Worst thing you can do: Lay down fantasizing wanting to CTB

[ToTheTwillight]

This is not to sound like a prolifer, but I realize if I just fantasize about CTB, then I just suck so much energy out of myself, to the point that I don't have any motive or the will to do what it takes to CTB. Life may suck and you want to leave, but still some ice cream or a movie bring someone energy. I think while living you gotta do simple things to try and make you happy, see it as doing things for the last time, and you get more motive and energy to proceed with CTB. But laying down and fantasizing to CTB to the point you 24/7 sleeping and no energy will just make it harder.

 

[snowcloud9]

I do the worst thing you can do every day

 

[DeadHead]

This is 100% true, you're absolutely right. It's exactly what's happened to me. I'm furious with myself because of it, because it's soooooo much harder now.