Why'd we all join? (is anyone else seeing a bunch of new users?)

[babydoctor]

I've been a long time watcher/lurker/reader/user of the site, but I only recently decided to make an account and start interacting more. Recently I feel like I've noticed quite a lot of new users posting frequently here. So I'm curious to know, for the new folk, why'd you join? How'd you hear about the site and all that?

And for the more long-term members, did it take you a while before you made an account?

I'd love to hear about what finally brought everyone here, since so many people with suicidal thoughts just sit with them or watch a video about it then do nothing.

 

[Exhausted546]

Trying to die, hopefully in the next 72 hours

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I made an account probably within days of finding the site.

 

[woofwag]

I became desperate to die to escape having to move back in with my mom after not being able (and still not being able) to find a job for over 5 months now. I'm disabled with no experience so I'm pretty much fucked. I looked up everything I could to find methods and eventually landed here. I'm very happy for it because it got me everything I need to die peacefully. And it's really nice to see a whole group of other people who have the same mentality about suicide as I do.

 

[babydoctor]

Trying to die, hopefully in the next 72 hours

Why so soon? And how do you feel about the site and the community so far during your time here?

 

[suacide]

I just wanted to talk about how I really felt somewhere where I won't be condescended upon.
There's nothing that makes me wanna leave faster than someone virtue signalling, acting like I'm the issue and telling me to "get help" as if they've ever seen how hard I've tried and for how long. Do they know that never helps, alienating people like that, or do they do it just to feel morally just?
But here I feel safe to just be honest. I don't need to bottle anything up, and I end up meeting people who feel the same.
And ironically, that makes me wanna stick around for just a little longer. I'm no longer in a rush, I'm taking my time but know if it ever gets to a point, it's always there.

 

[kuroshimi]

Just always wanted to talk about my feelings. Found site when looking for proper way to ctb just in case.

 

[Hime]

Holiday season is nearing up, a tough time for many... That's at least one of the reasons for why I joined. A place where I can share anything unfiltered and anonymously is really nice...

 

[thisIsNotEnough]

I got tired of burdening the people who know me with my suicidal thoughts. I want them to believe I'm not suicidal so I'll have an easier time ctb when I'm ready to and they don't have to worry as much / blame themselves for not helping enough.
I guess part of me also wants to be known after I'm gone, even just as a username on this site. The idea of people reading my post history and truly understanding why I did what I did is oddly comforting.

 

[Lesilorula]

Wanted to find a cowardly way to end it. I'm afraid I've found that this site too late though, I've waited too long and caused damage to myself in the process. Btw I've known this site exist for almost a year but only checked it out yesterday, I registered the same day.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hello and welcome to the (as you know) caring community. Responding as an older user, I made an account the moment I discovered the site. I did not even know about lurking until after I joined. I was so happy to join to find a method since I became suicidal basically overnight after my world collapsed. But anyways, I remember receiving the approval of membership email while I was at work and couldn't wait to get home to access the site for the first time. It was the happiest moment in many months and one of the last happy moments since. The other happy moments were when I cracked the code for an SN source back then, and finally placing my order a whole six months later due to timing and an unreal roller coaster ride since then.

 

[Erwynminty]

I've been a long time watcher/lurker/reader/user of the site, but I only recently decided to make an account and start interacting more. Recently I feel like I've noticed quite a lot of new users posting frequently here. So I'm curious to know, for the new folk, why'd you join? How'd you hear about the site and all that?

And for the more long-term members, did it take you a while before you made an account?

I'd love to hear about what finally brought everyone here, since so many people with suicidal thoughts just sit with them or watch a video about it then do nothing.

I just want to talk to people who suffer through similar things. I feel alone with the topic in real life.

 

[Dr.Duck]

I heard about it through a YouTube video that was calling this place pro-suicide. Since I also am not doing great and that I think it's important to fact check. I looked for the place they called SS which led me here. I read through threads and found it very welcoming, kind, and caring. So I decided to stay and make an account, so I could finally vent without the problems that come with that.

 

[U. A.]

This thread is a very interesting piece of evidence that more (possibly younger) people have been finding their way here than the time when I joined—and even more so before—whose primary aim is to, quite literally, "talk about feelings" to quote a post in this very thread.
Digging into historical post pages you see very quickly there was much much less talk of anything not strictly related to accomplishing suicide. These days there is a lot of trauma dumping, non-suicidal self-harm vents, and people looking to make friends.
Aside from the latter which imo is a horrid idea in a place like this, these are just interesting changes in the landscape that this site has seen.

 

[bunnƴ]

Seemed like a special forum and I realized it related to me

 

[Tautochrome]

I read about the forum in some anti-suicide article, so of course I had to check it out. Since I've completely given up on life long ago, it seemed like a perfect place to find info on peaceful exit methods

 

[kuroshimi]

I heard about it through a YouTube video that was calling this place pro-suicide. Since I also am not doing great and that I think it's important to fact check. I looked for the place they called SS which led me here. I read through threads and found it very welcoming, kind, and caring. So I decided to stay and make an account, so I could finally vent without the problems that come with that.

What's video about? I have read many articles in which this site was mentioned as "pro-suicide" as well, but at that point I was already convinced that this was not the case. That's why I am here.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

I joined a little minute ago.

I was on the subreddit (because, ya know, my death will probably be at my own hands eventually) before reddit decided the vibe didn't work. I was saddened when that happened. I found out from a comment on another subreddit that the website exists. And here I am. Like many, there's no one in my personal life that I am both A. close enough to confide such feelings in and B. that isn't then made acutely distressed by my doing so (ie my husband -- lovely human, thankfully does not suffer from suicidal ideation and therefore does not "get" it).

 

[Dr.Duck]

What's video about? I have read many articles in which this site was mentioned as "pro-suicide" as well, but at that point I was already convinced that this was not the case. That's why I am here.

Here's the video

 

[kuroshimi]

Here's the video

ohh, i've seen this on my feed a while ago. Haven't watched it yet. The time has come, ig. Thanks

 

[Dr.Duck]

ohh, i've seen this on my feed a while ago. Haven't watched it yet. The time has come, ig. Thanks

Welcome!! ^^

 

[Oreki]

Here's the video

That's the very same reason that led me to this site

I just wanted to get some insight into what others are struggling with, and because I myself am suicidal. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I've got a lot of chaos in my head right now, venting might not really help, but it's good to know there are like-minded people out there