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Jblack

Jblack

Specialist
Oct 8, 2018
314
Money really can't buy happiness nor can it change how we feel. Think of the the well to do people who have CTB'd. Their fame and fortune didn't change what was occurring inside them. A ton of money can't change the way I feel or my ultimate goal.
 
Donk

Donk

Useless since day 1
Jan 3, 2020
1,130
I'll still CTB if a large sum of money fell on my lap. it's not like I can use the money to convince dignitas/pegasus to approve my application.

I'll give the money to my family and close friends.
 
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Raminiki

Raminiki

Iustitia Mortuus
Jun 12, 2020
269
I lived on about £100 a month, all bills included, for over 4 years, sacrificing my quality of life, being very careful never to indulge in luxuries. I saved a considerable sum of money. I suffered immensely to do so. I saved because I'm unfairly being held to ransom by my whole family, who expect me to cough up several tens of thousands.

I have money, but I can't use it. Covid happened and showed me I sacrificed my quality of life for nothing, for selfish, manipulative people that have no right and don't deserve it.

I'm trapped with savings I can't use and in a property I can't sell and leave. The impact on my mental health of being guilted for money and forcing myself to live on nothing for years has meant I'm now too far gone to cope with the financial bullshit and legal bullshit.

I've stopped caring. I'm not going to get a chance to spend what I saved and if I did give them what they want, I'd never be free of the resentment of the injustice of the situation. They're all considerably well off and supported by family. I'm alone, isolated and impoverished, with nobody supporting me. I'm expected to pay them when I have nothing and they have everything.

My intention is to die in this property they're feuding over. The savings are with my S/O so they wouldn't get that. But there's still the value in the house and they can fight over my grave and disrespect my memory as much as they want. Just goes to show what kind of people they are.

They can have the money over my dead body. Literally.
 
MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
722
It'll make me distracted but, the damage has been done. It'll probably be easier for me to ctb if have the cash.
 
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Deleted member 23774

Deleted member 23774

Member
Nov 14, 2020
78
No, having more money doesn't make me happier. I received a small inheritance after my mom passed and I have money for what I need and I have extra money to buy stuff that I want. I'm still really sad and I want to CTB because I'm still really lonely. I should be happy because all my needs are met, but I don't really have the human connection that I crave. Having money isn't really fun unless you have friends to spend it on. I do try to help people when I can. I wish that I could do it more, but I'm not in control of my money. I am grateful that I have it.
 
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Livingvsdying25

Livingvsdying25

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2019
1,173
Yes. It would allow me to have more happy moments and honestly especially during this fucking pandemic it's hit me again again that MONEY IS EVERYTHING.

IN this world being poor/disabled means I mean NOTHING.

I AM THE FORGOTTEN.

THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE. ONLY MY FINANCES AND THE LEVEL IN WHICH I RELY IN OTHERS WOULD.

IF I HAD ENOUGH ID NEVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH ANY KINDA MISTREATMENT AGAIN.

Oh and let's not forget that if I actually had money then charging my EX With sexual assault wouldn't be so meaningless. He has money for lawyers. All I have is public shit. No support from any family either. Like I can't even look out to anyone for some support after being fucking raped. I have nothing.

Money would change everything.

I would still kill myself but I'd have more control. I wouldn't feel such pressure work such force to continue living.
 
SuicidalDream

SuicidalDream

Member
Jun 1, 2019
44
If that money could get me:
  • A home away from my emotionally abusive family
  • Basic necessities including healthcare
  • The equipment I need to pursue things I'm passionate about (computers, musical instruments, maybe a bio lab)
  • A car that's reliable enough for long-distance road trips
Then yes, I would be much happier with more money. I wouldn't be suicidal.
 
Deleted member 23586

Deleted member 23586

Hope ur final midnight feels like the hug you need
Nov 8, 2020
208
It would solve a lot of my problems. I could pay off everyone's debt and bills, fix this hell hole of a house I live in to be functional, I would get all my surgeries done, be able to pay for my families procedures, I'd be able kick my abuser out the house, I'd be able to persue my passions the way I actuly envision it, I wouldnt have to worry about health care, and if have access to a whole bunch of other resources. It would solve a lot but not all. But a loooooot
 
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Ae54rge

Member
Dec 6, 2020
40
Yes if it meant I could lock myself away forever, without ever having to worry about bills, food, ect. I spent 2 years in near complete isolation, my biggest problem was it couldn't last forever or I'd still be there.
 
UseItOrLoseIt

UseItOrLoseIt

1O'8
Dec 4, 2020
2,214
Yes, cause I could fly to Mexico tomorrow, buy myself some N and ctb in some luxury resort below a volcano.
And I wouldn't be afraid of meto scams cause I would just order from every site I came across.
Also, I could bypass travel and delivery time by offering my neigbor something like 100000 $ for his hunting shotgun.
 
deadspace

deadspace

Member
Dec 13, 2020
8
No, I was happier when I was homeless.... I've been to both sides of the spectrum and for me more money ment more problems...
 
SweetTangerine

SweetTangerine

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Nov 9, 2020
41
maybe it would take away the pain for a bit. i imagine being told i'll receive an unimaginable amount of money would most likely make me feel elated, but then after around a week i'd just be back to the suicidal mess i was before.

it'd also just give me more options to ctb i guess.
 
signifying nothing

signifying nothing

-
Sep 13, 2020
2,553
More money, more stress. Been there, rather not return there.
 
Nimbus

Nimbus

Hanging on is hard
Dec 2, 2019
211
For a while I thought I would be happier with more money. Then I got more money and it relieved some stress of bills, cost of meds, etc., and it allowed me to not be a financial burden on those who love me, which was a relief. But I was still sad when I woke up every morning. I still wished I had died in my sleep. It didn't make me happy or even content. The pain and despair continues.
 
azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
Money can't buy happiness... But I guess it can rent it for a while...
I'll always maintain crying in a ferrari beats crying in a dumpster but doesn't change the fact you're crying.
I've got a bunch of money, but I can't spend it, so more would be nice but it's a bit irrelevant.

DBD
Why can't you spend your money, if I may?
 
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Fentanull

Member
Nov 17, 2020
21
"Happier?" Huh, I don't really know. But it would definitely make me feel fucking amazing because I'd buy as many kilos of fentanyl as I could carry home and spend every waking moment of the rest of my life blissfully sedated. To be honest, if I could just take my pain killers at the dose I need to kill my crippling depression and self loathing every day, I think there's a pretty good chance I would improve my life to the point of being truly "happy" one day.
 
kappa

kappa

Experienced
Apr 2, 2019
233
Yes. Money guarantees food and a place to stay.

I would probably stop cooking and order lots of takeout. Only buy top shelf weed, maybe some dab rigs.
 
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ab_

"I'd feel trapped if I couldn't CTB at any time."
Feb 15, 2019
271
negatory. my family is upper-middle class if anything and lives in one of the wealthiest parts in my state. lack of money is not the reason I want to ctb.
 
shay23

shay23

Student
Nov 2, 2020
174
Yes, get out of this house, pay for therapy, go travelling and not work!
 

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