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So if you're looking to OD and can access the meds why not go for 5 drugs mix? Is there a specific drug on that list thats hard to obtain from DH?According to PPH reliability is 10 and peacefulness is also 10. Does ordering morphine risk legal trouble?
 
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So if you're looking to OD and can access the meds why not go for 5 drugs mix? Is there a specific drug on that list thats hard to obtain from DH?According to PPH reliability is 10 and peacefulness is also 10. Does ordering morphine risk legal trouble?
It can definitley be hard to source some of the drugs in the cocktail. I, for one, haven't been able to find Digoxin and the Amiltriptyline sources I can find don't seem too reliable at all.

Also; cost. There's a bunch of money involved in sourcing all of this. Legal trouble can definitely be a risk since ordering off DH is still illegal. If you don't get caught, then yay.

Lastly; it's a lot of powder to ingest. If you've ever held a card of pills you can begin to imagine how much you'd have to ingest to get the full DDMAPh down. It wouldn't be easy in itself.
 
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i thinkt the main issue is with Digoxin. atleast for me, the rest i would be able to source indeed with dh.

but search for DDMAPH. pure did a breakdown in cost. the amount needed is just high.
i think it was 15g of morphine needed
 
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For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look in DM for the only vendor selling it. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look on DM for the only vendor selling them. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
 
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For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look in DM for the only vendor selling it. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look on DM for the only vendor selling them. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
When u order off the DN do you use your own mailing address or do you have it delivered to UPS/FedEx for pickup?
 
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Unfortunately, you have to order to a real address. Most vendors won't send to a PO box. Also, you want USPS, not USP/FedEx. Don't quote me on this, but USPS needs a warrant to open your package; the private companies don't. It's something like that, but I do know it's better going with USPS. It should be in one of the bibles.

BTW, if it's Digoxin you're ordering, I'm working on a procedure for extracting the active ingredient from the 400 tablets. Turns out it's not so simple. I'll post it when I'm done.

One other thing: I didn't realize it, but China White is essentially Fentanyl, or at least that's the main ingredient.
For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look in DM for the only vendor selling it. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.

UPDATE:
  • Total cost is closer to $2K.
  • China White is, or is mostly, fentanyl. So, if you want to go that route, morphine can be replaced cheaply with china white or a nitazine. Personally, I'm worried that those types of "extreme" opioids won't be very peaceful. They kick in fast, so it's possible (I think) I'll be conscious when they kick in.
  • The final quantity of mixture might not be 1/2 cup. TBD.
  • A procedure for extracting purish Digoxin from the 400 tablets is in the works. TBD.
 
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When u order off the DN do you use your own mailing address or do you have it delivered to UPS/FedEx for pickup?

I replied to you above, but forgot to quote you in the thread.
 
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Unfortunately, you have to order to a real address. Most vendors won't send to a PO box. Also, you want USPS, not USP/FedEx. Don't quote me on this, but USPS needs a warrant to open your package; the private companies don't. It's something like that, but I do know it's better going with USPS. It should be in one of the bibles.

BTW, if it's Digoxin you're ordering, I'm working on a procedure for extracting the active ingredient from the 400 tablets. Turns out it's not so simple. I'll post it when I'm done.

One other thing: I didn't realize it, but China White is essentially Fentanyl, or at least that's the main ingredient.


UPDATE:
  • Total cost is closer to $2K.
  • China White is, or is mostly, fentanyl. So, if you want to go that route, morphine can be replaced cheaply with china white or a nitazine. Personally, I'm worried that those types of "extreme" opioids won't be very peaceful. They kick in fast, so it's possible (I think) I'll be conscious when they kick in.
  • The final quantity of mixture might not be 1/2 cup. TBD.
  • A procedure for extracting purish Digoxin from the 400 tablets is in the works. TBD.
I was watching a YouTube documentary I think it was(?) about fentanyl and it stated USPS uses dogs and laser scanning to detect fentanyl in boxes without opening them. But they also mentioned there were like 600k-800k packages going through and there was no way to check them all. They said drug suppliers use smaller quantities to try to bypass their protections. The video was posted a few years ago I believe so there's a chance it has improved since then.

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It should be noted I don't believe UPS / FedEx store pickup counts as a P.O. box. It's just the store's address, you pickup the package (probably requires your ID), and pay a fee (in cash). Although idk if that's safer or more risky than USPS to your official mailbox. I would think it adds an extra layer of security, especially if you used a hat and a fake ID. But idk.
 
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I was watching a YouTube documentary I think it was(?) about fentanyl and it stated USPS uses dogs and laser scanning to detect fentanyl in boxes without opening them. But they also mentioned there were like 600k-800k packages going through and there was no way to check them all. They said drug suppliers use smaller quantities to try to bypass their protections. The video was posted a few years ago I believe so there's a chance it has improved since then.

Edit:
It should be noted I don't believe UPS / FedEx store pickup counts as a P.O. box. It's just the store's address, you pickup the package (probably requires your ID), and pay a fee (in cash). Although idk if that's safer or more risky than USPS to your official mailbox. I would think it adds an extra layer of security, especially if you used a hat and a fake ID. But idk.

Ha! It sounds like a good idea. I'm not really an OPSEC guy. As far as the dogs and lasers, it sounds a little like disinformation. These days, I'm more worried about how they could be using AI.

In any case, most packages of powder that I know of came in double vacuum sealed bags that were supposedly cleaned with isoprop. That won't work completely for prints or DNA, but it should take care of the powder.
 
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