MyDeath88
Stairs to the stairs to the stairs to the stairs
- Jun 25, 2024
- 18
I've just decided to go with something basic and hang myself. Strangely enough, an article about a girl on suicide watch in England killing herself within a small 15 minute window whilst she was not properly looked after somewhat motivated me. If she could manage to pull it off even with massive constraints, I feel as though there's no excuse as to why I couldn't do the same.
I've thought about doing it in a hotel as they're often more experienced with cleaning these sorts of things. Eventually I decided against it, I guess I liked the stability of my plan more since doing it somewhere unknown could bring unwanted variables. I think it'll take sometime before my body is found, but the smell will probably be noticeable to my neighbours after a few days, so I don't think the decomposition will be that bad.
After reflecting for some time, I'm glad to have realised that the current state I'm in is largely my fault. Yes I may have been dealt a bad hand in life, but the beauty of living is what you can do with the cards you are given. There have been numerous opportunities where I could've turned my life around for the better, but at every turn, I rejected them, made every bad decision you could make, and subsequently ruined myself to the point of no return. I don't blame anyone but myself for what I've done or what I'm about to do.
I really hope there's nothing after this. My existence will be gone, everyone will forget, and life will move on.
Thank you all for this community. I hope you can find peace, in whatever form that may be.
Goodnight, and goodbye.
I've thought about doing it in a hotel as they're often more experienced with cleaning these sorts of things. Eventually I decided against it, I guess I liked the stability of my plan more since doing it somewhere unknown could bring unwanted variables. I think it'll take sometime before my body is found, but the smell will probably be noticeable to my neighbours after a few days, so I don't think the decomposition will be that bad.
After reflecting for some time, I'm glad to have realised that the current state I'm in is largely my fault. Yes I may have been dealt a bad hand in life, but the beauty of living is what you can do with the cards you are given. There have been numerous opportunities where I could've turned my life around for the better, but at every turn, I rejected them, made every bad decision you could make, and subsequently ruined myself to the point of no return. I don't blame anyone but myself for what I've done or what I'm about to do.
I really hope there's nothing after this. My existence will be gone, everyone will forget, and life will move on.
Thank you all for this community. I hope you can find peace, in whatever form that may be.
Goodnight, and goodbye.
