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madmanbadman

Member
Mar 13, 2026
15
Same, ha... It would be a satisfying externalization of my self-loathing, like, to be brutalized by multiple people as if they hate me as much as I hate myself (•_•)
LIKE FOR ME ITS LIKE I WANT IT TO BE 7 EX FRIENDS ACTUALLY MAKE IT 8
ALL DESPISE ME OR WANTED ME DEAD
I WANT THEM TO GET JUSTICE FOR MY BS
LIKE FR MAN
 
Topaz111

Topaz111

I can feel this body in revolt
Mar 9, 2026
87
I would love to be shot. Firearm is my preffered method, but I don't have access to it sadly so having someone else do it for me would be very convienient lol
I wouldn't want to get stabbed or strangled, too slow, painful and scary
 
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Heidi48

Student
Feb 17, 2024
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mine too
 

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SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
117
This post is not a threat, I promise!
Suicidal people may yearn for death, but how would you feel if someone killed you?
Personally, compared to continuing to live, I would prefer being shot in the head, pushed off a cliff, hanged, or strangled, but I wouldn't want to be stabbed.
Being murdered is to accept death without our consent so... no. I don't want to get murdered.

It's always going to be bloody. Stabbing, shooting, maybe even torture/r*pe. So, no.

I'll die eventually. In my own terms. Or through an accident which no one premeditated.

Now that I think about it, I don't even want to die in an accident as much as I crave to disappear and set aside all of this weight on my shoulders.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

Waiting for my permanent darkness to arrive
Oct 21, 2024
571
Not me, I want to go on my own terms.
 
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SleeplessDreamer

SleeplessDreamer

Tumbling down
Jan 19, 2026
6
Yeah, either that or some sort of accident, that way it'd be an excuse that I wouldn't have to feel as guilty for the pain my passing brings. Maybe even a heroic act, yeah.. totally...

Smash Mouth No GIF
 
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burninghill

burninghill

Student
Dec 2, 2025
125
Yeah. Sometimes I deliberately put myself in situations where something like that could happen, one in a million chance but… you know, maybe.

Having to decide to kill yourself is one of the hardest parts, sometimes I want that decision taken away.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,176
Being assasinated by gunshot by a professional would be good but, I tend to think murderers usually have sadistic motives. They're effectively bullies. I wouldn't want a bully to have power over me again. I'd hope I'd be angry enough to fight back. Especially if they were a serial killer.
 
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chudpolonais

chudpolonais

just let me die already for christ's sake
Nov 16, 2025
16
yes because at least my grandparents and parents wouldn't blame me
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,310
I wish it were legal to pay someone to shoot me in the head with a powerful gun. It's painless because u go unconscious instantly

But they made that a crime as they made all assisting suicide into crimes
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,818
When I became suicidal, just before I found SaSu, I considered walking into a dangerous area where getting killed may be likely. Thankfully I discovered this site.
 
dreaming

dreaming

sleepy
Feb 11, 2026
70
I don't like the idea of potentially some creep being the one responsible for the end of my life so no.
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Experienced
May 4, 2025
258
Shockingly, people seem to forget this one simple fact every single fucking time.​
Same goes for this one.
There is a quote, I cannot remember the exact quote or source (and I've spent the past hour looking), which roughly says "the suicidal has imagined every form of pain: burning, throwing oneself into a volcano, etc." This is why, for me, I'm not particularly concerned about it removing my control or the murderer harming, even torturing me if it results in my death, as the question implies it would. If I were saved and recovered from it, it would be a different story, but suicidal ideation is not a binary between choosing death and being forced to live against your consent.
 
LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
203
A quick shot to the head would be ideal.
 
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shikishiki

shikishiki

closer to heaven, abandoned by god
Mar 11, 2026
12
This post is not a threat, I promise!
Suicidal people may yearn for death, but how would you feel if someone killed you?
Personally, compared to continuing to live, I would prefer being shot in the head, pushed off a cliff, hanged, or strangled, but I wouldn't want to be stabbed.
yes! during my whole life I wished this would happen, I already feel so much guilt, I didn't want to be the one who's at fault of my dead too, but I don't get that option
Every time I cross a street I fantasize about being hit by a car. I know it's far from the most pleasant way to go, but I can't help but get my hopes up.
I do the same, even stopping looking to both sides hoping something happens lol
 
raikko

raikko

Member
Dec 21, 2025
16
This post is not a threat, I promise!
Suicidal people may yearn for death, but how would you feel if someone killed you?
Personally, compared to continuing to live, I would prefer being shot in the head, pushed off a cliff, hanged, or strangled, but I wouldn't want to be stabbed.
Perhaps not strangulation, but yes. I do sometimes wish someone would go up and shoot me in the head, or stab me and let me bleed myself out all lonely and pathetic like I deserve
 
d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
238
Sometimes I wish for it, but not through strangulation.
haha i'm the opposite i wish someone would strangle me while i'm under the influence. or that they'd assassinate me/shoot me in the head.
 
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neverexistedd

neverexistedd

Member
Mar 13, 2026
31
no, CTB for me would be a form of control over my body and a person killing me would take that control away
 
fightclub17

fightclub17

❤︎
Mar 3, 2026
191
Bullet to the brain. I would love to be murdered and have my passing mourned as that rather than a suicide.
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
541
Absolutely not. Want to go out on my own terms, as peacefully as possible