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tooafraidtodiez

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So if you're looking to OD and can access the meds why not go for 5 drugs mix? Is there a specific drug on that list thats hard to obtain from DH?According to PPH reliability is 10 and peacefulness is also 10. Does ordering morphine risk legal trouble?
 
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So if you're looking to OD and can access the meds why not go for 5 drugs mix? Is there a specific drug on that list thats hard to obtain from DH?According to PPH reliability is 10 and peacefulness is also 10. Does ordering morphine risk legal trouble?
It can definitley be hard to source some of the drugs in the cocktail. I, for one, haven't been able to find Digoxin and the Amiltriptyline sources I can find don't seem too reliable at all.

Also; cost. There's a bunch of money involved in sourcing all of this. Legal trouble can definitely be a risk since ordering off DH is still illegal. If you don't get caught, then yay.

Lastly; it's a lot of powder to ingest. If you've ever held a card of pills you can begin to imagine how much you'd have to ingest to get the full DDMAPh down. It wouldn't be easy in itself.
 
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i thinkt the main issue is with Digoxin. atleast for me, the rest i would be able to source indeed with dh.

but search for DDMAPH. pure did a breakdown in cost. the amount needed is just high.
i think it was 15g of morphine needed
 
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For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look in DM for the only vendor selling it. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
For Digoxin and Amiltriptyline , go on the DN and look on DM for the only vendor selling them. It's in India. Those drugs are cheap as shit.

Ordering off the DN is very safe. Been doing it for years. Just don't do something stupid, like ordering a narcotic from another country.

Total cost for me was less than $1K.

Morphine is ridiculously expensive and fent. is too hard to source. You hve to select an alternative opioid, like a nitazine.

I estimate the final quantity of powder for my mixture to be about 1/2 cup. Not optimal, but doable, especially for rectal.
 

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