Would having access to money change your view on suicide?

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

I've struggled with the thought of suicide for years but since my financial situation has gotten worse, suicide absolutely has been on my mind almost every day for the past few months.

I'm neither a greedy or materialistic person at all. I only want enough money to pay my monthly expenses and have some left over to save and buy the odd thing here and there. I don't smoke, drink, do drugs or gamble. I don't go out to eat either, don't own a vehicle, don't have any pets or dependents too. Money has been an issue for awhile now and, well, I'm getting down to the final few months before I completely run out of it for good (and go deep into debt).

I keep on wishing/hoping/fantasizing about getting $100,000 and paying off my bills and investing a bit in myself (to upgrade my education via courses and training) and saving the rest. Well, maybe getting a dog too, that's it though.

My parents have a sizeable estate and have pledged to leave it to myself and my sibling, 50/50. They aren't super-rich but have saved a lot over the years and made some wise real estate investments and other investments and are in a good place financially in their lives. No, I can't borrow money from them either, they've been very generous with me in the past, I can't keep going back to the well anymore with them, it's their money to enjoy.

Would my life be happier though? Would I stop thinking of suicide? Would I become a totally different person if I was able to get into a good place with money (not rich, just not struggling each month)?

Would money change things for you (in terms of suicide) if you had access to enough to get you in a better place?

 

[outrider567]

No--I already possess money--Means less than nothing when your girlfriend of 35 years suddenly dies, no one to share it, or anything else, with anymore---My 80 yr old stepmother recently informed me that I'll inherit $3.5 million when she, my stepmother, dies--Could care less, because long term companionship is what's really priceless, going thru good times and bad times together, and when you lose that, nothing means anything anymore

 

[hungry_ghost]

Absolutely.

I mean, I am a little materialistic, but overall, having money is about having independence and security.

For years, my existence has been at the mercy of others due to having no money of my own to do anything with, let alone move out on my own.

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

Nope, I'd just buy stuff to make it easier on my self. Maybe fly to a country where it's legal for assisted suicide. But I have enough money to buy nitrogen and regulator kit that totals around 900 bucks

 

[hungry_ghost]

-My 80 yr old stepmother recently informed me that I'll inherit $3.5 million

Holy shit.

It really is amazing to see the unique circumstances of people's lives here.

Entirely different mindsets.

$3 million would give me a joy I'd never even felt before, yet to you it is dross because of your lost love.

Not speaking critically, just making an observation.

 

[GasMonkey]

I'd CTB anyway.

 

[Line]

Considering one of the reason I'm suicidal is nihilism mindset, having money wouldn't change much. I would just buy some N and ctb

 

[RUPA]

If money can give you some happiness, excitement, It may only last for 3-6 months, I would say
Years ago, I started saving for swiss assisted death. Now even with $, I can't get assisted death, can't hire a hitman, can't buy N
With money I can't buy none of things I desperately want and need

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Being financially independent (even if on a shoestring budget) would certainly allow for more options as regards life and death, which is never a bad thing.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

A certain amount of money could fix things for me to an extent where I probably wouldn't CTB. But I would need a lot of money. More than what OP wants. I am already financially independent and I don't have any debt. I understand that it is already more than what many people on here have. Generally, my main issue is not really about money but could be mostly resolved if I was really rich. I'd probably still be fairly depressed, but not suicidal.

If money can give you some happiness, excitement, It may only last for 3-6 months, I would say

I wonder why, as in why exactly 3-6 months?

 

[lifeORdeath]

I have job and stuff. It isn't about money, it's about future and peace and tranquility. Money doesn't offer that. It does the opposite..my needs are met. I'm f'd up cuz I may lose it all with my mental health and dumb a decisions and actions

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

Probably not, I'm fucked beyond repair.

 

[Smart No More]

I don't think a large amount of money would stop me wanting/needing to ctb but it would help me put it off for a significant amount of time and it would allow me to make better preparations for those I leave behind. On the other side of that, a lack of funds and exponentially dwindling ability to afford the cost of living or do anything about it definitely speeds my journey towards catching the bus.

It would be a dream to have a small property of my own bought and paid for. A small garden of crops and some semblance of self sufficiency would be idyllic and would alleviate some of the concerns and pressures I have surrounding life and death. Funny how money can be the barrier to not needing it.

 

[leeloosnow]

Yea, a bottomless pot of money would fix shit for me. Sounds bad as I always say I'm not materialistic, and that's true, but I also can't stand working endless hours in shit jobs, putting up with horrible landlords/housemates, and knowing that'll only get worse as I keep getting older. Say I won the lottery or something I'd re-open my animal rescue, maybe start some community resources for ppl in need, addicts, seniors, stuff like that. Pretty much what I sank all my time and money into before but on a way bigger scale. I'd still drive a cheap used car, shop at thrift stores, avoid overpriced shit. Ppl caught up in their wealth are often (not always) fake and petty af makes me gag. When I fill my days doing something decent for others I tend to feel like a better person which is great medicine for my depression, but I can't, so I won't. Fuck being a wage slave they ain't gonna profit of my suffering. Feel so black mirror rite now, ya know what those 5million merits did to ppl

 

[freight_train]

I want to die because life is meaningless. I've fucked hookers, done drugs, it's all empty and gets boring. hedonism is not the way, if you can bullshit your way into meaning, THAT is the way

 

[fiasco]

Yeah, if I had money, I would not end up like this in the first place, I think

 

[akirat9]

Absolutely
Not for stupid stuff like food, water, materialistic crap. No, is for paying dev team members to finally release Last Fate. Progress has been on pause because of this. My teammates do not know of course that I am suicidal either, because for obvious reasons. Is collective members who work on for long time, is with established in this point not to lose
I am suicidal for a lot of things that can not be helped.
This is part of the reason I will kill myself. Yes, it was my fault for my own game and loving it making it for passion not for monetary gain. I know I made it harder to kill myself even with sodium nitrite, I could not help that the game grows so much. I do not have a reason to live anymore, my road blocks are just seeing how far it can now be slowly destroyed right in front of me.

So yes, for me, the only thing that could keep me alive is money. No amount of talking or pills otherwise can, expect for selfish forced living branching from a failed suicide attempt which I will not no more. With my frail body and 50G of sodium nitrite I should out as a candle. I stopped trying after my last. No one understands my pain and why I have not cannot just kill myself already now that I have sodium nitrite. It is not survival instinct, it is the forsaken 'Last Fate'.
I want to make something great I feel I can, but i cannot because I may not as a disabled poor individual. This is the reality. My reality is the despair outcome of reality.
Hope I make sense

 

[ClownMe]

No. Ultimately, as cliche as it sounds, money can't buy you happiness. In saying that I would rather be financially well off as opposed to struggling to survive each week like I am at the moment but even if I was the richest man in the World I would still be miserable.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

Money would absolutely tip the scale for me to wanting to live. There is so many things I cannot do because I'm poor like having my husband get a visa to live with me and being able to own a home to garden and pursue hobbies. Like the most basic shit. I literally just eat/sleep/work and play video games as its all I can afford. I cant even get fast food or eat out except for once ever couple months or wont wont make my bill. I am under constant worry/stress that I will be homeless if I don't get enough hours at work. With cost of living going up I am now eating rice and beans type meals so much more I cant even cook nice food as often. Like what honestly is the fucking point of living?

I have been depressed for years literally almost 20 years but I only actually attempted or ever consistently felt like I wanted to die in the last 3-4 years as my financial situation deteriorated after leaving my previous relationship and no longer have a dual income. This caused me to spend all my savings during covid when I was laid off.

500-1000 dollars a month would prob save my life. Honestly I'm just waiting for them to deny the visa then I'm doing it. That is my last fucking hope.

Not to mention being able to get therapy/treatment...

 

[theboy]

I have money
I just lack the guts to die...I hate myself.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Actually yes:
1. id buy my parents and i a house.

2. I would get surgery to correct my micropenis

3. id buy things to distract myself with.

 

[Rounded Agony]

Potentially, not because I give a shit about money at all (I have similarly modest ambitions to OP), but because we live in a horrible corporatocracy. With sufficient funds I could potentially bypass the miserably (and now deliberately) underfunded public healthcare system by seeing a physician in a country where cash means not having to just wait for referrals while your body continues to become more fucked and need more intense treatment by the time you're actually seen. Of course everything could just go south anyway given plenty of doctors are fuckups, but if I had the funds to see the best person in the area of medicine I need that money could buy, I'd have a decent shot at things going well and if not, would at least feel a bit better knowing I wasn't blocked just by lack of money.

I'd also be able to live in a place of my choosing, both in terms of location and situation - no more sharing a house with people where I can't have an animal and there is hardly a social vibe making me feel even more lonely, in a place where a third of the year is a dark, frozen miserable wasteland. I could also start some kind of cool charitable organization that'd give my stupid life a sense of purpose maybe.

 

[who doesn't matter]

Nope. While I admit money would make things a tad bit simpler, it won't "fix" me altogether. Much like most of us here, I don't carry the will to live anymore. I have played all my cards and I am ready to leave the table.

 

[StrangeAndDeath]

Money would make things significantly easier for me right now. Easier as in, I'll get far more freedom to choose my method of ctb, and also because I'll be able to do away with the guilt of leaving my family behind with nothing to show for all they've gone through for me.

But to answer your question, I'm a nihilist, anti natalist and God-hating(if God exists) person, so I would still ctb regardless

 

[Zerengin96]

yes, money gives you independence

 

[squidhead]

Yes, for a while at least. Money are everything in this world whether we like it or not.
I`d to be able to buy some random stuff I`ve always wanted, some more stuff I dont need but can now afford to buy, probably get some fake friends, some fake partner and pretend they like me for who I am, maybe travel a bit even though I dislike travelling and all that.

But in the end it`s all an illusion, there`s no amount of money that will give life any purpose or meaning nor will it get me what Im looking for if it even exists to begin with.
Hope that answers your question.

 

[Codependent loner]

Yes money would help, I'm disabled and can't work, the money I do have I split with my dying brother, and send every cent I can to my son. I get $800 a month so I live on about $350. Money wouldn't make me happier but it could give me the ability to get things that would make my life easier, which would help with the pain. Money would also allow me to move to a place when the time was right to get medical help to end my pain.

 

[Darkover]

i would need 30k year to live without being miserable currently only get £14,390 per year on disability and universal credit thats 1,200£ per month to live off i smoke weed because of a brain injury and take coke because of a brain injury the only thing that gives me any comfort i need 1200£ just for weed per month i am so miserable without drugs that i'm planing on leaving before years end with a herion overdoes

 

[TAW122]

No, it wouldn't change my philosophy on life itself, since I find life to be meaningless, and yes while having more money means having a better quality of life in terms of having basic needs met and living more comfortably (subjective to each person), it ultimately doesn't solve all my problems nor brings me the peace of mind that nonexistence can provide.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, certainly not, nothing ever could. In my case I simply despise life, I view it as being a terrible concept, I'm tired of everything in this world and I don't want to get older where all that will be waiting for me is more health problems. I really don't want to reach old age, that is horrifying to me.

I just view life to be rather tedious as well, it's so pointless and worthless, and no matter what I will always think that to die is a better option. It's tragic how life is even a thing in the first place and how living beings have the capacity to suffer to such great extents. It would be more rational for me to free myself from it all. And anyway many rich people have ctb. Having lots of money doesn't solve all of life's problems, and for me personally I could never be compatible with life, it's the way that I've always been.