Discussion Would you CTB or become Homeless?

[OnionsOnEverything]

I might become homeless in the near future. Is there even a point of becoming Homeless or should I really try to succeed CTB before this inevitability occurs and save myself some dignity?

I live in a cold place that drops below -20c routinely. So it's be hell to be outside.

Has anyone else been through this? Any perspective is welcome.

 

[aRose]

I've been homeless but I followed the good weather like a hobo. I wouldn't ever want to be homeless where's it's always super cold.
Doesn't mean CTB is the only option - relocation is what I'd suggest.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose

 

[violetforever]

id rather ctb. especially as a young woman.

 

[black_iris]

one of my friends and i had run away when we were young teens. We were homeless for a month. it was absolutely horrible, especially cause we lived in a rainy but not too cold area. After a week you do get used to it but it still sucks nonetheless. You realize how bad things really are. Everyone is disgusted to look at you and they treat you horribly. i would ctb before i had to that again but im already suicidal. to some people its not as bad. you might want to go to a homeless shelter but they are pretty uncomfortable and you might get bedbugs, lice, etc. if you can manage to get a train or plain ticket to another place thats warmer you should do it. It's really your choice, i wish you the best.

 

[Hollowman]

I'd ctb

 

[Exhausted546]

I might become homeless in the near future. Is there even a point of becoming Homeless or should I really try to succeed CTB before this inevitability occurs and save myself some dignity?

I live in a cold place that drops below -20c routinely. So it's be hell to be outside.

Has anyone else been through this? Any perspective is welcome.

I'm about to go through this next month. I'm a full-time student too so i don't qualify for welfare, nor do i qualify for student loans anymore so i ave to work a dead-end job to at least put a roof over my head.

I already don't have any motivation to get out of bed, I'm behind in schoolwork (I'm in my final year of engineering school and refuse to take any longer to graduate,been in uni for an eternity already) the temperature fluctuates between -15 and -25C recently. Honestly? I'm increasingly comfortable with the idea of ctb this weekend. (TBF even if it wasn't facing homelessness I'd still be considering it but this kinda reinforces my choice) Nothing holds me in life, let alone enough to struggle just to survive then live a life of mediocrity

 

[RosebyAnyName]

id rather ctb. especially as a young woman.

Same, and for the same reason.

 

[aRose]

id rather ctb. especially as a young woman.

You are right. I'm always in denial about how bad things got due to being homeless. I felt I needed protection but the ones who harmed me most were the boyfriends I thought would keep me safe. It's better to stay alone as a woman which is also a different paranoia and isolation state to be in.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

I guess this depends a lot on where you life. In my country there are a few places that help homeless people and make sure they have a place to sleep in the winter. (Though i am not sure if there are enough available)

Considering that, no i wouldn't.

 

[madameviolette]

I'd be homeless. But if it's super cold I'm not sure I'd be able to cope

 

[violetforever]

You are right. I'm always in denial about how bad things got due to being homeless. I felt I needed protection but the ones who harmed me most were the boyfriends I thought would keep me safe.

u deserved to be safe and protected. im sorry u were in these situations

It's better to stay alone as a woman which is also a different paranoia and isolation state to be in.

one of my reasons to ctb if im being honest. i cant function either way like this.

 

[Natanael]

It depends on the country and circumstances, but being homeless can be temporary, while death is permanent.

I suppose I would try to see how things go before making a final decision.

Is just my opinion.

 

[lpdsvm]

In my case I will CTB. It will happen one day.

 

[kitkat9234]

It's only a matter of time till I run out of money and lose my apartment. If that happens im not going to have much of a choice. I will not be homeless.

 

[QuincyME]

I might become homeless in the near future. Is there even a point of becoming Homeless or should I really try to succeed CTB before this inevitability occurs and save myself some dignity?

I live in a cold place that drops below -20c routinely. So it's be hell to be outside.

Has anyone else been through this? Any perspective is welcome.

I'll be homeless in July if not sooner. I suffer from severe depression and can't work. I don't have a medical diagnosis and can't afford to get one, not that it would make a difference at this point. I'm fully aware the nightmare existence that being homeless is. I'm 56 and I know this will be the last chapter in my life. I'm in reasonably good health and I could live for a very long time under circumstances that an animal shouldn't be subjected to. With that being said, I have a loaded .45 that is more than enough to do the job. I have put that gun in my mouth hundreds of times and can't pull the trigger. I have 5 months left in my apartment and enough money to cover rent, utilities and food. Knowing what's waiting for me is like a form of psychological torture. Every day feels like it's a thousand years long. I keep telling myself to be grateful for the time I have left with a roof over my head and food to eat, but it doesn't help. Unless I find the switch in my brain between now and July, my existence on this planet is going to be a hellish nightmare with no end in sight. I can't imagine there's too many people out there that can top this in terms of wanting to die.

 

[vascomorrow]

I might become homeless in the near future. Is there even a point of becoming Homeless or should I really try to succeed CTB before this inevitability occurs and save myself some dignity?

I live in a cold place that drops below -20c routinely. So it's be hell to be outside.

Has anyone else been through this? Any perspective is welcome.

I was homeless for 2 years during canadian winters, and its not terrible really. I would sleep on the bus and skytrain until the last run, then some worker wakes you up at the final station. I would then go to McDonald's or A&W and try to sleep there. For showers a homeless shelter or gym works decent, the homeless shelter will also give you a sandwich sometimes. During the day I would work for a roofing company. Then after work I would play pool at a bar. Eventually I got a car and started sleeping in that. The car is by far the best.

I also have experience being in a more remote location camping everyday for 6 months. I liked the camping lifestyle near a river more than the city homelessness.

 

[KlixxFoxe]

Homeless only if you live in Western Europe or Northern America

 

[metfan647]

I would 100% ctb over being homeless. It gets harder to fend for yourself and defend yourself when approaching your 40's and beyond. I'm only a few bad decisions away from being homeless. Not even having savings in the UK can get you a rented room/flat. Need a stable income and a guarantor etc. I've just resigned too so the company offered me a position with less responsibility. Don't think I'll be able to sustain this as it's also not for me.

 

[StillLife]

It's a worst case scenario I've passively considered for a while now, having been a former lurker to places like r/homeless and just reading peoples' exerperiences.
I've come across some absolute heinous, nightmarish stuff.

No, I don't think I'm up for it. Life is already a trudge housed and fed...

 

[SASU-KE]

I'm already miserable as hell although I have everything I could want. I want for nothing, but there's also nothing I want....

Except for this life to end.Just a dreary existence.
Homelessness is a hopeless situation. I would definitely end it if it came down to that.

 

[_Minsk]

sorry to hear. since im already miserable with a roof over my head, i would probably ctb..

 

[ilovenewyork]

I'm about to go through this next month. I'm a full-time student too so i don't qualify for welfare, nor do i qualify for student loans anymore so i ave to work a dead-end job to at least put a roof over my head.

I already don't have any motivation to get out of bed, I'm behind in schoolwork (I'm in my final year of engineering school and refuse to take any longer to graduate,been in uni for an eternity already) the temperature fluctuates between -15 and -25C recently. Honestly? I'm increasingly comfortable with the idea of ctb this weekend. (TBF even if it wasn't facing homelessness I'd still be considering it but this kinda reinforces my choice) Nothing holds me in life, let alone enough to struggle just to survive then live a life of mediocrity

Seems to me you just need to get through this rough patch. Who knows what the future holds? Don't assume. And if it is a disappointment you can always ctb tomorrow. Get it together and finish Uni. You're young and in a good position. Future looks very entertaining

 

[Exhausted546]

Seems to me you just need to get through this rough patch. Who knows what the future holds? Don't assume. And if it is a disappointment you can always ctb tomorrow. Get it together and finish Uni. You're young and in a good position. Future looks very entertaining

The current rough patch isn't the reason. It's because I'm out of energy to fight. I'm already exhausted from the past decade

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i was homeless once. i didnt hate it too much, but i certainly would never want to become homeless again. if things ever go south for me and i end up homeless again, i might just give up trying and ctb

 

[itsgone2]

The current rough patch isn't the reason. It's because I'm out of energy to fight. I'm already exhausted from the past decade

I understand. I've fought and survived before but I don't have the will to do it again. Life, this world, don't seem worth it.

 

[Exhausted546]

I understand. I've fought and survived before but I don't have the will to do it again. Life, this world, don't seem worth it.

Exactly. Went to the woods last night but it was freezing and uncomfortable, couldn't find the tree I had identified last time (99.9% of trees are unsuitable there) there was too much snow to walk in, ended up catching the last bus home otherwise I would have been stuck in the freezing cold for 5hour

 

[itsgone2]

Exactly. Went to the woods last night but it was freezing and uncomfortable, couldn't find the tree I had identified last time (99.9% of trees are unsuitable there) there was too much snow to walk in, ended up catching the last bus home otherwise I would have been stuck in the freezing cold for 5hour

It's frustrating that we have to endure.
After fighting before and recovering, I wanted to help others. It's just natural to not want to do this. But in reality I see now you get to a point where it's too much. Too many obstacles. The rewards aren't appealing anymore. It all just needs to stop. But society doesn't allow the average person to do that.
I understand actually. But we're right. We should be allowed to leave. It's sad but that's the reality.

 

[Macedonian1987]

If I became homeless I would with 100% certainty CTB. Imagine living with depression and with chronic painful illnesses on top of being homeless - that is literal hell on earth.

 

[uselessmanz]

I might become homeless in the near future. Is there even a point of becoming Homeless or should I really try to succeed CTB before this inevitability occurs and save myself some dignity?

I live in a cold place that drops below -20c routinely. So it's be hell to be outside.

Has anyone else been through this? Any perspective is welco

Personally, ctb for sure. Being homeless is not an option for me because of my mental issues.

 

[Exhausted546]

It's frustrating that we have to endure.
After fighting before and recovering, I wanted to help others. It's just natural to not want to do this. But in reality I see now you get to a point where it's too much. Too many obstacles. The rewards aren't appealing anymore. It all just needs to stop. But society doesn't allow the average person to do that.
I understand actually. But we're right. We should be allowed to leave. It's sad but that's the reality.

That's exactly how I feel. I hate it all fr