Venting Would i be missed if im the family failure?

[0kcomputer]

I'm the failure, I have no plan for my life. My mom keeps rubbing off my issues as nothing and she's my only source for help since I can't do shit for myself as pathetic as it is, i know.
She just always tells me she would miss me if I died and I really want to not believe it. Nobody wants me here...not even my friends or family love me anyway.
Idk it's so difficult having hope like a stupid little kid I want it gone.

 

[Unspoken7612]

I don't see why you shouldn't believe your mom - she seems like a more trustworthy source than your self-hatred. It seems likely that you have a picture of yourself which is far more negative than how others view you.