Why won't the urges stop

[wraithscrypts]

my self harm is getting worse, i used to be able to be satisfied only doing styros once every other month but within the span of a month or so ive gone from light fat to fascia and i dont want to stop, ive been doing it much more often and even after reaching the deepest ever, the next day i just get annoyed for not going deeper and i feel more of an urge to do it again. why wont this urge go away? why is it getting worse and it never feels like enough, each time i cut it gets more dangerous and it still doesnt feel like "enough" for me fuckkkkk

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

Gotta take things one day at a time. I feel you.

 

[theboy]

because you have been thinking like this for too long

 

[Dannyboy]

I am feeling this right now aswell. i got brand new scars and i just want to make new ones, how can grown up people be like this, i think to myself all the time.
i hope and dont hope(paradoxical iknow i wont SH tonight.

I just sometimes get a feeling i fucken hate myself and i deserve it, the pain,

I hope u are doing ok and did not SH <3

 

[Coconut blue]

because you have been thinking like this for too long

i think neurology plays into this. If you've been using sh as a coping mechanism for years and years, the first response your brain has when it encounters setbacks would be to jump to it. I relate to op on so many levels. i honestly don't think i'll ever find something to replace sh that works as well

 

[wraithscrypts]

i think neurology plays into this. If you've been using sh as a coping mechanism for years and years, the first response your brain has when it encounters setbacks would be to jump to it. I relate to op on so many levels. i honestly don't think i'll ever find something to replace sh that works as well

So true.