I'm going to try hypothermia, first, so it will have to be night. I just spent 3 hours googling and plenty of younger people seem to have died in above freezing temp (no chance of frostbite above 0°). I like the night and the stars. I want a lake, so I can go for a dip to speed things along. Dark water, stars. I have to go at night because of the cold and so I'm not caught, but I don't mind. I once cried drunk and alone by a lake in Denmark at night. It was kind of my point of no return, December 2019, I think about it a lot, but it was very very beautiful, a beautiful night. I might go back there. It was all so very beautiful and it would be cold and windy as well. Drinks + more in my bag in case I start to sober up before it's done.
Oh, and if that fails, I'll hang, it'll still be night. I love sunlight too much, I find the world, wildflowers, the smell of rain, all that too pretty so it has to be dark so I can't see it. Fuck, my limbs feel heavy. Feel like a broken puppet.