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ghostkidd
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- Jan 24, 2024
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So, this is going to be a long one, skip to the end for a TLDR.
I've been wanting to die since I was young. Various issues with trauma and family and being alive in general. I tried and failed when I was an older teen, eventually wound up in a head hospital and decided to give recovery a shot, but even when things were "good" everything has just felt meaningless and like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.
The other shoe always drops. I'm sick and tired of trying again and again and again only to get nowhere.
Point is, I've made up my mind. I just want to make sure I don't fail this time.
I have roughly 18mg of tizanidine, sometimes use it to sleep but am now saving it for CTB. When using it for sleep 2mg lets me force myself to sleep and 4mg makes it near impossible to stay awake.
I also have a very large and mostly full bottle of diphenhydramine- I'd guesstimate 10,000mg. I also sometimes use it to sleep but it has to be 50-100mg (with the exception of times I take it daily, then I have to gradually increase the dose). <50mg doesn't do anything and >100mg causes unpleasant side effects that keep me awake.
I have never mixed the two, simply because I don't see the point in going through them faster than necessary.
Ideally my plan would be to take some of the dph and all of the tizanidine, wash it down with alcohol, and take a bath- with the theory that the combination would be enough to let me slip into the water unconscious and stay that way.
HOWEVER, I live with someone and their kids. I don't want to put her through having to find my body and I absolutely WILL NOT risk one of the kids finding me instead.
I'm thinking, instead, of finding a body of water I can get to (pond, lake, puddle, I don't care as long as it'll work) and doing it there instead.
I suppose my overall question is, would that combination be enough to keep me from regaining consciousness once I slip under the water? Does anyone have suggestions for how to ensure that?
TLDR-
would 18mg tizanidine + 50-100mg diphenhydramine + alcohol be enough for me to lose consciousness during a swim and not wake back up once under the water?
I've been wanting to die since I was young. Various issues with trauma and family and being alive in general. I tried and failed when I was an older teen, eventually wound up in a head hospital and decided to give recovery a shot, but even when things were "good" everything has just felt meaningless and like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.
The other shoe always drops. I'm sick and tired of trying again and again and again only to get nowhere.
Point is, I've made up my mind. I just want to make sure I don't fail this time.
I have roughly 18mg of tizanidine, sometimes use it to sleep but am now saving it for CTB. When using it for sleep 2mg lets me force myself to sleep and 4mg makes it near impossible to stay awake.
I also have a very large and mostly full bottle of diphenhydramine- I'd guesstimate 10,000mg. I also sometimes use it to sleep but it has to be 50-100mg (with the exception of times I take it daily, then I have to gradually increase the dose). <50mg doesn't do anything and >100mg causes unpleasant side effects that keep me awake.
I have never mixed the two, simply because I don't see the point in going through them faster than necessary.
Ideally my plan would be to take some of the dph and all of the tizanidine, wash it down with alcohol, and take a bath- with the theory that the combination would be enough to let me slip into the water unconscious and stay that way.
HOWEVER, I live with someone and their kids. I don't want to put her through having to find my body and I absolutely WILL NOT risk one of the kids finding me instead.
I'm thinking, instead, of finding a body of water I can get to (pond, lake, puddle, I don't care as long as it'll work) and doing it there instead.
I suppose my overall question is, would that combination be enough to keep me from regaining consciousness once I slip under the water? Does anyone have suggestions for how to ensure that?
TLDR-
would 18mg tizanidine + 50-100mg diphenhydramine + alcohol be enough for me to lose consciousness during a swim and not wake back up once under the water?