would you care how you looked after death?

[Doll Steak]

This may just be me, but I care a little bit about how I would look after CTB, of course not that much... but its a small consideration I have.

Like I think of the outfit I would wear, how the method I use would result in me looking after the fact, the location, is it a nice one? is it ugly?

Again though, I really couldn't care that much, and after death it wouldn't matter. Maybe this is just me trying to make CTB into a fun thing, more dissociation crap... but it does help it feel more casual and less like a serious decision, I think it kind of numbs my SI too, not sure exactly. I like to think of it as just falling asleep and me dressing up for the next day ahead of time even though I know I wouldn't be there.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

No . Nothing matters . Especially nothing matters after i die because I'll cease to exist forever . We're all going to die and most will be rotting corpses anyway being eaten by worms

After my brain dies To my perspective it will be as if this horrible world and universe ended as if it never existed in the first place all forgotten

The world, others, me only exist as models in my brain , software etched in neural networks in my brain

 

[darksouls]

since my sepsis I look like a corpse
I feel bad
I dont care what I look like when I am dead

 

[Jadeith]

Yes and no.

Like I think of the outfit I would wear, how the method I use would result in me looking after the fact, the location, is it a nice one? is it ugly?

No, nothing like that. But...
I wouldn't like to leave a mess after i'm gone so i got me a nice comfy body bag, just in case my body decides to empty itself.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I think of it like this: When I die, everything dies with me, meaning: Any concern I might have about how I will look, my worries about how my actions might affect others, everything, goes down with this ship.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I'm dead then I cannot care about anything which is all I hope for, all will be forgotten in non-existence anyway no matter what, all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous, futile existence.

 

[SadBumblebee]

To be the devils advocate here, I do care about what I would look like as when a family member sees my corpse I wouldn't want them to feel even more horrified. I know people don't care because when they are dead nothing matters, but for me it does matter as I care about my family and want to minimise their pain.

 

[hemlocked]

For me it's not so much only how I look, but the general experience for those who find me first. So I intend to empty my bladder and bowels just before I CTB so that I don't smell too gross.

As for looks, I plan on trimming my hair and beard and nails, and to wear decently okay clothes. But that's about it.

 

[NoHorizon]

I'd hate for my family/friends to find me if I was going to be traumatic to look at, but hopefully it'll be the emergency services who are trained to deal with unpleasant scenes, in which case I don't care what I'll look like.

 

[TAW122]

If I had means to a peaceful and reliable, accessible method, then I would prefer a peaceful, dignified exit. However, most of us, including myself don't have that luxury, so I will choose the most efficient, reliable, and painless way to go, even if it is brutal and messy. But ultimately, no, I don't care how I really looked after my death as I just want to exit suffering on my own terms, and also, I would not have the capability to care or experience the aftermath once I'm dead.

 

[kopebaldy]

I care in the sense that it would traumatize the person who will discover my body. But other than that, meh.

 

[Polyxo]

I'm gonna try and look as nice as possible. I don't wanna make the image any more horrid than what it will be for the people who find my body.

 

[Eriktf]

i dont want to make a big mess when i ctb but i dont think the paramedic etc will care that mutch about how i look

 

[Worndown]

Face it, we do not look that great after we die. Does not matter how we pass, we are not looking our best.

 

[Doll Steak]

To be the devils advocate here, I do care about what I would look like as when a family member sees my corpse I wouldn't want them to feel even more horrified. I know people don't care because when they are dead nothing matters, but for me it does matter as I care about my family and want to minimise their pain.

yeah that's mostly what I mean by it, so as to not extensively horrify them anymore than I already would.

I'm gonna try and look as nice as possible. I don't wanna make the image any more horrid than what it will be for the people who find my body.

 

[TheShadowQueen]

I don't care about anything after my death but I do want to dress up and look cute when I do it

 

[WeepingWorm]

I wouldn't want to be cremated, that's for sure. Would rather have my body lay in a comfy grave, but those are very expensive nowadays. With cremation the dust from your body is straight up put in a fucking supermarket locker and that is ridiculous. Can't have the basic things even in death nowadays.

 

[unluckysadness]

yes i worry for my corpse. if only we could access to N... don't like the idea to look like the Smurfs with SN but if there is no other option, I'll take it. just want peace, i deserve it after all this suffering and miserable life. last night i thought about the possibility of getting into a corpse bag before ctb and put a note "don't open, call the police" but i have very strange ideas sometimes...

 

[Alexandra_]

I don't care what I look like, I'll be cremated anyway. I'll wear loose, light clothes. They'll find me pretty soon

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Being the neurotic, no-self-confidence-having freak that I am, yes. I do soberly recognize that my worries will die with me, but I just cant shake off my neuroticism at the emotional level, I guess.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

no

i mean not too much, clean enough clothes. whatever icba i guess

 

[Vivissa]

Yes, but I've concluded that is not the most important. Suceeding is the most important. For myself, realizing I've having those distractions means Im not enoguh commited.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I dont want to harm my body if it's avoidable. I have been in enough pain where I was ready to do what was necessary, but that is my goal if I can help it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel embarassed about certain things. It's really an extention of how I feel about my living body. I also feel bad for the people who are left with cleaning up the mess/ doing the autopsy etc. But then realistically, if that's what they do day in, day out, I expect they've seen all sorts. Asides from trying to make it more convenient for them to clear up- laying down plastic etc. I don't intend to do much in terms of appearance. I'm going to aim for comfort.

 

[Carrot]

Yes and no.
(...)
No, nothing like that. But...
I wouldn't like to leave a mess after i'm gone so i got me a nice comfy body bag, just in case my body decides to empty itself.

That's more about caring about whoever will find you and being considerate. Which is always nice to see in this world.

yes i worry for my corpse. if only we could access to N... don't like the idea to look like the Smurfs with SN but if there is no other option, I'll take it. just want peace, i deserve it after all this suffering and miserable life. last night i thought about the possibility of getting into a corpse bag before ctb and put a note "don't open, call the police" but i have very strange ideas sometimes...

There was a game which did that, had a note on the door. I don't think it would stop people, they would try to help, but it's a nice idea to easr the shock, compared to going to the bathroom to pee and noticing a corpse...

 

[wanttosleep]

I have been fat and ugly my whole life and been bullied and treated worse because of it has left me with no self esteem and a deep entrenched self hatred. I never even considered how I would look when I CTB only that i left as little mess as possible.

 

[Nightfoot]

I would want to look as much like alive me as possible and definitely not mangled or grotesque.

 

[adiosToreador]

half the reason i have ednos is because i want a pretty corpse, so i'd say i care quite a bit,

 

[Malfunction]

I don't care about clothing or anything like that, I just wouldn't want anyone to find a disturbing mess.