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Steamm

Arcanist
Feb 28, 2020
446
I think only my family will care, a few friends will try to get in contact with me thru whatsapp but will later find out that I died.
 
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Gromit-CTB

Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
No
 
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Isadeth

Isadeth

Visionary
Jun 12, 2020
2,538
Family and maybe a friend or two. But I'm sure dozens of my "Facebook friends" will claim to love me so so much and be sad they never got to tell me how much they loved me while alive. Ya know, typical "everyone loves you when you're dead" rhetoric.
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
My family I guess:/
 
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Deleted member 23374

deministrator
Nov 1, 2020
648
No, probably not.
 
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gnomeboy17

gnomeboy17

Specialist
Feb 11, 2020
355
I always thought no, but then I was absent from college on Monday and loads of people were like "oh my god, where were you, are you okay?" Also I live in a small town and loads of people always recognise me and say hi. I think there's more people that would miss you than you think
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
As for "really caring", I bet only my father and brother would. They'd mourn for ages.

As for my few friends left and rest of my family, they'd be like meh! Maybe they'd post something on their facebook saying I was a better person than Jesus Christ and that's it.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
My mom, my best friend. No one else cares because they already act like I don't exist, or left me.
 
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RepressedMind

Miss the full ability to think
Apr 24, 2020
160
My mother would be devastated if I died and I just can't do this to her.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
My mother would be devastated if I died and I just can't do this to her.

I'm in a similar situation with my father. I know my CTB would certainly ruin his life.
On the other hand, I don't think I can endure life because as I get older, I get more depressed and my own death is the only thing in my mind.
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,864
Just my mom. No one else would give a shit.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
Just my mum and dad, but I guess they would would soon forget me.
 
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Coffeandamug

Words are quite useless, and so am I.
Oct 22, 2020
171
Yes... but I have already told them that this will happen with a great deal of certainty. It took them around 2 years to "accept", and by that I mean that they know but won't try to stop me. I had came out to my parents as gay 6 years ago and while there are many important differences between that and telling your parents that you are choosing to die, I see that there was a similarity in how their ideas changed very slowly (and the first months were, oh boy, very messy and emotionally violent) and how they eventually came around to at least try to understand me. My parents are deeply religious and I knew this would mess a lot with our family, and still does in a smaller scale, but I chose not to hide any of this from them. And now I'm glad I didn't. I know they will be devasted when I go, but honestly, if they love me, they should let me go and respect my choice. I have been living in hell for 6 years now, every single day, (and not because of any of this) and I have come around the notion that this is what I truly want for me. I still a little doubtful, but it's very likely that I will CBT this year.

As my friends go, they all know, they all care (not as deeply as my family probably, but I know they still care) but all of them have a very progressive mindset so they are all ok with me choosing to die.
 
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Steamm

Arcanist
Feb 28, 2020
446
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EmptyManForever

My wings were cut and now I can fly no more!
Oct 3, 2020
141
Yes , I'm sure my parents will care and most probably they will be traumatized to find me dead, other than them I have just one friend who will be shocked if I die...
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
My s/o definitely as well as a few friends
There are also a few online communities I run/maintain, and it'll surely cause a bit of a stir, but that isn't the same as caring
 
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Gerard de Nerval

Gerard de Nerval

Ontologist
Oct 5, 2020
145
Either you live in the pain that no one cares if you pass on, or that you want to ctb but hurt others because they love you. I'm in the latter.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,868
Probably just my parents but they'll get over it. I just hope none of my old class mates will hear about it because they will probably start acting like they knew me and how sad they are now that I'm gone, fucking idiots.
"everyone loves you when you're dead" rhetoric.
I honestly hate that...
 
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bornfree

Student
May 10, 2020
158
i think if they know what's happened and is happening to me they'll be glad i am safe dead. I think they know I'm already dead. Just waiting for reality to catch up with the truth. Of course i really don't know any of them so i can only guess.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
740
My father will probably be hurt but will get over it. My brother and my sister would maybe care for a day but then they'd get back to whatever they were doing.
I have a friend I met here who told me he'd be devastated.
 
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Yuki Tenuki

Yuki Tenuki

Member
Oct 30, 2020
58
no, no one will care.
I have no contact to my living relatives, have broken off contact with formerly good friends and my gf is already dead.
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
My sisters would care and my nephews would care.

I know my Dad would care, but I haven't spoken to him in a few years so it may not effect him as badly. All he really cares about is money.

I have some acquaintances scattered around who may become sad. It is actually probably a lot of people now that I think of it.
 
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Disco Biscuit

Specialist
Mar 1, 2020
350
I don't have any friends or close family so my passing won't exactly leave a hole in anyone's life. I'm free to leave so it's just a case of finding the right time. I've been mentally preparing myself for a long time now and I have everything I need. I'm about to spend Christmas, New Year and then my birthday alone so that might be enough.

I recently did a test online and it said I'm very likely to have Asperger's. I was thinking about getting a proper diagnosis but I guess it won't really change anything or make my life better. I think it explains why I have no friends though and that makes me feel slightly better.
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
My stepdad maybe...But no one else really.
 
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Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
706
Possibly they may do but not really my overriding concern.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
My mother would be devastated if I died and I just can't do this to her.

I'm in a similar situation. My parents are very old and I don't want to cause them pain in their autumn of life. One of the reasons I'm still breathing.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
A few people here might be sad. Most of the people I know in real life would care enough to celebrate it :))
 
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drwt

drwt

Member
Dec 1, 2020
58
I'm sure some people would pretend to care. Crying their crocodile tears and using standard phrases like "Oh there was nothing that I could have done better, he had problems"
If anyone actually cared they'd help me now and not let me suffer on my own.
 
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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
Only one person would care - my mother. Otherwise I have nobody and everybody treats me like I'm invisible or some garbage.
 
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Miss_Takes

Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Dec 4, 2020
452
Yes .. I have people who care and would care but as I tried to explain to one who drove 3hrs to see me yesterday (without informing me they were coming) I dont have the mental emotional or physical capacity to care that they care or how they feel at the moment.
I sent them home angry and bewildered and there was a 'me' once that would have tried to make it ok for them but that person is gone.
 
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