definitely!

 

[ctb-soon]

Considering I will have a peaceful method in a secure location, I would totally livestream it on a serious delay. I am always so full of anxiety and fear and depression that I think for people to finally see me achieving the peace I've been looking for would be nice. Some people can stomach that stuff, and are desensitized or even feel a strange sense of happiness for someone who's killed themselves because of the ideology we share here. Mine would just be me hanging around, making my drink, having a chat with myself and just airing out all the stuff I'm thinking. Tbh, I can't take shit seriously when it's really time to be serious so I would probably be making a few jokes and showing off a cute outfit (what? I cant die pretty? )

This is all wishful thinking though since I will definitely be stopped if I stream it, even on delay. And I just cannot risk that. So my plan b is to hopefully find someone who will video chat with me while I do it instead.. someone who wouldn't stop me or feel scared, but instead serve as an end of life companion. Just someone to crack those jokes with me or say I look like I'm ready to be happy. Not encouraging necessarily, but just being there and not trying to make me feel like shit lmfao. Again that is wishful thinking as I just don't know anybody who I could form that sort of bond with in time and trust they won't rat me out :p

I am quite receptive to the idea of streaming or a long video delay. I haven't yet figured out why that is the case but it resonates with me.

I am happy to share thoughts and ideas with me. Or DM me. I'm open to anyone interested.

Yes, most definitely!

Same here and interested in the best ways to carry it out. DM me if you feel
Comfortable

 

[MBG]

As I posted in regard to the new R2D ReBreather lll: My question is how will we find out if it works or not? Will someone live or delay stream their attempt on the web? Will they take a trip to Switzerland and have observers witness their attempt? If something goes wrong, what will/can the observers do without legally turning suicide into euthanasia, possibly murder (or at least manslaughter)?

 

[ctb-soon]

I am open to it with a little encouragement. DM me if you want.

 

[Unattainable666]

No, I think it's a very personal experience and one I wouldn't want to share with anyone.

 

[Paperclips]

What encourage people to live stream their own ctb attempt?

Personally no, I wouldn't want the attention. Plus people might try to call authorities to intervene

 

[Old snake]

Not at all. I've seen how those people who do that are treated.

 

[ddn.ctb]

Yes I would stream or create a video that is delayed . I am thinking seriously about it.

I'd prefer it be educational about the right ropes, knots and placement. Those questions always seem to come up.

Would I end up on a gore site -????- being dead has its advantages.

 

[ddn.ctb]

I would and plan to :) Nothing like immortality, even if it is a Gore site.