Depends on what the outcome of my own end show will be. Most likely only get postponed. Still have to be strong to do it, but ive had everything already. Ive known love, parents still together, longtime loving relationship with partner, house, nice cars, middle class paradise if thats the best explanation. I never wanted to have more, even when i had way less i didnt care. But all these steps ive followed from parently advice never made me "happy" as idk what it is. Of if you ask, i dont have a specific answer on it. Everything is gone now, not sad or suicidial because its gone. But it isnt going to be better either. Theres no rebuild. I had my best time. Stop at your peak it is for me.