Venting Worthless

[lostinthecha0s]

Why do I feel like whenever I'm not doing something I feel so worthless. I struggle to be able to relax and play video games. I can't sit passenger in a car ride without something to do if I'm such a waste. If I wake up and lay in bed for an hour doom scrolling all I can think of is the voice in the back of my head telling me to get up and do something productive or CTB but I just want to relax. I make stuffed animals and even though they turn out very well part of me still feels so useless for making them. Who cares about stuffed animals when the world we live in is the disgusting way it is. I'm rotting on the inside out.

Part of me feels ill only be able to relax once im dead.

 

[discernment]

In my opinion, there's so much societal pressure to be constantly busy and productive to the point where its almost impossible for us to meet this standard, which makes us feel useless

 

[lostinthecha0s]

In my opinion, there's so much societal pressure to be constantly busy and productive to the point where its almost impossible for us to meet this standard, which makes us feel useless

This loop is so true. We strive to meet the societal pressures. Get burnt out. Feel useless so we strive, repeat.

I recently lost my job so that also doesn't help the crushing weight